Hope Perfect Stays Forever

                                    

                                          


                          
Chapter 34
                          
Neil's P.O.V.
                          
It was fine one minute; we were driving to Elena and Emily's house. Rose was driving in front of me. 
                          
The next minute the car is out of control. There was a huge car coming at Rose's from one side and I didn't see her move out of the way. Was she drunk?
                          
It was all within one minute but it seemed like forever. My insides were bursting with dear and suddenly Rose car screeched, a sharp left turn away from the upcoming car and right into a tree. 
                          
I stopped equally abruptly and ran out of the car, I wasn't even there yet when Car door opens, all of there and ours. Everyone drunk and sober was out. 
                          
Thankfully none was hurt. 
                          
Then it dawned on me, Rose hadn't come out. 
                          
"Rose!" Sam and I shouted at the same time. 
                          
I dashed to her side and pulled open her door. 
                          
Her head was slumped against the steering wheel. 
                          
"Rose are you okay?" I ask.
                          
"Rose, can you hear me." Sam yelled. 
                          
"Omg, is she okay." Gasped Savannah
                          
"What the hell just happened Rose?" Mason asked running closer. 
                          
I gently pulled her face up, afraid I would see a bloody scar somewhere, instead all I see is a tear-stained face. 
                          
I examine her face, taking it in my hands, but she still had a hand to her head. 
                          
"Rose are you okay?" I ask again, with everybody else right beside me.
                          
"Do you want to go to the hospital?" Sam asked impatiently. 
                          
Rose suddenly lost it. She shoved my hand aside and got out of the car. 
                          
"Pleaseee! Stop! I nearly killed you all and you're asking me if I am good? God, give me a break. I am not okay, I know it. Please don't let me do anything, ever! I am useless, and... and pathetic, and I would have killed you." She said reaching up to Sam. at first I thought she was being sarcastic somehow and I couldn't pick up, the way her voice cracked in the end, I knew she was serious. 
                          
"Rose, come here, it wasn't your fault. Now tell me what happened. Did you get dizzy again? Are you still dizzy?" he asked her trying to reach her. But she backed away this time, shaking her head. 
                          
"Sam I am tired, tired of people asking me how I am feeling, tired of the looks, of the sympathy, I cant walk, I can barely walk. And here I thought I could drive people around. I thought I could go to party, be normal, but I can't. I can't escape it. And I becoming more of a burden every day."
                          
I was beyond confused, my heart ached seeing her like this. I had no idea what she was talking about and the nerves were pulling my brain to somehow comprehend but it couldn't. Despite that, I felt this unavoidable need to comfort her. 
                          
As she backed away from Sam her back closer to me. I took two steps ahead and catch her in my arms. One hand around her waist other on her face. 
                          
"Shhh calm down, its okay Rose." She leaned back slightly and sobbed. She sank to the ground and I went right with her. 
                          
"Why do you not hate me?" She asked in the smallest possible voice. 
                          
"I can never hate you." I reply honestly. In other circumstances I would have held back the truth, but I had lost my power to lie today.