[Author's Note] It's Over

                                    

                                          
Hi,
                          
I started writing this fanfiction when Gerard Way was not even 40 (Over 6 years ago now). I tried to finish it, but the story just became less and less enjoyable and I took a hiatus in 2016, then took another, longer hiatus in 2018. It's now almost 2022, this story still remains unfinished, and MCR have been back together for almost two years now.
                          
I am in my final year of studying creative writing at university, and I can't continue this story. I am a different person to who I was as a teenager and, while I do not hate younger me or find this cringey (I still enjoy reading fanfic, and doing things like this is just a part of growing up.), my writing is just not the same as it was back then.
                          
I toyed with the idea of rewriting this with my improved writing skills, after all this is something I channelled a lot of love and energy into. Maybe one day I will rewrite it, who knows. 
                          
For now, I won't.
                          
I don't imagine anyone who read this at the start is even still on Wattpad; there is so much that has changed from the small writing platform I loved as recently as 3 years ago.
                          
But I'm not here to keep anyone left in the dark.
                          
I had planned for Frank and Ray to leave. Vega revealed more of her feelings toward Mikey to the reader, and later Gerard would escape the basement. Vega and Mikey tried to gently confront him and convince him to go to therapy, but this went awry and Gerard grabbed a knife, ready to attack Mikey and Vega. 
                          
I don't distinctly remember what happens next, but  I am fairly sure Gerard intended to hurt Mikey, but he couldn't do it because he cared too much for him. He let Mikey escape and he felt terrible about himself and his actions. 
                          
I originally wanted Gerard and Vega to go through an actual fight at the very end where Vega overpowered him, shortly after which the police arrive and arrest Gerard, but I can't think of how that would work, and as an older writer looking back on the ideas I had for the story, the thought of most of what I had planned feels kinda ableist and teenage me had a long way to go in terms of better understanding how to write the suffering of mentally ill people like Gerard in this story. 
                          
In one of the endings I had chosen, a while after this part of the story ends, Vega managed to find Mikey and tell him her feelings and then they ended up dating. However, being older that whole thing sounds weird (not just because Vega was about 18-19 and both Gerard and Mikey were in their mid-to-late 30s).
                          


                          
I hope the ending I had planned didn't ruin your view of the story, and I'm sorry I couldn't bring it to a close in the way that 15-16 year old me had wanted. 
                          


                          
If anyone is reading right now, congratulations on making it to the end of the only Wattpad story I ever completed (even if it didn't really end)!
                          
I've made my other stories private, but I'm keeping this up for posterity and because I just can't stand to take this away from the world, haha. Who knows, I might get to work writing one of the other fanfics I thought of but never wrote. I mean, what's the worst that I can say? Things are better if I stay? I doubt it.
                          


                          
~Georgi/Digital/Whatever other name I've used