18. Nature's shit

                                    

                                          
Zack pov~
                          
'shit, I really messed up this time'.
                          
"Yo Zack my mahn, you did it again" Logan cheers.
"Yeah, you surely showed that nerd her place" someone else agrees
                          
'but I didn't mean to do it'  is what I wanted to scream out, but I didn't and I really hate this feeling of my gut clenching I think it's guilt......I may be a self absorbed asshole but I'm still human.
                          
"Look at what you've done ,you fucking jerk" Ryan shoves me, I was taken by surprise and stumbled back. I don't know who this fucker thinks he is , but I feel really awful about what I did to Lyn so I probably deserve that.
                          
"No wonder why she hates you so much,you don't stand a chance-" he says but I could take anymore of it, and I punched him square in the jaw....'and fuck did it feel good'...i know I don't stand a chance but it's a low blow to shove it in my face...and the fact that I let him have a chance to back down after he shoved me is just fucking stupid...I should have punched him a few minutes ago instead of wasting my time with this .
The rest of the team already left after congratulating me 'on going to hell'
So only Max was here, holding me back from possibly killing Ryan...let's just say my temper is not the best.
                          
Ryan didn't say anything after I clocked him in the jaw, he ran away like a little bitch with his tail between his legs.
'yeah you better run'
                          
" Come on man, chill" Max grabs me by my shoulder, we both set down on the benches, after I calmed down he turns to me.
                          
"What the fuck is wrong with you...you wanted to apologise and you ended up dipping her inside natures Mierda (shit)....that is sad man..."he says with the disappointed look back on his face.
                          
"No, it's not what it looks like" I defend myself, he just quirks a eyebrow, while pulling out his phone to show me Ethan's latest post of Lyn covered in mud From head to toe, on the ground.
                          
"Okay.... maybe it is what it looks like...but I swear that it was supposed to be Ryan dipped in natures shit...they swapped places and she ended up being tripped...I bet that Bastard probably knew it was coming so he switched places with Lyn" I explain to Max.
                          
"Ahuh... okay dude...well all I know is she definitely ain't tutoring you now...you can go ahead and cross that of your list..." He says.
                          
"Well fuck... thanks Max that helps alot" I say sarcastically.
                          
"No problem Mano (bro)....I could tutor you but-..." He says but I interrupt.
                          
"Yeah no...I'll rather fail...your patience is zero...I'd probably look like a soccer ball after one session with you" I say cringing... just like me Max also gets irritated fast.
                          
"But....I don't have the patience for your  Tonto ( stupid) ass" he says with a slight glare because I interrupted him.
                          
"My what ass?" I ask confused,he just smiles and says we should head home so we can shower and I couldn't agree more.
                          
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After practice me and Max went to his place but I only stayed for about an hour before I left to go home, I wasn't feeling to well ever since we left after practice I've been having this weird feeling but I can't pin point what it is.
                          
I entered my home and as usual its empty, my sister Anna is 13 years old she's at her friends house  and my mother's at work, she has her own company ' I think she sells makeup or fashion stuff or some shit...I don't know...but I do know that it's doing well coz it's what makes us live comfortably'
My dad...well he doesn't live with us but I still see him occassionally, it didn't work out between mum and dad so they got a divorce when I was around ten ,I mean I was pissed at him but after 7 years you get over stuff and you learn that daddy didn't go to the shop to buy icecream and never ended up coming home, mum's still hasn't fully gotten over dad so she overloads herself with work and irritating my ass , trying to set me up with some people's daughter she works with ' apparently it will look good for business' like I care about business(note the sarcasm)...there is no way in hell that I'm going to be advertising next to a Barbie just because it looks good for business, standing ten feet next to Tiffany is everyday is hard enough.
                          
I go to my room to take a shower in my bathroom,that feeling still hasn't passed and it's starting to get on my nerves...
Is it still because of what I did to Lyn?
Nah I don't think so, I'd admit what I did was wrong ...but she'll get over it...and I'm Zack Rainford I don't feel sorry for no one...I mean I've done worst then trip a chick in mud but for some reason i only feel guilty for Lyn...and I hate it...
I gotta get a grip and pull myself together.
                          
Look at me overthinking while showering...I don't usually do that...I have to go back to being the old me...I don't feel guilty...I don't give a shit...and I definitely don't feel sorry for other people....I'm like the fucking king of East blue high...
                          
You know what...to hell with all of this thoughts, Imma go sleep like a baby in my comfy bed and when I wake up Imma pretend like all that happened today didn't.
                          
I get out of the shower and change into some comfortable clothes before jumping into bed and switching off the lights.
                          
'i don't give a fuck about anything...and when I wake up in the morning this feeling that im not sure about will pass'
Was the last thing I thought before falling off to sleep.
                          
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