Misunderstandings

                                    

                                          
Deku's POV 
April 18, 2021
The blood falls from my nose where Kacchan landed his punch. Even without the blasts behind it, it was still incredibly strong. My nose stung and I could feel my eyes watering. It's ok Kacchan, I know you're upset that I hurt Kirishima. I looked up expecting a blast next when I noticed Kacchan standing there with a terrified look on his face, sending my body into instant protection mode. "I didn't erase your quirk." Aizawa was clearly worried as well. I don't think Kacchan realized how pale his skin had gotten. "Kacchan are you ok?" I place my hand on his shoulder to try and calm him down, not really thinking about how much he hates me until he shoves me away and takes off running at full speed back to the locker rooms. I instantly run after him but am stopped by Kiri. "Hey man it's ok I'll go check on him."  Anger swelled in me. How dare he? "Yea ok I'm coming to" I said flatly without giving room for debate as I continued walking. Kiri followed behind me closely continuing to talk. "Midoriya, man please let me talk to him first, you already know he won't open up to you." His words continued but that one sentence rang in my head like a sinister melody reminding me what I will never have. What Kiri probably already possesses. I let Kiri talk me into letting him go in first, to calm him down before letting me go in. I stood there and watched as Kacchan clung to Kiri, crying. I thought I was something special for being the only person Kacchan opens up to. I very clearly wasn't special in any way to him, he's never opened up to me like this? The way he was clinging to Kiri made my chest burn with jealousy. If I had just went in there in the beginning I wouldn't have had to see this sh*t. I decided to leave before they started making out or something. I was walking down the hall so fast that I didn't notice Uraraka walk up to me until we bumped into each other. As she began falling back I caught her. I was aware of her feelings after the other night. Which I still needed to apologize for. She blushed causing me to realise what I was doing instantly, forgetting that I was holding her up from falling, dropping her to the floor with a loud thud. "I am so sorry Uraraka." I said as I helped her up. "No it's fine Deku" she chuckled a little trying to play it off. "So Deku...." she began but I already knew what she wanted to talk about and I wasn't ready to reject her yet, especially after what I did the other night. I knew it was cruel to lead her on but that wasn't my intention. See my real problem was that I do like her. She is kind and sweet and smells good. She's pretty and has drive. She's a girl every guy could want... it's just that... she isn't Kacchan. I like Uraraka, but I am in love with Kacchan. The only reason I have found I can even like Uraraka a little bit is because I know Kacchan hates me. That I will never have what I truly want, so I can settle for just liking the person I'm with. But the other night, when Kacchan walked in on me and Uraraka. I don't know why but it hurt so much to know he didn't care one bit. I've always known he hates me but to have it confirmed that he doesn't feel an ounce of what I feel for him has done something to my head. Not to mention I'm a little upset that she stole my first kiss. The one I had saved for so long for the person I love, I got over it pretty quickly thoug, figuring I'd never have Kacchan anyways so why would it matter? Someone had to be my first kiss right? "Actually can we talk about that later please, I... just.." I felt tear leaking out of my eyes no matter how desperately I tried to hold them back. Thinking about the fact that I may lose a close friend because I wasn't sure of my own feelings and wasn't honest to her when it happened had caused the tears but everything else I had been trying to hold in just wouldn't stay in anymore. Uraraka's face seemed to grow worried as she saw me cry. "Oh yes, that's fine. I'm sorry we can talk about it later just don't cry ok." She put her hand on my shoulder and squeezed. She promptly walked away. She probably assumed she was the reason behind my tears which wasn't necessarily wrong but it's not like I was upset with her. I was considering walking to my dorm but I was still in my Hero costume so I made my way back to the locker rooms to change. When I got there Kacchan was no longer there and everyone else was changing. We did have a few more classes before we were actually allowed to go to our dorms but, I didn't want to go back to class today. I began changing out of my costume I had everything off except my underwear and socks. I suddenly felt this chill on my skin and when I looked in the direction I felt it come from, I was met with red eyes. Kiri was staring at me intensely. He didn't even look away when he was caught staring. It wasn't like he had zoned out either, because his face was set in a scowl, directed right at me. It's not surprising I had lost my cool on him when we fought. I let my jealousy of his and Kacchan's relationship get the best of me. It was understandable that he was mad at me. "Look I'm sorry about earlier." I looked down. Feeling slightly ashamed of myself. "I was a little angry today and I shouldn't have-" "Bro, I am not at all angry about that fight." He said in a calm tone. I looked at him in shock. If he wasn't mad about the fight, then what was it? "The fact that you don't even know what you did, is what's the most aggravating, no wonder he loses his cool with you." I had no idea what he was referring to, but I did know WHO. My chest started burning again. This time even stronger than earlier. I couldn't control myself. I set my body in full cowling at 100%, which being as close to me as Kiri was would cause severe pressure on him, like that of being pulled by gravity. I slammed both my hands on either side of his head on the lockers, pinning him agaisnt them without having to touch him. My face only inches from Kiri's. "I already know Kacchan hates me