The Night Before

                                    

                                          
April, 17th 2021
Kacchan's POV 
Aizawa's voice was drowned out by my ears zoning in on the mumbles flowing from the nerds mouth. He wasn't talking loud enough for me to make out what he was saying however, causing me to lose interest and allow my attention to divert back to my teacher who was still talking.
His eyes turned to Deku, making him stop as he noticed the green haired boy mumbling, seemingly paying no attention. "Midoriya, tell me the last sentence that came out of my mouth." He calmly commanded and I felt my chest tighten a little, damnit Deku pay attention. But unexpectedly he answered "A provisional license is the first step you take in getting a heroes license, you get a permit after a few years of having a provisional license. Then once you've graduated you're a full fledged licensed hero free to join any agency of your ch-" Aizawa interrupts the nerd "Okay okay, I said the last sentence not my whole lesson. Just stop muttering and pay attention, problem child." I hear the sound of a deep, beautiful chuckle and a small draft of hot air hit my neck, causing my body to pleasantly shiver. Deku's breath. My cheeks felt hot and there was a lump in my throat. Just the thought him breathing on my neck, heavily- I shake the thought away. Thinking about Deku in such ways always made me feel dirty, shameful. 
He would never touch me, not only did I bully him but he clearly surpassed me, he is so much better than me it's only a matter of time before he realizes it, if he hasn't already. When he does, he'll see me for how pathetic I am. For how weak he makes me. I hated this feeling and welcomed it all at the same time. This affectionate feeling started a long, long time ago, 
I've never been able to fully accept the feelings Deku planted in me with every little "Kacchan" thrown my way. I didn't even realize exactly what it was I felt for him until recently, but it's always been here. The other feeling had come only recently, I've always seen Deku's beauty, how strong he was even without a quirk and not only did it intimidate me, but it made me envious as well. Which came out in anger, only further worsening the situation by proving how strong he was everytime I thought I would break his spirit. "Bakugou" I look up to see shitty hair standing by my desk. "Dude, where are you right now? The bell already rang let's go." His voice eager to leave. It was incredibly obvious, causing the voice behind me to speak out. "W-what table were you guys going to sit at today?" His voice always went up in pitch when he spoke to me or a group in which I was in. I found it endearing but it was probably because he hated me, he was scared of me. I felt a tug at my heart at the thought "Tch, Don't worry about it nerd." At this point I couldn't just start being nice to him. After all this time, he would think something is up. Besides if I started being nice then he might think I want to be friends and just start trying to hang out with me. I don't want that, how can I get over him if I never have space from him. "Sorry" his voice was much harsher than I'd ever heard from him. I even lost my cool and looked at him for a second, completely in shock. He was already walking out of the room with a scowl on his face. I followed his movements until he was out of sight.
"Dude what the hell? You know you can't treat Midoriya like that forever. We're in our last year and you still treat him like you did the first year. People get fed up with that shit you know." He said this so casually, while the words hit me in the chest like a mallet. I knew he was right but what the hell was I supposed to do to get him to leave me alone. I've been trying to rid myself of these feelings since middle school by keeping him at a distance, but he would never leave me alone. I thought coming to UA would be my escape but he came here too. I sighed standing up and walking out of the room with Kirishima behind me. "Yea I know" was all I could say I didn't know what else I could say. Not one person knew of how I felt about Deku, or that I was gay for that matter. It wasn't like I could explain myself to anyone.
We made it to the cafeteria and my eyes immediately went to where the nerd usually sat but he wasn't there. Feeling a bit frustrated I walk to our usual table and sit down opening my lunch and preparing it to be eaten, adding certain spices and whatnot. "So come on tell me, what about Deku pisses you off so much man?" Kiri voiced out, us being the only two at the table I guess he felt it was ok to ask. "He doesn't piss me off" It wasn't a lie. Yea I did want him to leave me alone but, every single bit of attention I got from him made me feel special, even if I'd never admit it, his persistence never pissed me off, rather made me fall even harder for him. My head instinctively turned to where he should've been. He still wasn't there. I was starting to get worried. Deku ate, he loves food and always scarfs his food down. So where was he? "Dude he obviously pisses you off." Kiri said continuing the conversation. I looked at him with a scowl "Deku, doesn't piss me off." Kiri's face looked confused before he asked "Well then what the hell is your beef with him man?" I rolled my eyes going to take my first bite of food. "I swear you two could be an old married couple." I choked on my food, causing it fall back into my bento. "Dude, are you ok?" No. I was not ok. My heart was pounding and I could feel the heat on my face. "Woah- hold on" Kiri's face instantly overcome with realization. "Bakubro" he leaned in and whispered "do you LIKE Midoriya?" 
