Emotional

                                    

                                          
Meredith pov:
I feel like crap and I haven't left my house for 2 days because I just need a moment or two to think over things . The conclusion I've come to is I have fallen for Dr Addison Adrianne Forbes Montgomery but she doesn't feel the same about me (I think) and if had told her and she rejected me I would be all depressed again (It seems I already am) I have three wonderful kids who need their mommy. So I need to put my feelings away and be their for them and forget about her.
This morning I woke up very tired from staying up till 4am watching romcoms and crying and thinking about Addison. So I walked downstairs and got myself ready for work "Mer are you good?" Amelia looked at my while holding a very upset baby Scout "Yeah I am, I think,  she doesn't like me , I mean I'm the woman who stole her husband 18 years ago. So I'm letting go of her" I said relieved "That's  big of you Mer , but please take my child to daycare , I have to get ready and your leaving now anyway" she handed me the baby "Ok I'll see you later then" I said walking out the door.
Later I was sitting eating lunch with Amelia and my phone was on the table open when a call came through.
INCOMING CALL SATAN
I put down the phone then it rang again 
INCOMING CALL SATAN
"I think you should pick up , the 'Satan' person really wants to talk to you" Amelia said looking at my phone screen " I can't"I said fidgeting with my salad "who is it anyway?" She asked then her phone rang "Oh Addie is calling" she said "Amelia if she asks about me tell her I'm in surgery" then she picked up the call and put it on speaker  "Hey Addison" she started "Hey where's Meredith?" Addison asked and Amelia looked up at me "I'm good how are you?" Amelia said sarcastically "Yeah whatever, so have you seen her?" Addison asked again "Mer's scrubbing in at the moment" Amelia replied "oh ok, well can you ask if it would be ok if Bailey and Ellis could call later today , Henry has been bugging me about it since I got back" Addison asked which just made me smile then Amelia brought me back to reality by putting the call on mute "Mer I love you but I think you should tell her the truth" she looked at me sympathetically "I can't Amelia" I said feeling really upset at the whole situation "so, is it ok if the kids call?" Amelia asked me "Yes tell her I get home at 6 so 6:30 would work" I replied, I mean I don't want the kids to lose a chance at a new friend, Amelia had unmuted and said "Sorry I think I lost you for a minute, aww Henry is so sweet I miss him loads but I'm sure Mer would be fine with it and Bailey has not stopped going on about 'his call with Henry Montgomery' except he says 'Momtgomery instead of Montgomery' and Ellis hasn't stoped talking about 'how much she liked Addie and it was sad she has gone home' . Anyway Mer gets home at 6 so I think 6:30 would work" "Great , and has Zola said anything about me ? I only ask because she didn't seem to like me all that much" Addison explained and it broke my heart honestly "No Zola hasn't said anything, she doesn't warm up to people that fast and she knows you knew Derek. Zola is very sensitive about Derek I'm sure if she gets to know you in the future you would get along" Amelia sympathised "Well I can't force her to 'get to know me' over the phone , I will just have to wait until I come home." Addison said with me still eating my salad quietly "Woah you just called Seattle home" Amelia said surprised "Well you know what I mean , anyways I have babies to save bye Amelia send my love to Meredith and the kids" Addison said before hanging up.
"Addison sends her love" Amelia said smirking "Oh really I hadn't noticed , I have to go save lives bye Amelia" I leaned down and hugged her and just as I was leaving her office she called out to me "I still think you should tell her how you feel". I just rolled my eyes and walked away . I went to the supply closet where I had found Addison crying all those years ago and I sat in the same spot she was in and had a 10 minute crying session then I carried on with my day.
Addison pov:
It is 6:25 currently so I called a very exited Henry down stairs and we called Meredith 
CALLING McIntern 
"Hey umm here are the kids" Meredith said handing the phone to Bailey and Ellis "Addie Henry!!" Bailey shouted excitedly "Mommy why is Addie called Sat-Satan on your phone?" Ellis stumbles a bit and I laughed at the old nickname "ELLIS you weren't supposed to say that , sorry Addison" Meredith said with her face going red "I prefer to be called 'ruler of all that is evil' but I will answer to Satan" I chuckled , she laughed a little then the kids started talking. 
