lyrical
/ˈlɪrɪk(ə)l/
a beautiful expression of emotions.
When Aurora had woke up she saw that Draco and Pansy had laid down next to her. Her heart warmed up at the sight of them. They were still sleeping so Aurora went to the bathroom so she could take a shower. The water stings a little on her wrist but she ignores it.
By the time she was done, Draco and Pansy had also woken up. Aurora walked out of the bathroom and gives a small smile as she says, "Goodmorning,". When she saw the look on their faces her smile faltered and then faded.
"We need to talk to you, Aurora," Pansy said, patting the seat next to her on Draco's bed. Aurora looked at Draco before she went to sit next to Pansy. She didn't know what they wanted to talk about but she knew that they weren't exactly happy with it. In fact, they looked quite angry and Aurora hated it when people were angry at her.
"You know that you can talk to us, right?" Draco said as he ran a hand through Aurora's hair. "Uh, yeah," She responded with a confused look on her face. "Why didn't you tell us h-how bad it was," Pansy said as she already felt the tears coming. "How bad what was?" Aurora didn't like how vague they were acting.
"Your sleeve went up when you were sleeping," Pansy said whilst tears were staining her cheeks. "I, uh, I don't know what you're talking about," Aurora stands up, ready to walk out of the dorm as soon as possible. Draco moves in front of her, grabbing her shoulders, "It's okay, Aurora, we just want to help you,".
Aurora fights against Draco, wanting to get out of here but eventually she gives up. She stops punching his chest and breaks down. Tears now running down her face as she falls to her knees, Draco following, tucking her into his embrace. He looks up to Pansy and they both look terrified, terrified of what was going to happen.
Aurora feels embarrassed, she doesn't want Draco or Pansy to see her crying. She hides her face in Draco's chest. She can feel the sobs break through her, from her stomach, and through her chest. Her hand comes up to cover her mouth to stop the pain from spilling out.
Draco's hand gets a hold of her hand, the one who wasn't clutching to her mouth. It's only then that she realizes that he had been whispering sweet things to her. Maybe he and Pansy really wanted to help her.
"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to do this," Aurora mumbles with her head still buried into Draco's chest. Her sobbing turns into silent tears. "We know, we know," Pansy said, coming to sit behind her. Her hands came up to stroke circles on Aurora's back.
Aurora wipes her eyes with the back of her hand and she breathes in through her nose deeply. Her hands and face are wet from her tears and she already feels a headache coming.
She never meant to cause any harm, she just tried to cope with the feelings she felt, and the feelings she didn't feel. Stinging thighs and the blood staining her sleeves was not the cure. Neither was rejecting what she ate or setting alight her thoughts and inhaling them until she choked.
The answer was not found at the bottom of a bottle or swallowing handfuls of pills while she tried to ignore the pain as she let her mind cloud over. She has not found the answer to lighten her heart and make herself feel normal again, and she may never will, which is okay.
Aurora knew that she needed to get better, she wanted to get better. She wanted to be able to hold a knife without thinking about what could happen if she just cut one little line into her skin. She wanted to be able to smile without having to pretend.
"Will you let us help you, love?" Draco asked her, stroking Aurora's head. She didn't have the energy to talk so she just nodded. She wanted their help, even though she didn't want it at first. She couldn't help herself so there was no other choice than to accept their offer.
Aurora was still ashamed that they found out about her self-harming, but she knew that they weren't judging her. They are her friends, and friends are there to help you. Draco wipes the last tears from your eyes with his thumbs as Aurora falls asleep. He lifts her up and carries her to his bed where he softly lays her down, laying the blanket over her.
Draco sits down next to a sleeping Aurora and he holds his hand out towards Pansy. She grabs his hand as he helps her stand up, and then she sits down next to him. "That went okay, I think," She says as she cups Aurora's cheek, her thumb gently brushing over it.
Pansy and Draco continued to talk about Aurora, they wondered how they could help her. Pansy had helped her before so she kinda had an idea on how to help. They weren't going to 'babysit' her because they both thought that this would drive Aurora crazy. So they just needed to trust Aurora at the moment she was alone.
Pansy was on her way to the boys' dorm. She needed to talk to Theodore, and also to Daphne but Theodore was more important right now. Pansy walked into the dorm and she is happy to see that only Theodore and Daphne were there.
Pansy had explained everything to them. She even told them that Aurora had relapsed. She knew that it wasn't her place to tell, but she needed something which would make Theodore talk to Aurora again.
She also made sure that Daphne knew how bad of a friend she had been to Aurora. Daphne did not even talk to Aurora since Theodore and Aurora's father had died. The only thing she had cared about was Theodore, which makes sense since he was her boyfriend. But Aurora was one of her best friends, and she had just left her to figure it out on her own. Daphne didn't even ask her if she was okay. Not that Aurora would have been honest to her but it would've definitely helped if she had known that Daphne cared about her.