I could have sworn my heart stopped right then and there. I tried to play it off "What no!" But Kiri's face grew into a wide grin. "You know, your face is redder than a tomato right now" he said squinting his eyes, teasing me. I looked away, not knowing how to handle someone finally finding out about my feelings for Deku.
I grabbed my bento, walked over to the trash can and threw the whole thing away. "Yo Bakugou, wait-" Kiri said as he walked up behind me. "Dude I'm sorry I didn't mean to-" he stopped when he saw the tears in my eyes. He had never seen me cry, no one had except for Deku. I pushed him away and darted out of the cafeteria, running to my dorm room. I shut the door and locked it, staring at the door in fear that Kiri followed me, waiting for a knock on the door any second. It never came though, guess he took the hint. Kiri knows. That one thought alone was enough to make me feel sick to my stomach, no one was ever supposed to know. I was pulled from my thoughts abruptly when my cell phone began ringing. I looked down at the Caller ID. (Deku) it read in big bold black letters. Why was he calling me? Kirishima wouldn't possibly tell him would he? A lump formed in my throat, my hands began to shake and if felt like I was breathing through a noodle. I answered "What Deku." I tried to sound like normal and I assume it worked. I heard him sigh "you do it" I heard on the other side of the phone before there were a bunch of jumbling noises. "Young Bakugou, we need to speak with you." All Mights voice came through, causing my whole attitude to change. "Why what happened?" I was always worried about Deku and his power. His quirk was way over powered something was always going wrong. "Well, we can talk about that when you get here. We're at ground Beta." With that the phone clicked off. Were they not aware that classes started up again in only 15 minutes. Whatever the sooner we can get this over with the better. ~
I approach the two, Deku hasn't noticed me yet as he was mumbling to All Might about something. All mights head kept jerking to the side, looking between me and Deku. Deku stopped mumbling to ask All Might "All Might, why are you spazing out?" His voice was normal. Like how it is when he's talking to anyone but me. His head snapped back towards me as I was finally within arm reach of both of them. "What do you two want?" It had taken me 10 minutes to get here, we'd surely be late if we didn't hurry this up. Deku's face seemed to hold a tension that I couldn't place. He looked to All Might "well tell him" he said crossing his arms and walking away from us a little. All Might looked a little disappointed for a second and then look at me with pity in his gaze. "Young Bakugou, there is something that happened on Nabu island that me nor young Midoriya has told you about." He proceeded to explain the entire situation on Nabu island to me. As soon as he did little flashes in my memory allowed me to see some of what went down after being reminded. Deku had given OFA to me? He had no qualms about it either. It was HIS choice to do it. For a second I let my mind run off to a dangerous place. Thinking it was possible that he could feel about me, the way I do him. But was instantly put in check with what Deku said next. "Yea, kind of regretting that right now." My heart sank a little and I tried to ignore the urge to scream at him and cry. "Young Bakugou, have you been feeling..." he trailed off a bit leaving me to turn my head in confusion. "Have you had weird dreams... maybe about Deku or with Deku in them?" My eyes widened, what the f*ck? Why the f*ck would he ask me that? There's absolutely no way they could know right? My shock must've been apparent because All Might continued. "Well you see, Deku has this ability to speak with the rest of the OFA users, in some what of a dream state." My confusion was only getting worse as they explained. Why was I even here? They could've left me in the dark about Nabu island and nothing would have changed why does it matter? "Look, can you just get to the point already. We are already late for class." All Might looked down and Deku refused to look at me? He was acting real weird towards me after this morning and it was starting to worry me. "You have begun to manifest there." All Might stated. I wasn't really sure what that meant though "so?" I heard Deku let out an aggravated laugh, more of a scoff. "So" he shakes his head looking at the ground as a sarcastic laugh leaves his lips. "So what, who cares if you have to deal with everyone's emotions and trauma within this quirk, LET ME JUST ADD TO IT" All Might spoke suddenly "Young Midoriya stop, I know you're upset about this but it isn't his fault. If anything it was your choice!" He said. I couldn't pay attention to what was being said anymore. My eyes were glued on Deku. He was being so cold to me. This was completely out of character for him. It made me feel so small to have him speak to me in the way he had, he never did that before. His head finally turned in my direction his face expressionless, eyes landing on me. I'd never seen Deku's face so cold towards me. He looked away towards the ground. "Whatever, this was a waste of time. Let's go." He stood up already walking back towards the school. I grabbed his arm instinctively. His head snapped towards me an eyebrow cocked up in questioning manner. I wasn't sure why I did it. I let go looking away. No words were said. I began walking beside him as All might trailed behind us a little. 
