Right in front of me

                                    

                                          
"Love is an irresistible desire to be irresistibly desired" 
                          
I promised myself to never find love again after facing such a horrible experience. My ex-boyfriend, who said he "loved" me, used me for his own pleasure. And who was i to say no, i was young, stupid, any word in the dictionary to describe an idiot. I thought that was love, I wanted him to desire me, which is why I gave in. 
                          
A few weeks ago.
                          
One day I was having another panic attack in my room when I heard my door flew open, I looked up with my eyes filled with tears. 
                          
The person who always kept my hopes up was standing in front of me with pity in his eyes. 
                          
Yes "his". No he is not my lover, he is my soulmate, well in a friend way. 
                          
"Hey hey it's okay I'm here" he said reassuringly. 
                          
He held me up and placed me close to him, I sobbed into his chest while he played with my hair to try to make me calm. 
                          
"It's about him isn't it" he said sadly. 
                          
I nodded my head slightly and continued bawling my eyes out. Aidan was one of the few people to stay by me through my worst days, 
                          
Of course there were my parents but they could only give me such attention since they were busy people. Most of my friends bailed on me and I think one is even dating my ex. 
                          
"Y/n you can't keep ruining yourself over him" He said, lifting my face up to face him "I know he hurt you, but at some point in your life you have to let go" 
                          
"How can i, i loved him" i cried out. 
                          
"That wasn't love y/n, using someone just for the good of yourself isn't love, you just thought it was" He said. 
                          
"I can't help it Aidan, he was the only person who loved me, i mean yeah he used me but he made me feel like i was actually needed, i know stupid of me right" 
                          
"Y/n there's so many people out there who love you, and are willing to actually love you for you, not your body" 
                          
"Who?" 
                          
"Me" 
                          
"Aidan I appreciate that you love me as a friend but-" 
                          
"Not as a friend y/n, I actually do love you, i know this may not seem like the right time but i have been in-love with you since forever, and you deserve someone so much better than that jerk" He smiled.
                          
I didn't know what to say so I did the only thing that came to my mind. Kiss him. 
                          
One thing for sure he didn't hold back. I was blind to not see that the person who truly loved me was right in front of me the whole time.