Chapter 47

                                    

                                          
Chaeyoung POV
                          
"So, Chaeyoung. What do you feel, like to share with me?" Dr. Jihyo asked. 
                          
I sighed. 
                          
"I saw my girlfriend cheated on me." I start. 
                          
I heard she scripted her note. 
                          
"Do you want to tell me everything about this?"  She continued. 
                          
"That day, I was saw her making out with that chick. When I found out she was making out with that chick, everything feels like a deja vu to me. All the flashback hit on me. I was furious and straight away left her." I said and gulped. 
                          
"Then, I pecked all my stuff and ready to leave my girlfriend. I feel so betrayed and hopeless." I continue. 
                          
I held my hands together and tried to breath in and out a few times. I tried to calm myself. 
                          
"When she back home, I started fight with her. This is first time I fight with her. She keep telling me that she has no idea what was going on. I hit her and yelled at her. But, she only hug me and telling me that she don't know what was going on." I felt my tears rolled out from the corner of my eyes. 
                          
"How could she not admit it? How could she pretend she didn't know anything? She owed me an explanation and why she asked me what's going on. I have seen everything but why she could pretend like nothing happened?" I said cried. 
                          
I ended my story to her and I only heard she busy scripting down all her notes. 
                          
"Have you dreamed after you left your girlfriend?" She asked. 
                          
I sniffed and nodded my head. 
                          
"Yes, I did." I replied. 
                          
She smiled to reassure me.   
                          
"Could you tell me about your dream?" She asked. 
                          
"The dreamed was a messed. I have dreamt about my girlfriend making out with that chick. She was saying that I'm just a fling, I'm was a boring person and will be leaving me. When I confronted her, her face turned to my ex sex buddy's face. Her affair turned to my ex best friend's face. They told me that my girlfriend was not real and doesn't exist. She told me that true love didn't exist. Everything was dream. So, I punched her goddamn face." I said. 
                          
My body started shaking as Jihyo patted my hands. 
                          
"Do you need to take a break?" She asked.
                          
I shook my head. 
                          
"And then, after I punched her face, she turned to be my girlfriend back. I was regret and she looked at me with disappointed. I never see her expression like that when she looked at me. That's first time she looked at me like that. She said she was disappointed at me then she left me." I used my both of my hands to cover my face continue to cry. 
                          
"I really love her. Half of me tell me that she didn't cheated. But, half of me tell me that she is. But, I saw it with my eyes." I said. 
                          
"I really love her." I said repeated a few times. 
                          
Jihyo patted my back. 
                          
"Chaeyoung, you did it well. Now, listen to me. You have to let go everything now. Then, take a few deep breath." She said. 
                          
I did as she said. 
                          
"Breath in." I breathed in. 
                          
"Breath out." I breath out. 
                          
I followed her instruction a few times then feel better. I felt release and stared at the ceiling to relax myself. After a while, we back to her working table and I sat across her.