"With anything - your hand, your fingers, your pillow, your old stuffed toy, a vibrator...anything?" Winter shook her head in bewilderment, but then took Karina's hand when the silence between them stretched.
"I've tried," Karina answered eventually, voice even. "I mean with my hand, my fingers...but Id don't know...it was awkward."
"Awkward how?" her brow furrowed - there was nothing awkward at all about her hand between her legs.
"Well, nothing really happened. I mean it felt nice...but you know...the orgasm part just didn't occur."
"Didn't occur?" Winter echoed faintly, "Oh, Karina Karina Karina," she had her face pressed back against Karina's neck, overwhelmed on behalf of the girl.
"Don't Winter...don't say it like that. I know what you're thinking," Karina pushed her away.
"What am I thinking?" She was thinking that she wanted to make Karina come - good and hard.
"That if I can't make myself come I'll be terrible in bed. Isn't that the lesbian joke - that we're so good at what we do because we know the female body so well? Well, maybe mine doesn't work like everyone else's. Maybe I am just useless. It's obvious I'm going to be shit in bed. Fuck...I should cancel my date."
"Karina, that wasn't what I was thinking at all and don't cancel your date. Promise me you won't."
"Even if it's not what you're thinking, it's true, right?"
"What? That you'll be terrible in bed?" Winter scoffed uncertainly, "no."
"Fuck, you can't even lie," Karina brought her knees to her chest and wrapped her arms around them.
"You've seriously never made yourself come?" Winter tugged one of the hands that was holding her knees but it didn't move and so she set about praising it off of the knee it was gripping.
"It's not like it was all that easy to try! Minnie and I shared a room. I might have money but my uncle didn't...and I got nothing until I was eighteen. We shared and I wasn't going to do that in front of anyone else. Minnie just went out and had sex a lot. And I was shy, ok? I felt embaqrrassed and it took me until the end of high school to even own the fact that I'm a lesbian...to not fear disappointing the people around me...I mean...fuck..."
"And then we were roommates?"
"Yes. And you were totally nonplussed about my sexuality which was good for my confidence but...well it wasn't like I could rub one out with you in the next bed, or even try to."
"I did," Winter shrugged.
"Stealthy bint," Karina stated, mouth agape and Winter laughed,
"Why not try now?"
"If I wasn't willing to try it with you in the next bed, I'm hardly going to do it sat next to you..." Karina put both hands back over her face.
"No, I mean now you no longer share a room why not get to know your body. Watch some porn. Finger yourself. Learn how to touch your clit," she shrugged. "Learn what you like and what you don't."
"That honestly sounds overwhelming."
"Give me your hand," Winter ordered and when Karina hesitated she rolled her eyes and grabbed it, "come on, I'm not going to do anything sinful." Karina stopped resisting and Winter held her right hand in her left. Carefully she placed the girls elegant fingers palm down on the top of her bare knee and then rested her hand on top. She then guided Karina's fingers in a slow circle, as if she were rubbing her clit. "Like this," she whispered because Karina had hitched in a breath when she realized what Winter was demonstrating. "Circle around your clit, but nice and tight so you hit it...test out how hard you like it. When you're with a girl for the first time start softly...if she wants more she'll ask for it," she sped up the movements and then slowed them back down, and pressed harder and softer. "Some girls like a more up and down motion..." she changed the pattern.