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About 2 months has passed and after being brought in for questioning they decided to put Jeremy on trial and today was my court date; today will determine Jeremy's sentence.
I sit in my chair at home while looking at the courtroom through my laptop, I couldn't be there in person because I'm still on bed rest.
Levi holds my hand next to me.
"Will the defendant please rise. Verdict count 1 domestic violence against Venus brown, the defendant is found guilty."
"Verdict count two stalking Venus brown, the defendant is found guilty."
"Verdict count three violated restraining order, the defendant is found guilty."
"Defendant is sentenced to 60 months in federal prison."
I sit there in shock I won the case. I turn to Levi, "We won Levi." Levi hugs me, "I'm so proud of you baby, your so strong." Levi says to me.
Jeremy keeps his head up as he leaves the courtroom, he doesn't seem fazed at all.
I feel so relieved, once I give birth I can take the twins anywhere on my own without feeling my ex is somewhere around lurking.

















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I sit in the bed with the laptop on my lap scrolling through this clothing website. Since I've been on bed rest I can't do much so I mostly shop online.
My last orders were something I wouldn't I think I would personally get, but because I'm on bed rest and Levi is usually working down stairs, we don't get action in at all, so I ordered sex toys. I read online that's it's normal to be aroused a lot when pregnant, and right now Levi can't help much, so I would have to help myself.
I continue shopping and I buy a whole bunch of new summer clothes because the twins should be born around may or June, which gives me time to get my body back in shape for the summer. I am hard on myself about my body because I've always been insecure, I've gotten over my insecurities after awhile, but now that I'm pregnant and barely can go anywhere I fear I may gain weight and go back to my ways of starving myself, Levi probably would tell me to eat, especially now he see's im getting insecure again he tells me everyday that im beautiful the way I am, I appreciate it but it's not how I feel about myself. Even now when Levi brings me food I don't eat all of it, and I know I should because I'm pregnant, but It's just my mind telling me not to.
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I ordered sushi because I didn't want to bother Levi to cook for me.
I walk downstairs to get the food, when I made it down stairs I got my food and from the delivery guy, closing the door I turn around to see Levi standing outside his office door, giving a disappointed look. I stand there with the food in my hand staring at him, "What?" I say, Levi laughs shaking his head, "You could've called me to get the food for you, you walked down all those steps on your own, when you know your supposed to be upstairs." He says, I wave him off, "It's fine me going up the and down the stairs one time isn't going to hurt." I say walking to the dining table, Levi follows, "I got you a spicy tuna roll." I say to him trying to change the subject, "Thank you, but you still should've just told me to get the food for you." He says hugging me, "Yea yea whatever." I give him a kiss and sit down at the table. 
We sit and eat together while talking about Levi's work. I get a text message saying my package was delivered I get up and get my package from the porch, "What's that?" Levi asks, "Clothes." I lie, "Are you gonna give me a haul?" He says laughing, "No, especially since your laughing at me." I say, "I'm just playing." I laugh, "I'm gonna go upstairs now." I say playing with his hair, he pulls me on his lap, "Imma carry you upstairs just let me finish my food." I roll my eyes, "Levi that's really unnecessary." I say trying to get up, he squeezes my leg, "Stop being stubborn." He says, I huff and rest my arm on the table, mind as well get comfortable since he's still eating, I start to move around a lot on purpose to let him know I want to get up, he just adjusts his legs still taking his sweet time eating.
He finally finishes his food, I stand up and he stands up behind me, "Finally." I say dramatically walking away, "Shut up." Levi says in a playing way, I punch his arm playfully, "Weak ass punch." Levi says picking me up, "I wasn't even trying." I roll my eyes.
Levi gives me my package as I sit on the bed, "I'll be back in like an hour, I have to get back to work." He pulls me in for a kiss, the kiss gets more intense but he breaks it, "I gotta go back to work Ve." He says holding my waist, "One more." I kiss him again trying to deepen the kiss, he pulls away again moving his hand to my butt, "I'll be back just wait okay?" He says, I huff, "Okay." I say annoyed, "Don't be like that Ve." He says, I walk over to the bathroom, "It's fine go back to work." I say looking at him, he sighs leaving the bedroom.
I get in the shower relaxing my muscles, maybe it's my hormones from the pregnancy, but I don't like how me and Levi are not together all the time anymore because he's working downstairs. I've gotten more attached to him since I've gotten pregnant, so I want him around all the time.
I got dressed in my comfortable pajamas and Levi still wasn't upstairs, I sigh and lay down on the bed scrolling on my phone.
Levi walks in shortly after, and lays down on the bed next to me, I turned my back to him, "Venus." He says, I don't respond, "Stop ignoring me." I turn to him, "What do you want?" I say, "What are you acting like this for?" He asks, "I'm not acting like anything, I'm just tired." I lie, "Aight." He says annoyed, facing his back towards me, I try to pull his arm to face me but he brushes my arm away. 
I don't like this, but it is my fault I was petty first and now he's mad at me. I want fall asleep in his arms like I do every night. 
"Levi." I tug at his arm again, "Venus stop you said you were tired so go to sleep." He says, "Why are you mad?" I say in disbelief, "Because I have the right be, you have and attitude with me, but don't wanna tell me why. You expect me to read your mind or something?" He says turning to me, I'm shocked Levi doesn't usually speak to me this way. "We'll it's pretty obvious. You don't spend anytime with me anymore." I say, Levi scoffs, "Are you serious Venus I do the most I possibly can. I have to work and you know that, what do you want for me to quit, and for us to have nothing?" He says raising his tone a little, "I get that you have to work, but I'm pregnant and I need more time from you." I say, "Your unbelievable Venus." He stands up taking his phone with him walking to the door, "Where are you going?!" I say slowly getting up, Levi ignores me walks out our bedroom door slamming it. I hear him walk down the hall and close the guest room door.
I lay back down on the bed the other side now empty, this is not how I thought everything would turn out. Levi isn't usually this way, he's never been so mad at me, and I honestly don't know why.
I start to cry, I don't want us to be this way.
I cry myself to sleep tonight, missing the body that usually sleeps next to me.