We made it back to class and Aizawa scolded us for being late. It wasn't like he didn't know about OFA, the whole class knew. Matter of fact the whole world knew. The secret came out in the first year we were here. We both neglected to tell him our reason for being late however.
After the bell rang I noticed that Deku was the first out the door, when he usually tends to wait until everyone else is gone before he leaves. Uraraka ran after him screaming his name to catch his attention. At this point the only one who didn't know she liked Deku was Deku himself. I'm sure once he knows he will jump at the chance to be with her. I wanted that for him, he deserves normal love. Not some twisted complicated gay love story that would surely mess up his reputation. I sighed standing up and leaving the classroom. I had only gotten a few feet down the hallway when I heard Uraraka's voice. "He said yes Tsu!" She squealed with excitement. "Are you finally going to tell him how you feel?" My heart sank at the question. Knowing exactly who they were talking about. "Yes! It's way over due and I think he likes me back. All day he's been acting weird but as soon as I walked up to him he smiled and laughed with me. It made me feel special" she giggled as I felt my heart break a little. "We're meeting at 7:00 in the common room. Please Tsu, help me pick out something to wear?" I heard Tsu say "fine" before they both ran off giggling. I walked back to my room feeling dazed. Like someone had hit me really hard or something. When I sat down on my bed I began sobbing. I hated crying, it made me feel weak, but I knew very well that Deku would always be my weakness.~
I woke up, crust in my eyes barely allowing me to open them. I checked the time. 6:49 pm. 11 minutes before Deku and Uraraka were to meet up. I sighed sitting up and pulling crusties out of my eye and pouring visine in them. Crying myself to sleep happened quite a bit. My eyes were always sore afterwards, sore and crusty that is. I sat on my bed thinking. I should let this happen right? Deku, he liked Uraraka right? And she liked him? So me doing anything now would just be selfish. I slung myself back down on my bed. I won't go. I will let him be happy. I bit my nails and my ears rang. I stared at my clock 6:56pm. 4 more minutes and I could breathe. I stared at the clock as it slowly ticked closer to 7. With every tik I felt my heart rip to shreds. Knowing I was about to let the love of my life go forever was tearing me apart. It was 6:59 now... I watched as the little hand slowly reached the 12 on my clock. It was 7:00pm. Deku would be greeting Uraraka by now. They will soon be together. I can do this. I shut my eyes and began counting sheep. Trying to force myself to sleep. This overwhelming feeling wouldn't go away and when I opened my eyes to check and see how much time had passed only a minute had. Even though it felt much longer. I closed my eyes again, only to be met with the image of Uraraka and Deku kissing. My eyes snapped open and before I could even think I was sprinting out my door and down the stairs to the common room. I stopped when I reached the doorway. Peeking my head around the corner only slightly.
Only Uraraka occupies the common room. She is pacing back and forth in front of the couch. Fidgeting with her fingers and dress, talking to herself. She was obviously practicing what she would say. Her face was caked with makeup and the dress she wore showed her cleavage very prominently. That's when I heard the deep dark voice I've come to obsess over. "Hey" he said as he suddenly came into view. "You look nice." She smiled brightly, thanked him and asked him to sit. When he stood he was taller than even me so he towered over Uraraka, even when they were seated. "So what did you want to talk to me about?" He asked. His whole demeanor was different around her, he acted like the old Deku. One I had neglected to see in so many years. 
