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Jungook's pov
                          
The room only got quite but only my sobs are heard. Fuck, I can't belive its been mintus covering my face like this while he is still standing right here. Great Jungook you just love to embarrass yourself don't you?
                          
I finally manage to calm down wiping my tears away and look up to see him looking at the door crying very silently not making any sound. I- I just don't know where to start. But I have to say something. 
                          
It's been my wish to talk to Jimin, try to apologize now since its a good chance. 
                          
" Namjoon said you have been asking for me" he say not looking at me.
                          
" ye- yes -"
                          
" Then you better tell me why did you want me here rather than fake crying here" My heart sank. His words are so sharp, cold and it made me freeze on my spot. I had to swallow harshly because of my throat being dry every minute. 
                          
" I want to talk you. And I understand if you don't but I do want to talk to you. " I say playing with the blanket and my eyes now on the ground. I thought he will storm out but his silence signaled me to talk. I am happy he gives me a chance to speak but deep down he shouldnt. I am such a dick who broke his heart that's all.
                          
" I am sorry Jimin. " his shoulders shake as he shut his eyes crying. Tears keep pricking up in my eyes .
                          
" I- I can't even explain how so-sorry I am to you. Being rude to you - it was wrong. I broke your heart into pieces, very very very badly and me myself don't think I will even fix it because of how ashamed I am and h-ho- I don't know Jimin. " I burst into sobs not caring if he is looking at me weirdly.
                          
This saga hurts me a lot that I can't control my emotions and myself. 
                          
" I - I am- I am so sorry. I didn't think that i will get back with Taehyung because I knew that I had feelings for you. Wh-when we were dat-dating- i thought I still had feelings for him but the love- affection you were giving me m-made me f-fe-feel lo-loved and my-my fe-feelings for you grew more" 
                          
" Y- You showed me t-the lo-love that I have been craving f-for years after be-being lonely, de-depressed- you made me alive again. Yo-you gave me the attention that I- I ha-have never received even when I was dat-dating Taehyung- " I bit my lower lip while he is crying. I look up and hold his hand and he walk to me slowly still crying. 
                          
I caress his hand softly-
                          
" I am sorry Jimin , an-and I want you to forgive me- thats on my wish list right now, your forgiveness b-but I don't think I deserve it. I am heartless, monster, I was rude to you, I treated you very badly- . I am a bad person Jimin-" Jimin finally look at me with his pink face, blue eyes glistening with tears and his pink cheeks wet. What a very painful sight to watch. 
                          
" Y- Y- You f- f- followed what yo-your heart ha- has been te- telling you" he say looking me in the eyes.
                          
" W-we both know tha-that yo-your never loved me" he say.
                          
I widen my eyes shaking ny head-
                          
" Jimin-"
                          
" I s-s-should have l-left you . I- I di-did ask you that d-d-do you still ha-have feelings for Taehyung and y-y-you never answered me" he said his eyes turning blank.
                          
" That was when I thought I had f-feelings for him.-"
                          
" You thought? You got in a relationship with me while you thought you still had feelings for your ex?" He scoff shaking his head. No, I think he doesn't understand.
                          
" Jimin I swear- i swear when I was with you- living with you- I was only focused on yo-"
                          
" But deep down you had feelings for Taehyung " he cut me off trying to take his hand back but I grip on the hand crying.