and everything I do" I said it in such a deep tone that it almost came out as a growl. "I get it. So you don't have to tell me how f*cking much he hates me, I already f*cking know!" I was obviously losing it, I realized how crazy I probably looked right after I saw Kiri's face twist from anger into pity. I deactivated full cowling and backed away, still only in my boxers and socks. I hadn't realized it earlier but I had started crying again. Maybe that was why Kiri had that obvious pity look etched on his face. I grabbed my clothes and ran to my dorm room. I have no idea how many people I passed in the halls on my way there and I didn't care. When I got to my room I had to resist the urge to destroy everything. I was so angry, and upset. I wanted this to have all been a bizarre dream, but I knew it wasn't, how dare he. I never truly had a problem with Kirishima. He was a great hero and from the time we got here at UA he has been a good friend to Kacchan, no matter how jealous that made me I realized he was good for Kacchan long ago. But for him to actually tell me that Kacchan's hatred of me is understandable to him, when I've never done anything to him, hurts me. I decided to crawl into bed and try to sleep, to wash away all this pain.~
I can move freely in my visions and speak as well as I can normally in them as well. I must say, falling asleep  recently has been great, seeing Kacchan's subconscious in my visions has been peaceful. I had started to look forward to coming here. I began walking to the spot Kacchan has been glued to for a while, he'll be stuck there until he is able to move around in here. Which hopefully isn't too soon, his quirk will start to weaken until it's completely gone once that happens. I don't even know how long it will be until that happens or how long it will take for his quirk to build up here. I reached the spot where he should be but- he wasn't there. My heart dropped and my breath left my body. The first walked up and put his hand on my shoulder and all of a sudden visions flashed in my head. Ones of Kacchan screaming as his apparition is ripped from my quirk.~
April 19 2021
I immediately sat up in bed, sweat soaking the sheets under me. I jump up and run as fast as I can to Kacchan's room. I'm banging as hard as I can on the door. "Kacchan. Please open the door." If he didn't open the door I would go to Aizawa, I was too worried about him to just let it slide and there was no way that Kacchan wouldn't be in his dorm room if he was safe. If he was in there he would definitely hear me knocking but where is he!? "Kacchan, are you in there?" I banged a few more times before the door was pulled open, with an angry, beautiful Kacchan standing in the door way. Words were coming out but I couldn't hear them. The way the moonlight shined in through his window and hit against his back, illuminating the whole front of his body. No it wasn't the body I was used to, but it was still Kacchan. He wasn't only sexy as a man but he was definitely the most beautiful woman I had ever seen too. His hips were amazing and his thighs matched them perfectly. His breasts were big and perky, his skin flawless. Everything about him was perfect whether he had the body of a man or the body of a woman. I found myself fighting back the urge to pounce on him like a lion with it's prey. I looked down at the ground away from his beautiful figure. God I want him so bad. I left quickly without saying a word before I did something I would regret. Running back to my dorm and locking the door once inside. It's ok I can talk to him about all this tomorrow right now I needed to take care of the bulge between my legs...~
I met with All Might immediately after leaving my dorm room. I told him all about the vision the first user gave to me before I woke up. I shared with him the theories I had about why Kacchan wasn't there anymore. The main theory was that his quirk had somehow vanished and unfortunately, All Might confirmed this for me. We went to the nurses office to wait for Kacchan. As All Might and I waited, Recovery Girl decided to speak... "You know ever since you and the hot headed boy got here, all anyone says about you two is that you hate each other. However, each of you has proved time and time again that you care for one another greatly." Not knowing where she was going with this I cocked an eyebrow up at her slightly causing her to chuckle slightly. "Don't be confused hun, I was only giving you an observation as a nurse." She reassured. Maybe she sensed my uneasiness at the situation. Kacchan always made me nervous. I was always scared I would set him off. It's a shame because his peaceful face is perfect. When he looks happy or calm, it's like looking at a beautiful sunset. So seeing his face twist in anger at only the sight of me is hurtful but I've grown used to it by now. "Yes, I care for him deeply." I said. My usual deep voice went up an octave in pitch. I instantly realized what I said and how I said it and began to blush hard. I look at both the adults in the room to see them looking at me with shocked expressions on their face. "Boy, do you-" All Might stops talking as he hears the door open. Their faces looking towards the door. I knew who was standing in that doorway. My heart began to flutter and my finger tips became numb. I stood up and turned slowly. What I had not expected, was to see my mother standing next to him. Thank god for her, I walked up to her and hugged her tightly. Her being there gave me a perfect reason to not have to speak with Kacchan right away or even look at him for that matter. Kacchan Approached All might asking what was happening and all might replied like I figured he would. He wanted me to build a better relationship with Kacchan anyways. I did too but I gave up on that a long time ago. I can't force someone into being my friend or boyfriend for that matter. ~
After telling Kacchan the bad news he basically fainted. It was awkward all day after that. I wanted to comfort him so badly, to kiss him and hold him close. That wouldn't comfort him though, only upset him. 
