|Chapter 25|Confession|

                                    

                                          
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Sam's POV 
                          
I sit with my legs crossed not facing them. My hands shake and the possibilities as they run through my head. I don't think this will end well. If I end up having to go back to New York, I'll be stuck again.
                          
"You can tell me anything Sam. Do you want to talk in private?" She asked. I finally looked up seeing Taylor watching me. Her eyes are drilling holes into me. My hands start to sweat and I let out a shaky breath.
                          
"No, t-t-taylor already knows" I say struggling to say her name. I started to rock slightly. A hand rests on my shoulder, I can tell it's my aunts.
                          
My heart beats against my chest hard. There is no point in hesitating it will just make me more nervous. 
                          
"I.." I don't know what to say. My aunt squeezed my shoulder trying to comfort me. I lock eyes with Taylor, I feel like she is daring me to back out. 
                          
I feel trapped, this side of her; what is it. Was she just putting on a happy face. My chest tightens, it hurts. Where did Taylor go, who is this.
                          
"Do you remember when I talked about.... having a boyfriend?" I say looking at my aunt so tears wouldn't slip. I watch her as a confused look graces her face. "Yeah?"
                          
"Well... I wasn't entirely.. honest" I mumbled. I fumble with my shirt having zero confidence. "Well, um what did you do?" She asked. She sounds like she was trying to avoid   saying 'lie'.
                          
"Well... it wasn't a boy" I say trying to steady my breathing. Talking feels impossible. "It's was Taylor" I force out barely above a whisper. My body heats up making me extremely uncomfortable.
                          
I forced myself to look up, my aunt  looked shocked. I can't force myself to look at Taylor, I'm scared  to. My aunt let's out a long sigh.
                          
"Well... this is definitely... not what I expected" she said. She looked at me like she was sad and it hurts. "Sam I love you but I don't agree with this. I ... don't think I can have you in my house." She said her voice cracking.
                          
My gaze drops to the floor. My breathing gets caught in my throat. "Where am I supposed to go" I whispered feeling very small in this moment. I feel the cold stare of blue eyes drilling into me. I know the answer I just hate it.
                          
"Go with her, I don't know" she let out a huff. She was not longer upset and clearly just annoyed. I didn't want to be apart of this anymore.
                          
I quickly make my way out of the room. I felt like a stranger, nothing felt familiar anymore. Footsteps follow me but I ignored them. I enter "my" room and before I can close it Taylor enters.
                          
My emotions swim through my head. I hate what just happened, I hate she made me do it. I stand frozen like a statue, my arms crossed.
                          
"Babe, I'm so sorry" she said quietly. She had something laced in her tone that I can't read. The entire situation made me mad, I told her I didn't want to do it and yet I feel like I was pressured into doing it. That keeps happening.
                          
"Are you?" I ask not believing her. I don't want to return to new York. "Of course i-" she said her presence towering over me. "No! Taylor I don't want to hear it. You always do this. I tell you fucking no and you push until I give in! So just fucking stop trying to act like you care. If you fucking cared then you wouldn't keep pushing me into these situations!" I say pivoting on my heels.
                          
I'm mad, all I can feel is anger towards her. It's confusing because my head is mad but my heart wants her.
                          
She looked shocked only for a moment before her expression fell flat. "Well maybe if you weren't such a bitch and would grow up! I wouldn't have to push you" she spat back crossing her arms.
                          
"Oh just shut the fuck up Taylor. You can sit on your high horse, with your money and shit but some of us have had shit lives!" I yell. I forced back tears, I hate that I can't help but cry when I get mad.
                          
She scoffed and looked away from me. She mumbled, if I hadn't looked at her face I wouldn't have known she said anything. "What?" 
                          
"I should've just let you die that night. Your dad was right, your a bitch." She looked down her nose at me.
                          
The tears roll down my face and my defense breaks. My hands shake and everything that had ever happened between us flashed through my head.  
                          
I look at the floor covering my mout as uncontrollable gasps escape my mouth. Everything my dad had ever done rushes back. My body is burning, it's painful.
                          
I can't breathe properly or control the sounds coming from my mouth. "F-fuck you" I managed as I slid to the floor. I hug my legs hiding my face.
                          
She never loved me, nobody ever did.  I wish I would've just died that night. I wish I mever went to swift Interprise. 
                          
Nobody speaks for what seems like forever. I feel numb and useless. I feel the presences of a figure infront of me.
                          
I feel her fingers grab my jaw and forced me to look at her. My ears dart to the side so I wouldn't have to look at her.
                          
"I suggest you make up your mind. If I leave tomorrow and you don't come with me, you'll be alone with nowhere to go and nobody who cares about you." She stands back up and leaves the room.
                          
She's right, if I don't go with her who do I have. At least if I go with her, I have someplace to go. I lay on my side curling up as my eyes close. I'm worn out and I can't think anymore.
                          
A/N
                          
Short chapter but we are headed into the final stretch. I wanted to say thank you for all the new readers and votes! Things are going to be crazy.