CHAPTER 12

                                    

                                          
Chapter 12






                          
Raphael Pov

                          
I almost twisted Dareen's hand that was intertwined with mine when I woke up the next morning. Due to shock of what the hell was I doing. I almost twisted his hand but it's a good thing that I refrain myself from doing so. 



                          
When I woke up I saw him sitting on the cold floor. Nakaunan siya sa isa niyang kamay habang ang isa naman ay nakahawak sa kamay ko. Which is I find it a very fucking unusual thing. Why the heck would I like this thing? Why would I let him hold my hand? I hated when someone did it to me. I hated it when someone try to get closed with me. What more to him? He's a gay and he knew it. But then... why the hell are our hands intertwined? I remembered him helping me to get here and after that I don't remember any na ginawa ko. 



                          
Kaya nga muntik ko nang mabali ang kamay nang may maramdaman akong kakaiba sa kamay ko. Obviously, hindi ako sanay na may humahawak sa akin. And on top of that I don't like bringing someone in my room. He's the first guy. Kaya nga hindi ko na sinabi kay Dareen kung nasaan banda ang room ko dahil wala rin namang saysay. He's just here for the mean time. 



                          
But through the days that past... parang nasasanay na ako sa kanya na nandidito sa bahay ko. Kasi tuwing uuwi ako dito sa bahay ko. Nakasanayan ko na na dalhan siya ng pagkain dahil alam ko hindi siya marunong magluto. Dammit! Naalala ko muntik pa niyang masunog ang kusina ko. Also, I like his coffee every morning. I don't know if he knows that I drink it or not but I like his coffee. Nasanay na rin ako doon at araw araw ko nang inaabangan ang coffee niya sa island counter. 



                          
He moaned that why I pulled my hand away. I don't know why but my heart skip a beat and when I stare at his sleeping face. Dammit! I thought he is awake. I got off from the bed then I scoff him and carried Dareen's sleeping body from my room to his. Why I finally reached to his room and put him at his bed. That's when I realized that he is very light for a man and at his age. And when I carried him I can tell that his body is so tiny from my hands. I think I can break his body just by holding him. I was about to let his body go and leave his room but I feel something warm on the corner of my neck. Unconsciously, I look at Dareen but it was a wrong act because when I turned my head on him. The tip of my nose touches chin and his warmth breath directly landed on my face. 



                          
In one swift moved, I pushed my body away from him. Dahil sa gulat ko napaatras ako ng ilang beses saka ako napaupo sa sahig.



                          
"Bullshit!" I hissed and put my hands on my back. 



                          
My eyes fixed on Dareen and I'm glad that he didn't saw my clumsiness. I cussed again before standing and stormed out. I leave a one glance before going into my room.



                          
While I was fully naked under the cold shower. May biglang pumasok sa isip ko. Ngayon ko lang napagtanto na ang tagal ko pa lang gumising ngayong araw. Mostly nagiging ako at 5 but today it's 10 in the morning. Kahit naman noon na natutulog ako ng mga 1am or 2am nagigising talaga ako 5 or less. Nakainom man ako o hindi ganyan na talaga... simula noon. Ngayon lang. Ngayon lang ulit ako nakatulog nang ganito katagal sa hinaba-haba ng panahon. Hindi ko alam kung ano ang nangyari pero ang gaan sa pakiramdam. Kagabi lang din ako nakatulog ng maayos sa kabila nang nangyari. 



                          
Pagkatapos kong magshower at magbibihis na sana ako para pumasok sa trabaho but I feel like not going. Instead I put my used towel around my waist then headed down without any single clothes on. Just my towel around waist. I went on the pool then pulled off the towel and jumped into the cold water swimming pool. I swim and swim until my muscles and limbs get hurt. I stopped and sit on the of the swimming pool stairs. Umupo ako na tamang-tama lang na natatakpan ng tubig ng pool ang pagkalalaki ko.