Messy Apologies

                                    

                                          
"I'm sorry, please don't hate me"
I'm sorry for saying sorry
Stay.
Ps. I'm sorry.
                          
Joe's pov:
                          
I was still not able to see Cherry. The doctors said he needed to rest for a bit before someone could see him. He was unconscious and it was caused by a panic attack. It's all my fault. If I just stayed beside him. 
                          
I swore the next time I see Adam; he would get what he deserves. I was mad, and angry but most of all anxious. All I wanted right now was to see Kaoru... touch him. Make sure he is okay.
                          
Shadow was sitting beside me silently. He knew that I was in no mood to talk. He kept looking at me as if he had plenty to ask but he stayed quiet. All I was thinking about was Kaoru and nothing else.
                          
"Thank you..." I said, looking down at the white  hospital floor. 
                          
"Don't mention it. It's the least I could do"
                          
"Are the kids okay?" I asked, making sure that no one else was hurt. I couldn't handle another shock. 
                          
"They wanted to stay here with me, but I told them to leave. They have school tomorrow." He explained. Shadow was mature and kind. He puts this persona of a jerk when in reality he is the sweetest being ever.
                          
"You should leave... you have work tomorrow" I suggested, feeling the guilt pilling up. 
                          
"I will as soon as I know he is okay"
                          
I didn't say another word. The mood went back to being quiet. The hospital was empty, and we were the only people there. I should have been the one carrying Cherry here. No. I should have not left his side, maybe I could've prevented this horrible event from happen. Being in the dark and not knowing what really happened pissed me off even more. I wanted to punch myself. I wouldn't even blame Cherry if he wanted to punch me too... I deserved it.
                          
"Don't beat yourself up. It's not your fault." Shadow said, putting his hand on my shoulder. 
                          
"If I stayed there... If I didn't act childish ... I would have stopped him"
                          
"You are wrong. Maybe you should have listened to him, but you can't force yourself to stay in a place that triggers you. You needed space. What happened is only Adam's fault."
                          
"What do you mean?" I knew Adam had something to do with it but that was about it. 
                          
"Oh...um well I heard people say... Never mind... I don't think we should be talking about this now" He awkwardly said.
                          
"No tell me now!" I screamed out of frustration. I couldn't handle more secrets. 
                          
"You sure Joe?" he asked, doubtfully. I knew it was not going to be something beautiful, but I was done running away. So, I nodded, signaling him to continue.
                          
"Well, you see, it might not be true, but I heard from someone at 'S' that Cherry was dragged by Adam to a small dark alley. After few minutes, Cherry got out shaking and crying. They said they heard Adam say that he "got what he wanted"" he carefully explained. 
                          
Hearing those words, my hands tightened into a fist. I was beyond furious. I wanted to kill Adam. Without noticing, I stood up from the chair, my heart beating uncontrollably and my body heating up. I needed to release my anger one way or another. I knew what Adam meant by his words. "I swear if he did anything to Cherry..."