She began. "Well, see Deku. I never said anything because well, being your friend was the best thing." She smiled. I could see the confusion creeping up on Deku's face "I didn't want to lose you. But now-" she looked away from him too close in my direction so I found myself only being able to hear what was said as I hid behind the wall to avoid detection. "I've been thinking that it's possible you could feel the same way." She paused again and not being able to see what was happening was already killing me. "Deku I really like you, at this point I'd go so far to say that I'm in l-love with you." I felt panic start to settle in, I couldn't stand it anymore I had to look. I slowly and carefully peeked out from behind the wall to see Deku scratching his head a big red blush spread across his cheeks. "Oh-" he stammered 
She gave no more time before jumping on him, now straddling him. Deku's face was in a shocked expression with his hands up. "Wait Ura-" she cut him off with an abrupt kiss. Deku's eyes widen even more than they already were. His hands still not touching her. But then she grabbed his hand and placed it on her boob. Deku pulled his head back "Uraraka wait" she stopped and let go of his hand. Although she still occupied his lap. Jealousy was already searing through me, all I wanted to do was make her head go "boom". "Deku, please." Her eyes started watering and her voice broke. It sickened me that she would resort to begging so she wouldn't be rejected. I watched as Deku's expression went through multiple emotions. At first the confusion twisted to sadness and pity. When he looked down I heard him sigh. He looked back up and the expression on his face was one I recognized on him especially. Defeat. "Ok." Was all he said. I felt my heart drop to my butthole. What? "Ok what?" She said with a big smile. Deku didn't answer all he did was grab the back of her head, pulling her into a kiss. I don't know what came over me but, I decided to put my acting skills to work. I pull my phone out of my pocket and put it to my ear, and walk into the common room. "Damnit you old hag, I said I'd come!" I acted like I had just noticed them. She was still on his lap and Deku's hands gripped the sides of her ass. I felt stinging in my heart and was trying really hard to keep up my front. "Ew, get a room." I spat. Letting all my anger out with that one sentence made it sound like a threat. Deku and Uraraka had both froze their lips still touching but not moving at all. I put the phone back to my ear. "I SAID IM COMING " I act like I hung up my phone and walk over to put my coat on. They were still frozen together, where they were caught. I slipped my coat on and put a scarf on with ear muffs as well since it was snowing outside and I wasn't good with the cold. "If four eyes or any of the teachers come you'll both be expelled you know." That was true. Sexual Interaction was 100% forbidden in the dorms. Whether you were in your room or not. With that I walked out. I walked, slowly to the edge of the dorm building, out of Deku's sight. I fell to the ground immediately. Tears just kept falling, my chest hurt, and my breathing had become shallow. I needed to blow off some steam. I let out blast after blast sending me hurling forward about 10 feet each blast. Racing away from the dorms.~
I don't even know how far I'd gotten away from school, but looking around I had no idea where I was either. I sat down on a bench to catch my breath. My scarf had blown away sometime between here and the school. I didn't care about it enough to go looking for it though. The cold was nice anyways. I started crying again thinking about how Deku would love to see the view I had right now. The snow covered the trees, the ground, the street lights. It was truly a beautiful sight, and I wish Deku was here to see it with me, even if he is the reason for my tears. "Why do you cry sweet boy?" I turned my head to look at the woman speaking to me. Her blue hair wrapped up in her hoodie with little strands falling out. She was easily the prettiest girl I'd ever seen, my thought instantly went to Deku and how he would think she was pretty. I wish he would think I'm pretty. "I'm not telling you I don't even know you." I said with my usual snappy tone. She just laughed "well well, maybe you aren't so sweet after all." I grit my teeth and go to leave when she speaks again. "I'm Yuki" spreading her lips in a big smile "now that you know me." She slid down, sitting next to me. "You can tell me why tears stain this pretty face." Her hand went to grab my cheek, but I pulled my head back, giving her a scowl. I don't like being touched. "Sorry, pretty boy I won't touch you." The fact that she knew what I was thinking led me to a conclusion the she could possibly have a mind reading quirk. That was quickly shut down though as I realized if she could read minds she would know why I was crying. "If I tell you will you leave me alone?" She chuckled not answering me, still staring at me. I figured it couldn't hurt since she was stranger after all. "The person I love will never love me back. I just watched him get with another person , a girl. I'm fine, I just needed space." I grumbled it out. It was ok to talk to a stranger. She didn't even know Deku so there was no way she could tell him. "If you could make one wish, right here right now. What would it be?" Her question struck me like a baseball bat. I knew exactly what I would wish for if I knew it would come true. "I would wish to be a girl. So I could be with the person I love, without feeling like I'm bringing him down." She smiled. "Are you sure?" What? Well yea but why does she care so much? "Yea I'm sure what the f-" she cut me off. "I hope so Katsuki" she blew into my face and little sparkles came out of her mouth and instantly went up my nose. My vision started to blur, and my mind wasn't running right. "What did you do" I managed to mumble out as my body started falling to the ground like a sack of potatoes. "I've just granted your wish pretty boy." Then, everything went dark.
~4182 Words
Author's note~
Pay Attention to the Dates when I put them. They will reoccur.
I've never finished a Fanfiction so this is technically my first one. Please bare with me. And no hate pls<3 if you don't like BKDK why are you here??