Chapter 16: Gulf

                                    

                                          
I raise my eyebrow after hearing what Mew Suppasit had said. Becoming friends after the audition? Like my acting? Duh, what a lame lie, but anyways, everyone believes what he says because they all nod their heads, like saying, "Wow, I really appreciate this."
                          
But for some unknown reason, when Mew Suppasit introduced me as his friend after the casting, I suddenly feel a bit disappointed, somehow like I were expecting him to say something else than that. That's when I see the ring of Mew's thumb. 
                          
I have seen this ring on the entertainment blogs just a few days ago after knowing that I'm involved in this drama. I searched online for the whole thing of MewArt and somebody posted that Art has given the ring to Mew Suppasit and he treasures it so much. I didn't believe it at first, but when I see him holding the ring with the fingers of his other hand, I'm not sure about it.
                          
I don't know why. I really don't know why. I just feel like I want to cry all of a sudden. Just all of a sudden after seeing Mew Suppasit's ring. I feel my tears coming out, so I try to blink back my tears. But a drop of tear fall down onto my lap, which is when Mew Suppasit turns to look at me at that same moment. 
                          
He stares at me for a while, I don't know how long, but all I know is that my heart is jumping really quickly all the time he is looking at me. My brain suddenly stops and I cannot change the direction of my head and eyes. So I just stare back at him, without doing anything, my heart jumps and runs quicker than before. I feel heat growing on my face. I feel my throat getting dry. I feel another tear drop on my lap. I feel...that I'm in love with this man in front of me.  
                          
When I can finally process what I had thought just now, I am so shocked. I turn my head, facing MAME abruptly. What the fuck?! What am I thinking? Me falling in love with Mew Suppasit? Stop kidding with yourself, Gulf Kanawut.
                          
I hear the chair beside me move, "I'm sorry, I have to be excused." And Mew Suppasit runs out of the room. This guy is strange. How in the world would I fall in love with this man?
                          
I take out my phone and start to scroll Instagram to kill some time. I click the button of suggestions and a post with a heart background catches my attention. I check out the post and find out it's from a love account. The post goes like this:
                          
THIS IS LOVE: 
                          
1. Your heart beats really fast when you see xx
                          
2. Your throat seems to be dried up when you see xx
                          
3. Your mind just goes blank when you see xx
                          
4. You get jealous over little things about xx
                          
5. You want to spend the whole day with xx even you're tired or whatsoever
                          
6. You think about xx all day and night
                          
7. Who are you thinking of when you're reading all these? 
                          
Well, I did spend my whole day thinking of Mew Suppasit these few days. I was thinking of what to say to him when I meet him again, does this even count? I take it as a yes. And damn, yes, I was thinking of fucking Mew Suppasit when I was reading all along. What the hell? The whole thing points straightly that I have fallen in love with Mew Suppasit. 
                          
Damn. Fuck. Then what about my girlfriend? Does this count as cheating on her?