It's the next morning and I'm getting ready to go out for lunch.
With Kendall.
As I walk downstairs and into the kitchen, Niall and Liam are sat on the island eating their brunch.
"Hey Haz, where you of to?" Liam asks me.
"Lunch with Kendall," I say and him and Niall look at me sadly.
"Does Louis know that you and Kendall aren't together?" Niall asks me.
"No. And he doesn't need to know," I tell them.
"Harry," Liam says softly, "You need to tell him,"
"No, no I don't," I shake my head in disagreement.
"Haz, he's still so in love with you. No matter how much he might deny it. He deserves to know,"
"No he doesn't, ok? He's not my boyfriend he's just someone that I've started talking to again," I tell them before walking out and leaving the house to meet Kendall.
-
"Hey baby," Kendall says as I meet her at the boat dock.
"Hi," I mumble. Jeff soon comes over to us and puts his hand on my shoulder.
"You guys need to look close today, ok?" He says and we both nod, Kendall smiling but not me, "And Harry, try not to look so uncomfortable, it doesn't make this look believable when it needs to," He rolls his eyes.
"But Jeff, I just want to come out," I say, tears brimming my eyes.
"What have I told you Harry! No one will like you if they find out you're gay!" He raises his voice at me, "Understand?"
"Yes. Yes I understand," I mumble sadly.
-
The "date" is finally over. We spent the day on a yacht, and don't get me wrong, it was fun at points but I'd rather have spent the day with Louis.
As I get into my car, I open my phone, seeing Louis had messaged me a few hours ago.
Lou🐻: Hope you have a good day today! Think of me bored whilst you're out having fun aha x
Me: Ah, sorry I haven't been on my phone today. But yes it was fun!x
After sending my message, I go onto Twitter, seeing that I was trending.
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'Pictures of Harry Styles, 20, and Kendall Jenner, 20, have been released today. The happy couple were seen on a yacht date and were apparently very close!
What do you think about Hendall?
Ship or skip?'
My heart dropped and as I kept scrolling, Twitter was full of the same picture.
And the only person on my mind whilst looking at them, was Louis.
I knew I should tell him but I can't. Jeff told me not to tell anyone but, of course, living with Niall and Liam, I had to tell them at least.
It's not that I don't trust Louis because I do, it's just, I've only just started talking to him again. Plus, Jeff doesn't know Louis so he probably won't trust him. Not yet at least.
I check back at my messages and see Louis had seen my message but not replied.
I bet he saw Twitter.
Me: Did you do much today?x
I turn my phone off and drive home, hoping he'll message back by the time I get home.
-
I'm sitting in the lounge now, after just getting home.
Lou🐻: No. Just was laying in bed thinking.
'He didn't add kisses, weird!'
Me: Thinking bout what?:) x
Lou🐻: My next football match that's coming up. Little nervous.
My heart drops at his answer. I felt stupid for thinking that he was thinking of me.
Me: oh x
Lou🐻: Anyway gtg now. Bye.
Me: Bye x
As I send my message, Niall and Liam come into the room, both sitting next to me on the couch.
"I'm guessing you saw the pictures," I mumble.
"Yeah," Liam breathes out.
"Life is so unfair," I cry and lean into Niall's shoulder.
Liam hugs me from behind and rubs my arm slowly.
"No Harry, unfortunately the industry is unfair. Jeff is unfair. If your fans really love you then they wouldn't care, would they?" Niall says.
"I guess not," I mumble.
"And yeah, sadly there may be some shitty fans who hate the fact you are gay, but guess what?" I look at Liam.
"What?" I ask quietly.
"You have us. And we love you Haz," A few tears fall out of Liams eyes and I look to Niall and see he has tears down his face too.
"I love you guys too," I wrap my arms around both of them and we end up laying in a group hug, "So much. We've come so far together and I couldn't ask for better people to spend my life with,"
"Shall we stay up past seven tonight?" Niall asks laughing, reminding us of what was said when we first met years ago.
