Chapter 141

                                    

                                          
Lisa knew that there was only a tiny chance of pregnancy in the future with one fallopian tube left, but that was still better than having no chance at all.
She remembered then how hopeless it had been for her in the hospital four years ago, alone and unable to face the harsh truth.
She was definitely unwilling the bear the child of someone she didn't even know.
But she would never bear a child again if she got an abortion.
She had despaired at first, hating everything and every people in the world.
Still, she understood in the end.
The man had done no more than provide a seed, and she was giving birth for herself not for him, and so that she wouldn't be childless in her old age.
That was why she chose to gibe birth
She wouldn't have hesitated getting an abortion if her body wasn't special.
However, after her child was born, Lisa thought everything was worth it, and that her son was hers and hers alone, and nothing to do with that man.
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Eunha's face was as white as a sheet when she was wheeled out, her eyes tightly shut and unconscious while being fed an IV drip.
As Lisa sat in her ward, she looked at Eunha in her sickbed and remembered herself all those years before.
"What is it? Are you feeling unwell?" Jungkook was a little worried at the sight of her distressed look.
Lisa turned to look at him, and suddenly showed a pained smile. "Didn't you say you wanted a daughter?"
Jungkook looked delighted, "Are you saying yes?"
Be that as it may, Lisa's voice abruptly turned cold. "There reason I gave birth was because I would have trouble getting pregnant if I had an abortion. That's why I did it...."
Pausing, she continued despite his slowly-alarmed gaze. "But after I gave birth. I had to work without any post-natal care. I even fainted and was admitted to the hospital, and the doctor tole me that my uterus walls had become too thin and I would never become pregnant again"
Her voice was so flat it was as if she was talking about someone else.
On the other hand, Jungkook's face became stony. He felt as if he was stabbed in the heart even as he watched her, his breath caught.
Lisa returned her gaze, but her heart was overwhelming in sadness.
He must be upset that she couldn't give him a daughter.
And that he must be upset for that fact alone, and not for her.
A deathly quiet hence shrouded the ward. It was as if his silence had become a weapon that stabbed into her most vulnerable spot.
Unable to remain there, Lisa stood up and was about to leave when she was caught firmly.
Then, she was folded in a warm embrace.
Even as Jungkook held her tightly, he only blamed himself.
"It's my fault. I'm sorry...." His voice was fraught with hoarseness and pain.
He could not help wanting to kill himself in penance once he imagined how she toiled overseas, licking her own wounds.
Post-natal confirmed care was vital for women, and yet she had to make a living to raise her child.
Whereas he had forgotten about her in those 4 years.
In fact, he did not remember a thing at all!
Lisa's eyes widened, clouded with tears.