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Yoongi POV
Jimin fell asleep...
He must have been so drunk and tired that he passed out after we had sex which totally surprised me because he usually leaves so fast afterward and I was waiting for it but he just fluttered his eyes closed and fell asleep.
His face was squished against the pillow his dark hair messy he was sleeping on his stomach one hand underneath him the other sitting in front of his face my fairy lights were making his tan skin glow. I was lost in a trace my head was on the pillow next to him as I study his face the length of his eyelashes the curve of his nose the plump of his lips his dangly earrings and his sharp jawline.
If Jimin was awake he would have left me cold and alone but right now he is here laying next to me in my warm bed I take my only opportunity to reach out. I move my hand to brush the bangs off his forehead then trace my fingertips down his earring playing with the silver cross. I moved my fingers to his jawline memorizing his face this close up then I take a daring step I lean closer and kiss his forehead then his nose and chin.
"You're breathtaking like how are you so beautiful it amazes me" I whispered softly my heart bouncing around in my chest then....
I felt the sudden feeling shot through me it was like a flood gate and I couldn't stop it anymore.
I quietly climb out of my bed looking for my phone that fell off the bed at some point I also slip on my underwear moving to my sit on the other side of my room. I pull my knees to my chest opening my phone as Jimin snores softly from where he laid on my bed I dial a number letting it ring and ring until my friend picked up.
"Whats up mini min" 
"Hyung..." 
"Ah Shit what happened why are you whispering?"
"I love him..."
"What?...wait don't tell me?"
"Y-Yes...I love him I think it was inevitable"
"Yoongi no"
"It just hit me and I know realizing something like this is supposed to feel amazing like a bloom in my chest but everything is so bitter because...I-I know h-he will never l-love me back..." 
"It was bitter since the beginning" 
"H-Hyung...what do I do?"
"I don't know but I think you should either tell him or just cut him off it's unhealthy for you to dwell on this" 
"I-I can't tell him...I'm so scared of rejection" 
"I just don't want your heart broken especially by him" 
"I think it's too late for that..."
I heard Jimin stir on the bed him curling on his side like a puppy and that alone made my heart flutter he looks so small and fragile like this I lean my head against the wall letting out a sigh I whispered goodbye to Jin and crawled back into bed with Jimin I covered us both up with my blankets. Once my head hit the pillow I felt sleepiness take over me I reached my hand out to lace with his he didn't hold back obviously but I didn't care he always pulls away when I try to hold his hand.
But right now I got to hold it I stared at our hands I noticed before his hand is tiny compared to mine it's cute and Jimin's hand is warm always warm. I snuggle closer so our faces were a foot apart I could feel his soft breath hit my face.
"It's okay...I can handle this because if you only want me this way it's okay at least I get to kiss you and hold you..." I whispered closing my eyes slowly falling asleep.