Home at Last

                                    

                                          
Chapter 11: Home at Last
                          
we stayed in the Hospital 2 more days, little Angie slept a lot, the nurses told me to wake her up for feedings so she wouldn’t lose too much weight. My milk came in on the last day and this really awesome lady came in, she was a lactation consultant, she showed me how to feed Angie so it wouldn’t hurt for me. It was so cool.
                          
Michael and the whole family came to pick Angie and I up, they loaded up the flowers, and the baby stuff into the car, then I buckled her into her car seat and we headed home, Michael sat in the back with me, he took my hand and I smiled up at him then I laid my head on his shoulder, enjoying the ride home.
                          
We got home and Michael brought the baby seat up to my room, I took Angie out, she fell back to sleep in my arms.
                          
“shes so beautiful Kells” Michael said as he gazed at the sleeping baby in my arms. 
                          
“she really is isn’t she” I said.
                          
Angie had a lot of hair for a newborn, her hair was dark like mine, she had almost black eyes right now, the doctor said they would turn blue real soon, probably in a few days he said. She was so tiny, I couldn’t believe she was so small, I felt like I was going to break her every time I picked her up, Michael said she was fine, darn it why did he have to be so sure about it, he was more confident than I was with Angie, that sucked but I trusted him. He had fallen in love with her the moment he saw her, it was so sweet because he didn’t think of her as Chris' baby, he treated her as his own, wow I couldn’t have asked for a better man to be in love with. God has blessed me with so much.
                          
Angie started fussing so Michael handed her back to me “here honey I think she's hungry”
                          
“I forgot what that lady said about how to hold her”
                          
“she said to make sure the baby's mouth is open wide before you put her on, does that remind you at all, that's as much as I heard before I walked out” he laughed
                          
“oh yeah that's right, okay Michael, out I have a baby to feed” he kissed me then he left closing the door behind him. I got her latched on and she started eating, it was such a weird feeling but at the same time it was relaxing, Angie started falling asleep so I laid her in her crib, then went down to eat dinner. After dinner, I fed and changed Angie again and she fell back to sleep, I laid her back down and Michael and I watched a movie and we cuddled on the couch, I loved how it felt when he had his arms around me, he made me feel safe and loved, I felt cherished by him. After the movie was over, I kissed him then I went up to bed.
                          
~*~
                          
it had been 5 days and I have only had maybe 5 hours of sleep, I was at my wits end, I had no idea what to do. I'd feed her, and set her in her crib when she fell asleep, she'd sleep for maybe an hour then she'd wake up wanting me again. I was so tired.
                          
I was sitting on the couch feeding her, I was fighting sleep when Michael came in.
                          
“hey sweetie” he said as he sat down next to me
                          
“hey Michael”
                          
“how are you feeling love?”
                          
“I'm so tired, I don’t know what to do, I cant get any sleep”
                          
“what have you done so far?”
                          
“I change her, feed her, then when she falls asleep I put her in her crib, she only sleeps maybe an hour, if I'm lucky then she wakes up wanting more”
                          
“hmm, have you tried taking her into bed with you? One my friends does that, she doesn’t have to get up, if the baby wakes up she just starts feeding and they both fall back to sleep”