[29.] Confess to me.

                                    

                                          


Finally, Jiang Cheng let go, as his emotions took over so badly that he just moved his face and started sobbing in Lan Xichen's neck, hugging him very tight, hiding away from him, unwilling to face him, gasping and weeping.
- I love you... I love you so much...  -  he whined helplessly.
- Wanyin... My beautiful love...  -  Lan Xichen murmured, holding him tight.
- You are the one.  –  finally he faced him, rubbing his eyes with his fists.  –  You asked me whom I love, Huan. –  he sniffed.  –  I love only one. I love my husband. He is my one. He is the only one for me, and I love him, very much.
- Sandu Shengshou...  -  he whispered.  – How incredible it is to be so loved... How happy you make me, every day...
Jiang Wanyin was staring at him, those words were making him happy too.
- Please, kiss me... Please...  -  he whimpered miserably.
- Yes, my love... Yes, my little one... Yes, my kitten...  -  Lan Huan murmured.
Jiang Cheng didn't have time to be angry this time  –  the gentle kiss made him dizzy and he relaxed in the arms of his husband, too shaken by emotions that made him weak, made him act silly.
- Let's build our happiness together, my lovely. Let's be together. Let's not care about anything else. Hopefully, the war will be over soon, so that I can be home all the time, with you, my love. This is all I want. You are all I need, Wanyin...  -  Lan Xichen was caressing his hair and murmuring soft words in his ear.
- I want to... I love you... It tears me up inside, Zewu-Jun... It's too much...  -  he whimpered.
- You stole my heart, Sandu Shengshou... It's not mine any more, you hold it in your hand...  -  Lan Xichen sighed.
- I'm scared, Huan... Please, don't say that... What you're saying is scary...  -  Jiang Cheng whispered.
- I agree. It is scary, my love.  –  Lan Xichen said sadly.  –  And I am scared too... This is new for me too... But I want us to have children, I am very serious about this. - he made a pause and sighed deeply. - But what will happen if I .. if I... don't return from the war... I am scared too, Wanyin... For you, for us.  What if something happens, and I... lose... you... -  his voice broke as his eyes filled up with tears.  –  I am not sure I can lose you... I can't lose you... I need you...
- Oh, Huan! - Jiang Cheng held him tight again, feeling his fear too now.

***

The housekeeper knocked and quickly entered, saying:
- Masters, the lunch is ready. Should I ---
She found them hugging each other and sobbing on the floor on top of each other, not paying attention to anything else but each other. 
She gaped for a moment and then left them alone.