❝nice try, connor❞

                                    

                                          
new update beautiful people
also anyone who has not gone through a lot of this stuff will not understand it just fyi
enjoy
also trigger warning!!
                          
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troye's jaw dropped with his heart. "c-connor..."
                          
connor shook his head, holding back the tears stinging his eyes. "i-i have to go," were the lasts words he said before quickly ending the call with his shaky hands.
                          
troye leaned back in his chair and let out a shaky breath. he rubbed his hands all over his face trying to process the new information.
                          
meanwhile on the other side of the world, demons took over connor's mind.
                          
why would you tell him that?
                          
now he knows you're fucked up.
                          
bet you'll never see his pretty little face again.
                          
connor tangled his fingers in the brown fibers of hair on his head and pulled them in frustration. "shut the fuck up!" 
                          
no one will ever like a pathetic excuse of a boy like you.
                          
don't get upset, you're simply just too sad and fucked up for anyone to ever like you.
                          
you're disgusting.
                          
connor's throat began to feel as if it was closing completely from the inside. he wrapped his thin fingers around his neck, not knowing what to do at all.
                          
squeeze your neck, it'll help you breathe.
                          
connor let out a throaty scream. "stop! get these voices out of my head!"
                          
desperate to numb the pain and get rid of the demons, connor slammed his head against the table repeatedly.
                          
nice try, connor.
                          
again.
                          
you'll never get rid of me.
                          
and again.
                          
you deserve to die.
                          
and again.
                          
you're just a little...
                          
until finally, the voices started to blur. right when a thin line of blood trickled down connor's face.
                          
connor dizzily smiled a bit, feeling somewhat accomplished for numbing the numerous voices in his head.
                          
although the "accomplishment" didn't mean much, when his body slowly fell to the ground, only seeing black.
                          
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9:03 pm
troyesivan18: connor
                          
9:07 pm
troyesivan18: i'm sorry i didn't know what to say...
                          
9:09 pm
troyesivan18: i just want to hug you and protect you from the world
                          
10:09 pm
troyesivan18: i don't know where you are or what you're doing and that scares me
                          
10:13 pm
troyesivan18: i care about you a lot con
                          
10:18 pm
troyesivan18: goodnight love, sweet dreams
                          
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okay so the last part of the chapter was just asks that troye was sending in but connor hasn't seen them yet because he passed out
the times on the asks are connor's in la
also i would just like to say, if you were looking for a normal, completely cliché fanfiction, you're in the wrong spot. soz babes
picture of connor on the side/top