I was making dinner then I called Henry and he sat down at the table and gave my the phone because Ellis wanted to say good night, I said goodnight to all the kids and then I asked Zola if I could speak with Mer and she said "Addison I'm sorry , because you seem really nice but I don't think it's a good time , ever since you left she has been in her room all her spare time and for the first two days after you left she was crying in her bedroom and called in sick at work" I was quite shocked at this and I was worried I had done something to hurt her "Oh I'm sorry about your mom will you give her a hug from me?" I asked "Yes of course good night Addie" she replied then hung up, she is very mature for her age.
After dinner I went up to bed and started thinking about Mer. I love how our kids get on so well, I love her smile and how she is so comforting and I guess in some way I love Meredith, I can't stop thinking about her although I feel defeated as I don't think she likes me one bit not in 'that way' anyway.
2 MONTHS LATER 
Meredith pov:
The kids call Henry every Saturday and occasionally Addison and I FaceTime after the kids are done , it's normally about our week and work and well the kids. And I have changed her name on my phone to McHottie instead of Satan , But todays call was different, Ellis and Bailey came rushing in and handed me the phone sitting on either side of me with Addie and Henry on the phone. 
I was snapped from my thoughts when Ellis said "Mommy Henry and Satan have a surprise for us" "ELLIS HOW MANY TIMES HAVE I TOLD YOU NOT TO CALL ADDISON SATAN?" I laughed at her "Sorry Addie" she apologised "So what's the surprise?" Bailey asked "Henry do you want to tell them?" Addison asked "We are coming to Seattle tomorrow" he exclaimed "YAY" Ellis and Bailey shouted simultaneously "Wait where are you staying?" I asked "We are staying at the Archfield" Addison replied "I know you can stay with us, is that ok mommy?" Bailey asked "I don't see why not" I smiled "Please mama?" Henry pleaded "Pleaseeeeee" Henry, Ellis and Bailey said together "Ok" she chuckled "Well the quicker you go to bed the quicker we will see them" I said because I need some time to think "I'm going to bed right now" said Ellis "me too" said Bailey "me three" Henry tacked on and they all left the room leaving Addison alone "I can wait to see you" I said looking at Addison "I know it's only been 2 months but I've missed you so much" she smiled softly "Well the quicker we go to sleep the quicker we will see each other" I laughed "Night Mer" she chuckled "Night Adds" I said before hanging up.
I had been up all night thinking about Addie and decided that We are both single and we are not getting any younger so I'm going to tell her how I feel and if she doesn't like then I can't do anything about that.
It is 6am and Bailey and Ellis came and jumped on my bed to wake me up "MOMMY WE NEED TO GO AND GET ADDIE AND HENRY" Bailey shouted excitedly "I'm coming I'm coming go get changed and we can leave" I said before getting up and going to shower.
After 45 minutes Zola , Bailey and Ellis were all buckled in and we left for the airport it took an hour and a half to get there and they would be landing in around 10 minutes, obviously Addison being Addison had her family jet fly them there and we waited in the private lounge until we saw the plane come to a stop on the runway.
As soon as the plane stopped we all raced out the door onto the runway leaving our belongings in the lounge . We saw Addison and Henry coming down the steps from the plane and they started running towards us. 
The kids got to each other first and all had a group hug and when I finally got to Addison, I acted entirely on impulse jumped onto her wrapped my legs around her waist and my arms around her shoulders and she had her hands holding my ass supporting me.
Then before I knew it I kissed her it was magical and that sounds so cliché but she was kissing me back then it was interrupted by the kids all saying "Eww" and I leaned my forehead against hers and said "I missed you so much" and she replied with "I missed you more" then I got off of her and took her hand and whispered in her ear "You better not leave me for LA for a third time" she chuckled "I won't ever again" she whispered back and we walked hand in hand to the car .