*Coming Home*
Nash and I were on our way home. I couldn't stop bawling my eyes out, Nash couldn't either. We got home and I got out of the car. I didn't want to talk to anyone.
*Andrea's POV*
"Ok, so we need to get things ready so when Crystal gets home tomorrow with the baby, we'll throw a little welcome home party!" Just then I heard the door open. I turned and saw...
CRYSTAL!?
"WHAT THE WHA!?"
Ricky: "HUH!?"
Jc: WHAT!?
Kian: WHY HOME SO EARLY!?
Sam: We weren't talking about anything!
Trevor: Uhh!? WHY ARE YOU HERE EARLY!?
Dom: THIS ISNT WHAT IT LOOKS LIKE!!
Dom was hugging Jenn because he was excited about the party.
Connor: WOAH!!!!
*Crystal's POV*
"WOAH!!" Connor shouted.
"Why empty handed? Was it a false alarm?" Ricky said laughing. I started bawling again.
"THE BABY IS DEAD OK!?! GET OUT OF MY FUCKING HOUSE AND DONT TALK TO ME!!!" I stormed upstairs. I jumped and laid down on the bed. My baby. I-is gone. This needs to be a dream! I dug my nails into my arm.
Wake Up!! WAKE UP!!!
I wasnt dreaming. This is reality. I posted something on twitter.
@NashGrier my baby is gone, stfu and dont talk to me and ask questions about it. I'm done.
I posted it and immediately got retweets, comments, and favorites. I threw my phone across the room and it hit the wall. I didn't give a flying fuck if the screen cracked.
All of a sudden, Shawn was calling to facetime me. I got up and went to get it. the screen didn't shatter. I hung it up. He called again. I hung it up. Then, he texted me.
Muffin Man😂: Can we talk please? I know its hard, but I wanna talk to you. I replied with a yes and put my phone down. Shawn called a few seconds later for facetime. I was bawling. I thought about hanging up. There was a knock at the door. It was Nash.
"Baby please, let me come in."
"NO!!!!" I screamed at him. I heard him walk away. I looked at my phone and decided to pick it up.
Shawn: hey ssh stop crying
Me: SHUT UP!!!! ITS HARD NOT TO!!!!
Shawn: hey, look at me. Calm down just breathe.
I did what Shawn told me to do
Shawn: I know its hard ok? But you need to stay strong beautiful. Please.
Me: Its impossible
I started crying again. Tears were flooding my face.
Shawn: You can do it, I know you can. Its gonna be the worst feeling ever, but you can get through it. I love you and I will always support you. Please stay strong for Nash and I.
Me: ok.
I sniffled and nodded my head. I started breaking down again
Shawn: Remember when I dropped my ice cream in the sand? It was my favorite flavor with my favorite type of cone, and I dropped it before I even took a bite.
Me: Yea
I giggled a little. Shawn smiled widely.
Shawn: i got over it! And I know you can get through this battle too.
Me: Shawn, you really made me feel better. Thank you
Shawn: anytime! Love you and goodnight
Me: Love you too
I put my phone down and fell asleep- with no tears.
I woke up the next morning feeling kind of better. I was still sad about the baby, but Shawn told me to stay strong.
"Morning babe, you ok?" Nash asked. I nodded my head.
"I heard you and Shawn facetiming last night, and he's right. You need to stay strong for him and I."
"And I will do that." I said smiling a weak smiling and I kissed him.
"So are we planning a f-funeral for her?" My throat had a lump in it.
"Yea." I said weakly.
"Do the other guys know?" I asked Nash.
"Yea. They're devastated. Jc, Matt, Shawn, Melanie, and fucking stupid Taylor cried about it."
"Why should Taylor cry about it." With that I picked up my phone and texted Taylor.
Me: I hope you fucking happy.
Few Minutes Later, Tay: No. I wish I can kill myself right now.
Me: ok i'm hella pissed about you telling my baby to die, but your 23. Why kill yourself.
