chapter 24

                                    

                                          

Gediz felt more at ease with Muge with him. After keeping her phone down Muge asked 'what happened?'
'about what?'
'why you don't want Nare around?'
'she is uncomfortable, she is forcing herself to be here'
She could sense disillusion in his voice. 'do you want to share?'
' I know its difficult for her to be with me'
'it could be related to her difficult past'
'I understand, so I don't want the trouble for her'
'hmm...' Muge walked over to him and kept her hand reassuringly on his back. 
'I am alright. Don't worry' They both looked at each other. Muge understood her brother's pain. Emotions ran deeper than words. His hurtful eyes said everything. She knew that feeling very well. She has been through it. She was sad because gediz had go through the pain of unrequited love like her. 
Nare, was a bit relieved but somewhere disturbed. It was a strange feeling. The night alone with him at the hospital was very hard on her. But gediz insistence of not wanting her to be with him, hurt her somewhere. She couldn't gauge her feelings; her perturbed heart was playing different tune. She tried to sleep but she kept tossing in the bed.
Guven had paid several visits to hospital to check Gediz's health. He was concerned about him. Gediz was a bit surprised, he didn't expect Guven to be so concerned about him. They always shared a bitter- sweet relationship. Muge also commented ' he looks very concerned about you. He was a big support throughout'
Gediz acknowledged it. Gediz had become vulnerable. He was thinking a lot especially about the unfinished businesses. In the night, when Muge helped him in positioning to sleep, gediz said ' sister, thanks for staying'
'why?'
'for understanding and supporting'
'hmm' she stopped doing the work
'Gediz, will you tell me what is going on?'
'I have come to conclusion that the time has come for truth to be out'
'you have 4 months now'
'yes, what difference will that make, besides what if I died in this accident, she would have been left alone to face the difficult battles'
'But you didn't die'
'I don't want to play this game anymore'
'what do you think happens once truth is out?'
'sancar, loves her, she loves him, I am just a pawn'
'you are not pawn, you are a joker in the game' he raised his eyebrows 'yes, it depends which game are you playing, joker helps you win'
'its better to play my way'
'think about it, but I don't think it helps her anyway'
'hmmm...good night'
In the morning, Gediz called his lawyer and asked him to make his divorce papers.
Nare, came as well in the morning.  Gediz saw her with yearning. 
'good morning. How are you?'
'good morning, I am good and you?'
'good' gediz looked down, he had an eerie pain in his heart. He wanted to look at her and tell her 'he missed her, but ....' These words had no place in their relationship. She felt the same but she felt guilty to admit. Instead, they both looked away from each other.