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unedited
                          
Sienna POV
                          
He looked so perfect just standing there. His energy screamed that he had power. He stood tall before me and a little bit intimidating. 
                          
"Shane I want to reject you when the next full moon comes next week." I told him looking straight at him and no hesitation in my voice. My wolf whimpered a little bit but she did not fight me on this. But he just continued to stare and me saying nothing. 
                          
"You are with Harmony and you both are expecting a child together. It wouldn't be fair for her or your future child. And for the sake of this pack I think we need to reject one another and not tell anyone. The only other person who knows your my mate is your brother but I know he won't say a word to anyone. And as future delta of this pack I would rather have things end smoothly and not cause a scene." I said turning away from him so I can find comfort at the never moving lake. My heart is pounding so loud I can hear it in my ears. My hands begin to feel hot and sweaty but he can't see me like this. I refuse to let him see how the bond is affecting me. 
                          
"Are you done?" He says calmly. If I were to look at him now I feel like I would regret it so I don't move back. I can never look back, I need to keep looking forward and away from him. 
                          
"Is there something you would like to add Alpha?" I ask him.
                          
His demeanor changes suddenly as he sits on the swing across from me. His shoulders sag forward and his places his elbows on his knees, refusing to look at me but at the floor. His runs one hand through his once perfect hair making it messy. 
                          
"I didn't want things to end this way." his voice is harsh and almost raw as he spoke. "I have always envied the relationship you and my brother have. A part of me wishes that was me instead of my brother if I could be little selfish. Sienna I just want you to know that I will forever regret my decision of hurting you in this way. I had given up on my chance of a mate 8 years ago, when I had turned 18. I had wanted to find you so much sooner so I could've spent so much more time with you. But I have made some poor choices in my life and I have to stick to those choices. I want to have you to myself and I know that I can't, it's too selfish. I see the way my brother looks at you and it drives my wolf and I insane." 
                          
"Well you made your choice by getting another she-wolf pregnant." I told him as I feel a tear run down my cheek. 
                          
"I know I made my choice and it's clear that you have made your decision regarding our bond too." His scent is driving my wolf and I insane. All I wanted to do was touch him, maybe even kiss him. I wanted to be selfish and tell him to leave her but I can't. I think the mate bond is making me feel more crazy about him then I ever did before. I begin to notice how his hair was a beautiful golden brown. How he always looked the part as our Alpha for many years. But right now he looks so vulnerable. He looks like a broken man losing everything that he has ever wanted.
                          
"I would have always chosen you Shane. As my mate I would have chosen you first but you didn't chose me." I said to him. I wanted to end this pointless conversation. My heart felt like it was ripping itself apart over and over again. And for him to tell me all of this now is really going to fuck up my head. 
                          
"Sienna I'm not saying any of these things to hurt you." He said with nothing but honesty in his eyes. 
                          
"Then why are you saying all of this to me? Is this just a game to you? It's not just my life or your life that you affecting but your affecting everyone around you especially the pack." I told him.
                          
"And you don't think I know that?" 
                          
"With the way that this conversation is going that's what it seems like to me." He said to me not ever taking his eyes off me. 
                          
"End this conversation now Alpha. I have nothing to tell you about our bond. You have made your choice and I have made mine." A fire was lit within me and I don't think I could put it out. I wanted to get rid of him and this bond. All this drama and heartache that I am experiencing is due to his actions.
                          
And suddenly I felt the sparks erupt from my lips. All the anger I had felt a second again had disappeared and was just replaced with butterflies.I felt as though everything had stopped, that the entire world froze around us. All the problems that had surrounded my heart and mind left. 
                          
At this moment all I wanted was him.
                          
 ---Authors note-- 
                          
Happy Tuesday everyone!
                          
Sorry that this chapter was so short today I promise that the next chapter will be a pretty hefty read. 
                          
Thank you :)!