Tay: Look. I'm so fucking sorry ok. I should've NEVER yelled at you and your baby like that. I was pissed off because of stupid Magcon. I realized we're just really busy and were not tearing apart. I was stupid when I said that, and I still am. Crystal, I love you. Your my sister, and i'll never forgive myself for what i've done. I understand if you won't forgive me ok. But I will never stop loving you. Your an amazing sister, and I regret EVERYTHING about what happened that day. I would just pull the trigger and give up, but your right about what you said. I'm 23 and I have a long life ahead of me. I'm sorry Crystal.
Me: Wow. Tay, that means a lot. Your an amazing brother to me. Someday, if it happens, you'll be an amazing uncle😉 and yes Tay, i forgive you.
Tay: Woah. Thank you TONS! 😌❤️😘
"I hate life."
"Nash."
"I know, you want me to stay strong. But I just can't. I can't believe this happened. Just kill me, kill me right now. I wanna be dead with my daughter, I just want a knife to be stabbed into my heart and to just be dead. I hate life. I don-"
I kissed Nash, deeply. It went on for about 2 minutes, then we pulled away.
"Ok. Not ever saying that again."
"I love you."
"I love you more beautiful."
*1 Month later*
Nash and I were driving to the cemetery. Today I can hold my baby, and see her for the last time. I didn't put any makeup because I knew I would bawl my eyes out. When we got there, there was music playing and it didn't help cause I started crying. A few minutes later, everyone was here, and the priest was going to give a speech. He started talking about how my baby died, and he read verses from the bible. All of a sudden, they brought my baby out.
"Would you like to hold her ma'am?"
"Yes please." The worker gently put the casket down and handed me my baby. I carried her lifeless body in my arms. She was dressed in a black and white dress with a headband. It was white with a white rose on the side.
"My baby." I whispered. I held her and looked at her beautiful face. Nash stood next to me.
"She looks beautiful, like you."
My heart dropped. I went on my knees, still staring at her. I started sobbing. Nash kneeled next to me and rubbed my back.
"I love you." I said looking down at her.
"Ma'am. It's time."
"No! No please No!"
"I'm very sorry for your loss, but we must put her in the casket."
"No. Dont touch her."
"Babe, we need to." Nash said. I shook my head no. Just then, Nash gently took the baby, I wanted to hold her back but I couldn't. The man put her in the casket. Then they put her on the ground.
"NO!! NO!!!!! DONT!!!!! DONT BURRY MY BABY!!!! NO!!!" I screamed.
*Shawn's POV*
I saw Crystal screaming at Nash and the guy. Then it got worse when it came to shoveling the dirt over the casket. She was screaming and crying.
"Go comfort her, I can't watch." My girlfriend said crying.
"NO!!!! DONT BURRY MY BABY!!!!" She started crying more. I ran over and went to comfort her.
"Stop it, hey i'm here. Calm down, like I said you need to stay strong."
*Crystal's POV*
Shawn was comforting me and it seemed to help. We went on with the funeral and Taylor and the others said a nice speech. Nash and I did too. When it ended, people left, except the Magcon boys and I. The O2l boys didn't want to stay. I saw how badly they were crying too. I sat by her tombstone and laid my head there. It said:
In Loving Memory
Mr. and Mrs. Grier's daughter
Bloomed and Died on 3-12-15
She will be dearly missed.
*3 months later*
I was back to my normal self, and went on with my days. I always visited my daughter, every day. I went at about 12 and brought my lunch with me. I'd sit down and eat and talk to her. Then i'd leave at around 2. Sometimes Nash would go with me.
But today was different. I went home at around 1 because I wasn't feeling good.
"You ok babe?"
"No. Just not-" i cut off and ran to the bathroom and threw up. Nash held back my hair.
This can't be real.
Am I pregnant.
Again!?
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Ok. Be honest if you cried! Cause to be honest, I did while I was writing it😂 omg I noticed I was! I wiped my eyes and I go, no! Its just fanfiction! Comment if you cried. And be honest! 100 VIEWS ALREADY!!! ❤️ Lol you guys know what to do! Love ya! 😘💕
