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elizabeth pov
i didnt ever touch myself in that kind way 
my grandmother was really religious and always told me every summer that i went to her house that it was disgusting, bad, and sinful to do it
she said i should wait until i find a husband to give me pleasure, i shouldnt do it myself so i never did 
she told me that everyday for two months until she died when i was 19 
[idk if that makes sense but just roll wit it 🙃]
so seeing a vibrator for the first time in real life was a great shock to me 
ive only saw them online. my ex best friend from high school had shown me what it looked like when she was talking to me about her using it on herself 
i dont even want to start on what lead us to that conversation
"what?! you've never masterbated?!" lavender nearly shouted, shock and confusion written clearly all over her face
"jeez let the whole world know why dont you" i mumbled feeling self conscious
was it bad that hadnt?
"sorry i just-" she sat beside me on the bed. it was quiet for literally two whole minutes, "d-do you want to t-try it?" 
i looked at her surprised, "what?" 
she ran her fingers through her hair and looked away
"i have another one. n-new and never opened.... you could have it" 
"im on my period" 
"thats when its best to use. orgasms helps with cramps" she shrugged and glanced briefly at me
"where am i supposed to do it?" 
this whole thing was absurd. if only i didnt pick up the box. i should've minded my business but i was curious 
did it feel good? 
"here. i dont mind plus i need to go to the store for a few hours, im running low on groceries" she offered
i looked at her with a eyebrow raised. "do it on your bed?" 
she nod, "you can lay a towel down and once you've f-finished you can wash my sheets"
"this isnt another way to get me to wash your bed sheets for you is it?" i joked and pushed her shoulder 
she laughed, "maybe" 
before i could retort i was struck with a cramp on the side of my stomach and in the middle 
i groaned and fell back against the bed 
"are you alright?" she asked concerned
"give it to me" i hissed and squeezed my eyes shut
"h-huh" 
"give me the damn thing lavender!" 
i could feel her lift off the bed and rummage around in the closet
"uh here.... I'll get g-going... um yea to turn it on the button is at the bottom. the levels are on the side, it goes up to five. h-have f-fun" she quickly left, shutting the bedroom door behind her
i opened my eyes and looked at the purple microphone shaped vibrator
i got up and went into the bathroom for a towel
im really doing this