It's cold outside and I wish I brought a spare of clothes. Final football game and we're loosing. Not surprised because the team is good, only if they weren't worried about who would have Alyssa then they might win. She's of course smiling that they're bumping heads. I don't know what's been up with her. But she's drifted from me slightly. Especially after that interrogation. Even if it were a month ago. I guess Marcelo listened to me to stay away from me.
I don't know where he disappeared but maybe he did take my words to heart about staying away. I shouldn't think about him this much.
I need air even if I'm outside.
"I'm going to use the restroom." I excuse myself even if she doesn't really care. I walk away from the bleachers and go the girls lockeroom. I want to go home but halftime is so soon.
The door opens and when I look it's Marcelo.
I should h surprised. He comes out of the blue now a days.
"Marcelo."
Did I do something.
He's standing in front of me.
"Is your phone broken?"
"Did you need me?"
"Clearly since I've come out of hiding to see if you're okay."
See if I'm okay. I don't think he even realizes what had came out of his mouth. I don't know how to take it.
"Well I've been okay. Now you can go." I excuse him.
"Why do you still hang around her?"
"Who?"
I know who.
"She knows about us. You know that though."
Yes.
"No."
She knows what she thinks she knows if that makes sense. I haven't given her any information. And I want it to stay that way. She's been weird but I don't want to tell him that even if I feel like I should.
"You seem very stressed right now. " I move my eyes from his neck to his eyes. Looking completely up. He's looking straight down at me. Again so close.
"I'm cold and tired. Thank you for noticing." I smile. He hasn't smiled in front of me...once. But this time his lips are holding it together. Trying not to show me he's being amused.
"You'll be messed up tight when you touch yourself."
"Excuse me."
He's teasing me?
He brings his lips down to my ear.
"When you're alone tonight, touch yourself."
I take in a breathe of air but can't let it out.
"Any part of your body...just focus between your legs though. I know it hurts right now. You must be soaking..."
I feel my pulse become dramatic. A different pulse i always ignore. "When you're done you'll be more relaxed." When I look back up at him his eyes are full of lust, but I think mine are too.
"Why can't you just touch me then." The words slip from my mouth so easily.
"Because I won't be able to stop that night..and day." His thumb places on my cheek softly. His lips are brushing against mine and my hearts beating like never before.
"I want you so fucking bad Serena...do you know how much it hurts?"
We've already crossed so many lines. But I think that's the first time he's slightly admitted to anything that has been going on between us.