I am currently in the common room, studying. My mom had taken Kacchan shopping earlier after classes were over. I wanted to be here when he got back. My mom must have bought him quite a bit of girl things, he would need help getting all of it right? I had been waiting for a few hours, when I hear the elevator open.  Uraraka steps into view bouncing as she walks out. She sees me and a smile is instantly plastered across her face. Her smile gave me chills, and not in a good way. Ever since she kissed me and I kissed back I've felt like I've somehow been unfaithful to the person I truly love, especially since he saw some of it. What if he thinks I'm with her now? I found myself wondering why it even mattered since I knew Kacchan would never love me. He didn't even care seeing me kiss her, and yet I still couldn't bring myself to give my heart to another person. I refused to do it. If I couldn't get over him it wouldn't be fair to anyone else anyways. 
"Hey Deku, I was wondering." She began, keeping the tone of her voice as sweet as honey. "What happened the other night." She lightly scratched at her temple, if I was any other guy I would be entranced by her charm. "Right, I should probably explain now huh?" I look down still unprepared to tell her bad news. "Well I never actually got an answer from you." She tucked her hair behind her ear looking down indicating her nervousness, the blush on her cheeks prominent. "Look, Uraraka I have to be honest." I started to feel heavy. My chest hurt and I felt guilty. Guilty for kissing her back in the first place when I truly felt violated. It was just a big misunderstanding for me but, what was it for her? She said she loves me? So putting myself in her shoes. How would I feel if I confessed to Kacchan, kissed him, he kisses me back and then later tells me that he was just confused and that he is in love with someone else. I'd feel like sh*t. I didn't want to do this to her. Suddenly I hear the door open, in walks not only Kacchan but my mother as well and they're both carrying a large sum of bags, my mom seems to be struggling too so I take the opportunity to not only help my mom but to break away from my current conversation. "Here let me help you before you hurt yourself mom." I grab all the bags from her hands as I see little indents where the bag handles had dug into her hand. It sucks that they walked up here carrying all this. They could have texted me. "Sorry, I told her I could just make two trips but she insisted." Kacchan looked down at the floor his face and ears red. He looked beautiful, he was glowing. I may have started a bit too hard and too long because my mother cleared her throat demanding my attention. I snap my head to meet her gaze and am met with the biggest smirk I've ever seen on my mothers face as her eyes dart back and forth from me and Kacchan. "Well today was nice hun, but you should talk to your mother about this soon, and son." She stopped for a second looking at me she leaned in giving me a tight mama bear hug and kissing my cheek. "I love you honey. Help Kacchan bring his bags back to his room please." I would be lying if I said I wasn't already planning on doing so, Kacchan was already toting a lot of bags I didn't want to add the things I was holding to it, and besides. It would get me away from Uraraka and with Kacchan for a little while. As bad as that sounded my heart just could help but flutter at that simple thought, being around him cleared my head enough to think properly about things as well. Enabling me to think like him in a sense. How would he deal with this situation. "Here I can help you guys, and then we can continue our conversation." Uraraka walks up with her hands ready to use her quirk. Before I could even answer I hear Kacchan speak "No thanks, we don't need your help. C'mon Deku." His voice was oddly cold. I gave Uraraka a look that said sorry even though I was kind of grateful, and followed Kacchan to the elevator. As the elevator went up we stood there in silence. It seemed that Kacchan was having a hard time holding some of his bags as he set them all down to reorganize them in his hands. I took the liberty of grabbing at least half of them. Kacchan's face twisted in anger. Oh no, what did I do now? "I-I can hold them, I'm not weak or something now." His voice sounded more desperate that angry. "I know, I just figured I'd give your hands a break. My moms hands looked bad like that too and I know how long you had to have been holding those bags so I just thought I'd-" I stopped talking once I realized Kacchan was laughing. Not chuckling, but Laughing. This beautiful, sweet laughter as sweet and thick as honey made it's way through my ears causing my heart to race. "Fine just carry them and stop rambling Deku." Hearing his voice speak to me so softly had my heart fluttering in my chest like crazy. My knees were weak as we walked to his dorm. He went to open the door and suddenly his eyes grew wide as he dropped a few bags. "Ummmm wait a sec ok." He said setting the rest of the bags on the floor, unlocking his door, walking in and shutting it behind him. Leaving me standing there holding an  incredible amount of shopping bags filled with god knows what. What the heck was that? I put my ear against the door to hear what he was doing but the door was suddenly yanked open. Kacchan stood there confusion written on his face until realization from my stance gave me away. He smirked. "Jeez, nosy much." He picked up the bags he put down and brought them inside. I