Please Look at Me

                                    

                                          


Best_wW


                          
The four of us, Dave, Tar, Dew and me went towards the music club together after that little meeting we had at the cafeteria where I first saw Dew again after two years of no communication or whatsoever. The three of us had to rehearse for the upcoming Christmas concert and Dew just decided to tag along. 
                          
I still feel like I'm in a dream state watching Dew's back walking in front of me and seeing the side of his handsome face from time to time as he smiled talking to Dave and Tar who were also walking beside him. I smiled watching the three of them reunited again and re-igniting their friendship after getting separated for two long years. 
                          
"So you guys are famous now? Do you have many fans this days?" Dew asked the two in full interest shoving their shoulders playfully with his. 
                          
"Of course we are! At least we are in this university. But honestly we really not into getting that famous. We continue to play because of our love for music. that's all." Dave answered Dew first. 
                          
"We have no intentions of taking this career into another level or focus all our efforts here. As long as we can still play without compromising  our studies then we'll keep on going." Tar added glancing back at me and then to Dave as we nod to him in agreement. 
                          
The two were right. A dream we had back in our high school days simply ended when we were facing the pressure and demands of college life. College made us realized our priorities and what we really wanted to become as an adult. 
                          
"Aw! I'm even rooting for you guys to debut someday." Dew sounded disappointed and almost looked back at my direction. His head snapped back to the front when he realized what he was about to do halfway. 
                          
He's been avoiding eye contact with me and I am not that stupid not to notice. 
                          
"Don't worry ai Dew, you're still gonna see us play some music. You have no idea how popular we are around BKK. Especially this ai kid Best." Tar took a step backwards so that he can walk side by side with me. He was still grinning from ear to ear as he slumped his arms around my shoulders. This made Dew finally turned to look at the both of us. 
                          
I don't know if my eyes are playing tricks on me but did I just see him raised an eyebrow? It's like he's pissed off with me and a Tar. Was something bothering him? 
                          
We reached the music club room and before I could get in myself, Dew had blocked my way.
                          
"Hey Best, can you accompany me to the washroom first? I do not know the way around here." He said to me letting Dave and Tar go in first. I stared at him blankly unable to utter a single word. 
                          
Why all of a sudden Dew? Did he finally decided to talk? Ugh. My stomach is not doing good. How long have I been this nervous? Two years! That's right! The last time I felt this jittery was when Dew started talking to me back in our high school days. 
                          
My legs felt like they were made of cement as I started leading the way towards the nearest man's washroom that is a floor above the music club. I met a few seniors who greeted me in the stairs and I don't know how I had responded back. Every muscle in my body felt so much difficult to maneuver with the thought that Dew was following me at the back. 
                          
"Best?" He finally breaks the silence when we got to the washroom. It's mostly deserted at this hour as most of the students have already went home. 
                          
"Yeah?" I'm glad that my ability to speak is still functional despite the chaos that is happening in my central nervous system. Dew was done with his thing and is now washing his hands at the sink where I was having an intimate staring game with my own reflection in the mirror.