Chapter 23

                                    

                                          
2 weeks later , 
School's just gotten worser and worser . Everyone physically avoids me . I find myself skipping every single lesson . In physics , Luca started sitting with Matteo and Evelyn now . 
There were times me and Ev made eye contact in the halls . Everytime she looked she looked hurt and I could just see in her eyes that she missed me . 
Everytime i see her I just want to apologise and tell her everything but I know I can't .
Now Luca hates me more than anything . He compared me to Maddison that's the worst thing someone could ever say . Mariá doesn't talk to me anymore and no one does . 
I'm just that loner who eats lunch in my room on my own . 
And Jacoub comes over now and then to remind me of his 'threats' .  
Last week , I found out he was texting other girls and taking other girls out . 
He just told me to shut up and 2 minutes later goes on and on , on how much he 'adores' me . 
He still texts other girls but I can't do anything about . 
I went outside to the bench area where I first talked to Luca . Seeing this area made me tear up . I really fucked up this time . 
"Mamá what do I do ? " I cried looking up at the stars . 
'Mantenerte fuerte' 
Translation : Stay strong 
Her voice kept repeating in my head until I felt at peace . 
I wasn't feeling physically fit for another week of school so I went back to my apartment . 
I was choosing a movie to watch when I suddenly fell asleep on the couch . 
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7 year old me walked down the stairs to show my mom the new painting I made of me and her in a small cottage in the forest . 
I walked past the kitchen and I heard noises from Dad's office . 
The door was slightly ajar so I could see what was going on inside . 
"BUT WE'RE MARRIED EREN " My mom yelled at my dad . 
"I DON'T CARE CAMILLA . I REGRET GETTING TOGETHER WITH YOU SO I CHOOSE OTHERS BECAUSE THEY'RE BETTER THAN YOU " 
" No es como si tuviera una opción de  todos modos " My mom muttered and my dad slapped her . 
Translation  : It's not like I had a choice anyways 
"WHAT THE HELL IS YOUR PROBLEM.  EVERYTHING SEEMS TO BE A PROBLEM FOR YOU . STUPID MUJER " He said pushing her to the ground and grabbing a metal rod from the corner of his room . 
I gasped and ran back upstairs crying . I didn't want to hear anymore . On the way , I heard her screams and cries . I want to help you Mamá but i can't I'm to weak . I'm sorry :( 
I ran to my room and locked it and buried my head in my pillow until I couldn't hear anymore screams . 
I was falling asleep when I heard bangs at my door .  
"AMAYA OPEN THIS DOOR RIGHT NOW " I heard Eren from the other side . 
"If I open it , will you h-hit me ? " I said in a shaky voice leaning my ear against the door .