waited outside figuring he would come back and get the rest of the bags since I'm sure his room was off limits to me. He turned back to face me staring at me for a few seconds. "Aren't you coming in?" I stood there in shock for a second thinking it was rather weird that he was ok with me entering his room. I took the chance and entered quickly. I glanced around the room, taking in my surroundings. The smell of Kacchan everywhere put me into a state a bliss instantly. I set the bags down on the bed next to the bags he had started taking things out of. There were body washes and hair products, she even bought him a straightener. Wow, I knew my mom had always wanted a daughter but jeez. He pulled out 4 different lotions, perfumes and body wash sets, taking the lotion out of each and handing them to me. "Which one do you think smells the best." He asks in a barely audible tone while refusing to look up from his hands. I picked them all up and opened them. I smelled them all but I saw an opportunity... and I took it. "Let me see your arm." I said causing him to look at me. That's when I noticed the intense blush on his face. "W-why?" God he was adorable. Why? Because I need an excuse to touch you. "Well see, lotion sometimes changes smell when it's added to someone's natural scent, I want to see which one smells the best on you." Without realizing it, I used a very seductive tone while speaking to him and was already standing up, holding his arm and adding drops of lotion to portions of the same arm. I slowly and gently rub each different kind into his skin, first at his wrist, then his forearm, then up to the crease of his elbow and finally in the middle of his bicep. I look into his eyes to see if my actions have had any effect and to my astonishment I see him completely flustered, with his other arm slightly covering his face and now that I'm paying attention I feel his arm slightly tremble under my touch. Was it possible that he could feel the same way. I test it. Without breaking eye contact I bring his arm to my face deeply inhaling the scent from the first lotion. Cherry Blossom, I loved this scent but for him, it made him smell just a tad too sweet, I smelled the next one, cucumber melon. The smell wasn't bad at all but I still wanted to smell the next ones. I got to the one in the crease of his elbow, this one was called Winter Wonderland the smell was adorable, its was close to how cotton candy smells but with maybe a minty twist. It smelled ok but still I wanted to smell the next one. The next one was very similar to his original smell. Brown sugar. It smelled so good I almost licked his arm. I pulled away before I actually did. "That one." I said very clearly and I could feel the something between my legs begin to grow. I couldn't let him see me like this, he would think I'm perverted. "So, I should probably get back to my dorm, it's pretty late and I'm sure you want a shower." I said fumbling over my own two feet slightly as I backed away. Kacchan was silent for a second before speaking "You sure you're not going to go back to Uraraka?" I looked at him. His face looking towards the ground again. Was he jealous? No that's not possible. I slowly walked towards him involuntarily. I used my pointer finger to gently guide his eyes to meet mine. I brought my face only inches from his and asked "Why exactly were you so opposed to letting Uraraka help in the first place.... Kacchan?" I was hopeful for a second. He was acting jealous, if he was then that meant I have a tiny sliver of a chance with him. His face got red, really red and my heart began to beat faster, growing excited waiting for his answer. He pushed my hand away, forcing his gaze away from me yet again. "I just didn't want another person in my room. You're also right, I do want a shower so get out." He said I could tell the last part wasn't said in his usual di*khead tone, but a playful one even though he clearly meant it. I could sense the sudden change in his mood. I had definitely read the room wrong. I felt so dumb. "Right, sorry I'll be going then." I chuckled, leaving the room. I love him so much but after what just happened I'm sure I can confirm that he has no feelings for me. I walk to my dorm in somewhat of a trance like state from having finally understood just how unrequited my love is. I open my door and walk in to see something unexpected. There on my bed was Uraraka. She stood up and began to speak "Before you can run away just let me say this and I'll leave you to think on it." She looked at me in all seriousness and because I was still in shock from her even being in my room I stood their in silence as she continued to speak. "I know that you're in love with Bakugou." Her words got my attention instantly. "I think I've known for a while. I don't care, I still want you. I think we both know that you have no chance with Kacchan. I'm pretty sure he's asexual. He doesn't seem to be interested in anyone. So be with me Deku. I love you, I'll do anything and everything for you. If you just give me a chance you may fall in love with me. Even if you don't I'm fine with that." Tears started to swell in her eyes and before I could say anything she throws herself onto me squeezing me with a bear hug. "I'll love you for the rest of my life, even if the answer to this proposal is no. So think on it, and let me know soon please." She pulled back to look at me one more time before walking out the door. Leaving me there speechless. 
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