He let the soup simmer on the stove, walking back towards the bathroom with Kaisyn. Her head laid on the side of the tub, her eyes closed as she breathed slowly.
Trevor sat down, grabbing her loofah and some of her soap, lathering it in, beginning to bathe her.
Kaisyn lowly groaned, and he reached over, turning the light off because he knew that it was straining her eyes.
"I won't take them no more." She mumbled softly, her voice hoarse.
"You said that a few times ago Kaisyn. You so fucking selfish. You might not think so, but there's people that love you Syn. And you gone kill yourself with these fucking pills man." He told her, rinsing her body off as she silently cried.
He grabbed her towel, unplugging the drain, and then picked her body up, wrapping the towel around her.
"Stop crying. I'm right here and I ain't going nowhere." He mumbled, rubbing her back as he carried her to her bed.
"I'm so damn tired. I want my brother so bad." She sniffed, her voice cracking.
Trevor rubbed lotion in on her body as she cried, her light face now a shade of red. It seemed like all she did was cry now. She just wanted it to be over.
He pulled a pair of panties on her, and then one of her tee shirts, spraying her favorite perfume on her, and she cracked a smile, wiping her face.
"I be right back, hold on." He walked out of her room, going towards the kitchen.
He poured her soup in a bowl, and grabbed an orange Gatorade from her fridge because the orange flavor helped with nausea.
He grabbed some crackers, and then walked back in her room, sitting on the edge of her bed, Kaisyn laying back against her pillows.
"Did you eat something yesterday?" He asked, sitting the drink down, and she shook her head no.
"Kaisyn do you wanna die? Like foreal, are you trying to kill yourself?" He frowned at her, and she held a sad expression on her face.
"I don't know T." She mumbled softly, and his jaw clenched, mixing her soup around. That made him sad.
He needed Kaisyn more than she knew, and he just wished he knew a way to help her. But it was so hard, because nobody really knew her.
Kaisyn was very troubled, and she knew she had issues that she needed to work out. She just didn't know how.
Trevor took his time feeding her the soup, even though she didn't want it, but she needed some food on her empty stomach.
Once she finished the soup, he opened the Gatorade, giving it to her, before going back to the kitchen to clean up his mess.
A few minutes later, he returned to the room with Kaisyn, climbing in her bed with her after turning off the lights and pulling her black out curtains over the window, her room pitch black.
"Come here." He mumbled, and she pouted, tears brimming in her eyes as he pulled her into his embrace, wrapping his arms securely around her.
"I am so sorry Trevor. I can't d-I'm sorry." She cried, covering her face.
"I just want better for you Kaisyn." He rubbed her back, letting her cry on his chest.
"I know that you don't think so, but people love you Kaisyn. I love you, and I need my best friend. You gone sit up here and let these drugs kill you."
"I tell you all the time you have to stay off of them. They not helping you with shit, you be high for what? An hour, before you fall asleep. It's not fucking worth it Kaisyn."
"So many people love you, them pills don't love you Syn. I'm not blaming you, okay? I know it's hard. But it's okay to ask for help. Look at me Syani." He held her face, and her tears stained eyes looked into his.
"You don't have to do this life shit alone. I know it's hard for you, but I'm here. We all here for you, you gotta let somebody in before you drown yourself in sorrow." He rubbed over her face as she pouted.
"You don't have to be strong all the time. I don't know what I-Kaisyn, if I walked in here one day and seen you d-I don't know what to do without you. You can't let no fucking pills take you from the people that love you Kaisyn." He told her, watching as her bottom lip quivered.
"It's so fucking hard Trevor. I just wanna feel okay, I wanna be okay." She broke down, and he wrapped his arms around her, laying her head on his chest as she sobbed.
"I'm so tired. I don't wanna be here Trevor, I don't. I know that I-I have all of y'all, but I feel so alone. I just wanna be okay. I'm so tired of fighting." She cried, and he kissed her forehead, laying his head on top of hers as he rubbed her back.
"Life is so hard. And for what? I know I did some bad shit, but I-I don't know. I'm trying so hard to fight; to keep going and to be strong. But it's so fucking hard. It's so damn hard Trev." She sobbed, shaking her head as her breathing labored.
"I just wanna feel something. I take them because they make me feel something. When I'm sober it's just-no feeling at all. I don't be feeling shit and I fucking hate that T. I'm so sorry. I'm trying so hard baby I promise." She sniffed, her nose clogged as she cried.
"I'm here for you Kaisyn. I'm right here." His voice softly cracked, rubbing her back as a few lone tears fell from her eyes.
He had no clue how to help her, and that's all he wanted, was to help her. But she was so closed off, he didn't even know where to start. 
It was obvious that Kaisyn had more deeper rooted issues than she let on. She had so much built up in her body, and she just wanted to let it go.
She wanted to be okay. She didn't even care if she never found happiness, all she wanted was to be satisfied-to be okay.
She had friends and acquaintances all around her, and yet, she still felt so alone. She felt like as if nobody was there for her.
But it was herself, that made her feel that way. Because people were there for her, she had people that wanted to help her.
And yet she still told herself that all she had was her, that nobody would ever be there or love her the way that Jaisyn did.
She felt like she would never be able to let the death of her brother go. When he was here, they shared their pain and they helped each other through it.
Jaisyn was really all that she had. And now that he was gone, she just didn't know how to move forward-mentally nor physically.
She realized that her brother being dead was the root of her problems. She needed to find away to get over it, or she'd end up just like him-only difference is, she'd unintentionally do it herself, instead of someone else killing her.






i love Kaisyn. also, idk why i added promise in the faceclaims cause her ass barely in the book. and where tf Von at? come get Kaisyn boy she need you 😒😒😒😒😒😒