Canada Therapy Appointment, Angst

                                    

                                          
Sorry it's been awhile, working on the book has been going great though. All my shorts have been related to it so I can't exactly release them in this book.
                          
Anyways take this Canada angst mildly based on the song above
                          
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Canada sat in the chair. It was uncomfortable under him despite the cushion. 
                          
"So, do you have any idea why you've been having these feelings of apathy at night?" 
                          
"Oh no. But it's fine. Everything's fine." Canada made a smile at the therapist.
                          
"If everything was fine, why are you here?"
                          
"I don't know." Canada sighed and looked down. "I've been trying to be good this year. I'm going on hikes outside to feel better. I've been meeting up with my family. But everything feels empty."
                          
"That does sound like a problem." The therapist shifted in her seat. The room was quiet. Too quiet.
                          
"Yeah. I know."
                          
"Are you getting enough sleep? Often times people feel like everyone hates them when they should be going to sleep."
                          
"I don't know. Maybe. I thought so, but I don't know." Canada shrank in on himself a little.  The clock ticked too loud. The room felt deceptively cheery with it's pale orange walls.
                          
"That's okay. You don't have to know everything Matthew. Is there anything else you want to talk about?"
                          
"Things used to be easier. I mean sure they weren't great but at least I felt something. I used to be able to cry. I wish things went back to being simpler. When I was with Francis as a little boy in our log cabin. Things were good then." Canada stared at the desk closely, not looking up at the therapist.
                          
"That's okay. We often long for simpler times. But I don't believe that's what you really want is it Matthew? You miss the simpler times when you didn't have to deal with these strong emotions. And that's okay. But you don't really want to go back to him, after all I've heard right?"
                          
Canada was silent for several seconds. "No, no I don't. I just wish everything wasn't so hard."
                          
"I get that. It's okay. And it's okay to cry Matthew. This is an safe environment."
                          
Canada scrunched his shoulders more. "It's not that so don't want to, i just can't."
                          
"That's okay Matthew. Whatever you're feeling is valid. Now, we're almost out of time. So unfortunately I need to end this here. But know that I'm open for an earlier appointment if need be."
                          
Canada just nodded and got up, slowly leaving the room.