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Author's pov
                          
15h00
                          
Jin rub his eyes walking to the living room but smiled when he see his boyfriend, sitting on the couch reading a book comfortably with the TV off. He walk to him and caused Namjoon to look up and smiled. 
                          
" How was your sleep?" He open his arms for Jin, and the older giggle cuddling with him on the couch. 
                          
" Bad. This guy here didn't let me sleep at all." Jin say caressing his big bump.
                          
" Kicking every hour?"
                          
" Hour? Every damn mintue. I can even feel him touching my lungs a bit" Namjoon widen his eyes at Jin.
                          
" Lungs?" Jin laughed and pull away, resting his swollen legs on Namjoon's lap.
                          
" Yeah. I mean, you can see here the belly is fucking big, so he is extended also. " Jin say taking off his sweater revealing his big bump and wore a sport bra to balance his swollen breast.
                          
" Oh my God your breast grew even bigger " Namjoon say caresing Jin's bump.
                          
" They are so sensitive. And you know how  much I love laying on my stomach. I can't anymore " Namjoon chuckle looking up.
                          
" Just  be strong baby. I know you are strong so the time will come and this guy in here will be out " Jin smiled at him.
                          
" Oh I forgot to tell you, I was with Jungook last night. " Jin widen his eyes a bit.
                          
" Really?"
                          
" Yeah.... I talked to him. And honestly  , I just wanted to see how he has been doing and... and he looks horrible babe. " Namjoon say massaging Jin's legs.
                          
" My intention wasn't to shout out like that to him, I didn't mean to do that but thinking about what he did to Jimin, it angered me bad.  I look in his eyes- and all I could see is the sadness and guilt. " Jin nod at him.
                          
" Jungook is regretting a lot if you can see him"
                          
Jin nod again. " I know that, I do know that . At the baby shower , whenever I ask about him and Tae's relationship he is brushing it off and he doesn't look happy at all".
                          
" You know, I now understand him. Jungook got surprised when he saw Tae after so long, those feelings he had for him..... came back , you understand?" Jin hum. 
                          
" I- don't know. I just think he was just confused with himself to the point where he got determined that he is going to take Tae back, telling himself that this is the guy I have been wanting so yeah. But time goes on, that's where he realized his biggest mistake "
                          
" Hurting Jimin like that was just totally wrong. I just wish I wouldn't done this mess you know. " Jin say , tears rushing in his eyes. 
                          
" What i knew is that Jungook didn't love Jimin, he was being with him for the sake of me. I only knew that he loved Taehyung, thats what I have been telling myself. " Namjoon smiled rubbing his legs.
                          
" Its okay babe. What's done is done. Its not like I don't want the best for them, but it will great for them to not get back. " He say feeling really sad.
                          
" Jimin is hurt, very bad and remember Yoongi told us that he is back to harming himself. " Jin sigh sadly.
                          
" This will be the best for them. " 
                          
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Jungook's pov
                          
21h00
                          
Can't stop nipping on my nails right, can't control the way my leg is bouncing non-stop, can't calm my heart down from beating super fast.
                          
What Taehyung did last night would never be unforgettable to me. Yes, he did many bad things to me, he raped me many times and I allowed that but last night .... what happened last night was horrific. 
                          
I am still traumatized, I never blink my eyes- after last night. The- they did- horrible things to- to me- It was so bad- i can't explain how I am feeling right now. But what I can say is that , I will never heal. 
                          
I have come to a decision that I should end things between me and Taehyung once and for all. The reason why I continued this- let Taehyung use me like he want is because he is threatening me to kill himself if I ever leave him.
                          
One day , I sat down and thought that me and him are not working- I was not having sex with him, I was not kissing him so things were off- and I told him that we are not working. He started to cry and say that he will kill himself if I ever leave him.
                          
That- that made me panic and just accept that I will never leave him because if I do , he will kill himself and I will consider myself as a murderer because he killed himself for me.
                          
Every time he tries to kiss me or seduce me, I push him away and he will always bring that kill himself topic always and he know that it makes me scared so I give in and let him do whatever he want. 
                          
But today I made a decision- actually since last night, I am calling things off. He has damaged me a lot, and if I let him stay- I can end up being dead. I love Taehyung not romantically. Why do I love him? 
                          
Because this guy played his part of loving me and taking care of me. He never judged me, always there for me and I will be thankful forever and ever. 
                          
And if he do kill himself , I will rather go to the police and say that I am the one who killed him, that will reduce the guilt atleast.
                          
I walk out of the bathroom, wiping my tears and stand infront of my bedroom and hear Taehyung's voice- talking on the phone i guess. You gotta do this Jungook- its for your own good.
                          
Mmm