Lies

                                    

                                          

Tianna up there
                          
TaylorPOV
                          
"Jesus loves me..oh yes he does"
                          
"Jesus loves me..oh yes he does"
                          
"Jesus loves me..oh yes he does"
                          
"For the bible tells me..Sooo"
                          
   It was 2:00 in the morning and Ty still hasn't returned from playing basketball.. I'm worried what if Rashad actually got them or what if black took him! A million thoughts were running through my mind and none if them were positive. So I started talking to my belly to get things off of my mind
                          
  "Hey little baby...I think your a boy but your daddy says a girl, I really don't think I can raise a girl but I'm pretty sure your gonna be spoiled regardless of your gender. Anyway I'm going to give you the best life ever.. The life that I wanted what I needed, you will never have to beg for anything, feel alone, or like you can't come to me when you need guidance. Your daddy and I love you very much even though you aren't here yet.. Even though we always argue we still love you and that's what matters...I always wanted a family of my own, but to tell you the truth I'm really scared. I never had a mom so I don't know how to be one..what if I'm not good enough, what if you hate me. I really hope you don't because im going to try my best" I said rubbing my belly. 
                          
    I looked at my arm and seen the cuts from earlier...they made me want to cry I know I'm not supposed to be doing that but the pain I feel is just too much for me....
                          
     "I know what I'm doing isn't right..but mommy really don't know what to do. Sometimes your daddy makes me so sad that I can't take it. I love him I really do but...ugh I shouldn't be talking to you about this your a child..that's why I need friends.. Haha" I slightly smiled "but what do you want your name to be? For a girl your daddy said Taylor but I don't want you to have our names I want you to be different.But for a boy I really wanted to name you Hunter or Niklaus..Hunter is just a name I loved since I was a little girl and Niklaus is a vampire from t.v and once I heard the name I fell in love with it. Its like I do want to name you after your daddy but then I dont...I don't know really what I want.." I felt my eyelids closing slowly "goodnight baby" 
                          
             TyPOV
                          
  
                          
   "Damn girl suck this dick"  I said as Tianna gave me head
                          
Now the girl pussy might be loose but the mouth does wonders man. See me and tianna go way back like freshman year she gave me her virginity. We dated for like 6 months it was kinda serious but everybody knew I had love for Taylor. But see in 9th grade Taylor was with somebody else so I mean hey if she could date then so could I.
                          
    Tianna was a regular that I've been fucking on and off. I stopped that shit when Taylor said she wanted to be official but recently Ive been needing a stress reliever and she the one I go to. 
                          
    There are times when I feel bad cause I know Taylor dont deserve this but if she don't find out then all is good. Tianna know not to run her fucking mouth and I'm not saying shit either so my secret is gonna stay one...
                          
   Taylor and I ain't how we used to be. Ever since this baby came she been stressed,moody,I've been over protective and tired from working all the damn time. Our relationship is on the rocks to be honest. I love that girl I do but sometimes I just wish things were how they used to be. When we didn't have to worry about a kid and shit. Yea I wanna start a life with Taylor but not now. And the way that she acting is getting on my fucking nerves, acting like she don't even want this baby. I refuse to let my damn child to come into this world unloved by its mother. I ain't with that shit.