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TW: Cursing and blood.
Angst 
"Aether Poinsettia Lightwood, open the fucking door!"-X
"Aether? AETHER?"-X
Few hours earlier
"Xiao. I'm going to work. Please, be safe. I love you."-A
Aether gave a kiss on the cheek to his lover, then left their apartment. That felt fake, it was fake.  Xiao always wondered where Aether went for work since he refuses to tell him. He'll just check Aether's phone once he goes to bathe when he gets home. It's not like the blond doesn't hide anything from him. Right?
As soon as the blond got home, he did the same thing he did in the morning and went to his room. Xiao took this as an opportunity to look on his lover's phone. He saw notes of requests for something, small reminders, and an order for a prescription. But Aether wasn't on any medication, why would he need it?
"I can explain." He just got out of the bathroom, wanting to find his phone. He looked shocked.
"Please do."-X
"I made little reminders for little things since I always had headaches at the end of my shift. So I made an order for medication for them and it arrived at my workplace earlier today. The requests are for something I have to submit to my supervisor tomorrow."-A
"Then why hide your phone?"-X
"Because it's my privacy. And get off of my phone!"-A
He snatched the phone and went back to the bathroom. That was rather strange of the blond to act like that. Xiao decided to give him alone time for an hour or so.
Present 
It had been 3 hours, and Aether hasn't come out of the bathroom. He was slamming on the door crying, wanting to make sure his lover was alive. The blond already stresses himself out to make sure that others can live happily, but he can't? That's no fair!  He's done it so much that the raven kept track of how many nights he works the nighttime shift, which is always 6 times a week. He even hasn't made it through Monday yet, and he took the Night Shift for Monday. Xiao has been trying to cheer up his lover, but he always seems down.  Aether wishes he could experience his love to Xiao again, but he can't.
"AETHER, OPEN THE DOOR! PLEASE!"-X
He had no choice. The raven kicked down the door, to find a pale Aether on the floor, laying in his blood and tears. With a pen full of his blood and written on a paper. The raven was in shock. Xiao had to find out what was wrong with him. And fast.
"He doesn't have a heartbeat. His pulse is gone. No, Aether please stay with me! Stay with me!"-X 
"Please! You stupid idiot, you don't know how much I care for you! How much I worry when you work overnight, how much you stress yourself! Everything! Aether please, wake up!"-X
As if Celestia heard him cry, something was pounding in his hands. A pulse, a sign that Aether was alive! Oh thank the archons he was alive, then he would've killed himself.
"X-Xiao? Why are...you...holding my arm?"-A
"Your alive! Your okay!" Xiao gave Aether the biggest squeeze ever as Aether's memories flowed back in. He forgot what it meant to smile, so he stayed dull. His eyes seemed lifeless, at a loss for colors. So he hugged him back, which made Xiao tear up again. The blond didn't show any kind of real emotion since Lumine passed away. 
She was the closest to Aether, and his sister always cheered him up. She died two years ago due to being assassinated in her own home, he couldn't deal with her death after that point. He changed, he showed cold and bitterness towards everyone. He didn't smile anymore, even towards Xiao. He didn't even cry no more, he only showed his bottled up emotions.
But for the first time in two years, Aether cried. So many tears into his lover's turtle neck. Xiao just held him tighter, and they stayed like that silence for almost an hour. Rocking back and forth and silent sobs were all they did.
"I-I'm sorry. For projecting my anger on you. Lumine's death has been hard on me, and I-I couldn't find the assassin no matter how hard I tried. I just felt so useless, and just so stupid."-A
"You're not stupid. You're just Aether. A guy who makes others happy, but is hard on himself. A guy who overworks himself to be happy, but he is not. The guy who is my lover, Aether Lightwood."-X
"What's with all the blood writing?"-X
"Paperwork. I ran out of ink and was too much of coward to freaking ask for another pen, so I used my blood. That didn't end well now did it?-A
"Don't ever scare me like that again. I'm begging you."-X
"Mmmm. Sure. If I get more moments like this often."-A
"There's my sunshine that I grown to love. You see colors now?"-X
"The most color is you."-A
My heart. My fucking heart.
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