20. 𝓑𝓪𝓬𝓴 𝓽𝓸 𝓱𝓮𝓵𝓵

                                    

                                          

                            

                                
                            
                              
                                  
                              
                              
                                
                                  
                                  
                                
                              
                             
                            
                            
                          
                          
Freya sat in the waiting area with a blank gaze. She kept staring at the display screen for some time without knowing what she was hoping for. The thing she kept fearing for all the time was finally happening. She was getting back to her house. 
The faces of all people came alive in her head as those voices kept echoing one after the other. All the strength she gathered while being on the trip was fading away and she found herself getting into her shell again.
She shook her head negatively and moved it down as she closed her eyes briefly. "I won't be able to do it," she whispered while taking deep breaths. 
She gritted her teeth when the nervousness started increasing and she felt restless. A tear dropped down from her closed eyes and she sniffed while wiping it away.
"What should I do?" She whispered and opened her eyes while feeling a hand above her. She looked at Shiv beside her as he gave her a warm smile. 
"Don't worry. It will be fine," he said in assurance. She shook her head stubbornly again and looked away.
"It won't be fine. Everything will be back to how it was before," she whispered as her eyes got hard and dark. She nodded as she looked at Shiv with no emotions.
"Go back and be with them. Aarya and Viaan... You need to be with them and not me. I don't deserve anyone. No one can help me. I'm pathetic," She said as a tear rolled down her face. 
He shook his head negatively and wiped her tear before he spoke ahead, "I have decided to be with you now. I won't be repeating my mistakes and we will come out of this together. I promise."
She kept her face straight as she stared at him for a few moments. She didn't know what was happening but she knew nothing would be the same once she is back. No support from anyone would be helping her.
She knew no matter how much she shouts no one was going to listen and she was going to end up marrying Viren. They held nothing for her, they had unseen her pain for the longest time then how would it matter to them now?
What was she expecting? She saw a ray of hope but while sitting on this bench now as she kept on thinking about everything deeply she understood that she was being delusional all the while.
She knew no one would be able to understand her in this lifetime. What was the point of everything? She hated to live this way and she wanted to remember his words and act by them but something was stopping her.
"Freya, you can't do this now. We have decided to fight back, right?" Shiv asked in an understanding tone. She kept shaking her head negatively. 
"There is no point. No one would understand. They have already put their condition. I can't get away," she said in a low voice and added ahead, "I forgot my reality for some time but I can't run away from it forever."
"I am an unwanted child who was thrown away by her parents. Still, they kept me and provided me with facilities. Am I really in a state to raise my voice? Shouldn't I do what they are asking me for?" She asked and looked at him.