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I opened my eyes to this bright light shining down on me and I was laying in a hospital, in a setting I was not expecting to lay in...
I was really confused with the events that happened but I hadn't forgotten anything or anything that happened.
I lift my head up and I saw Tammy and Becca sitting there worried.
                          
Becca notices me move.
"Oh my goodness, Andra you're okay." She took a breath of relief then gave me a hug.
                          
"What happened? How did this happen?" 
Tammy asked me concerned.
                          
"I'm not sure, I felt dizzy when I was driving I didn't know I'd end up driving into a ditch." I giggled "but I'm fine I'm all good." 
                          
Becca smiles at me, "good." 
                          
The doctor came in and did some checkups to make sure I was stable enough to go home and to see if there were any other issues.
Turns out I was all okay just a minor head injury with some scratches and a few bruises but I was all good to to home. The doctor said just to minimise movement due to my head injury. 
Since Becca basically stayed with Tammy all the time at his she said that I would have to come and stay there till 'I was in amazing condition so I don't die.'<- her words not mine.
                          
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We arrived at Tammys and I went and called liz and cam and told them I wouldn't be able to come to work for a few days due to the events that occurred, they panicked and overloaded me with questions, I made sure to ensure them that I'm okay.
                          
"Right me and Tammy are going out for a little date since it's not refundable, because if it was we would stay here with you. If you need anything call me! Or call mason." She winks at me.
                          
"Not mason." I said with a straight face.
I acted like I wasn't upset about the whole situation since it was embarrassing for me to admit that I liked him since I feel as though I got attached too soon, I let my guard up a bit too quick and I felt as though I can't trust people since my previous relationship ended seriously bad. 
                          
But when mason came into the shop to apologise and explain what happened it really felt as though he was telling the truth but I can't throw myself into something that quick, it's the mistake I make every single time. I wasn't going to let them tonight's over flow my head, I had more bigger things to worry about like who am I going to bring to Tenerife with me, all I know is Becca and Tammy are coming with me 100%.
                          
I got up off the sofa slowly, and went to the kitchen and got myself a yogurt from 
The fridge since that was the only thing I liked in Tammys fridge. 
                          
I got my yogurt and went back to the living room and sat down, turned on the tv and caught up with my series since I haven't watched it in days. 
                          
I tried eating my food but I couldn't since I was just trapped with the conflict of me and mason. But I couldn't bring myself to step up and talk to him, the event was just on repeat in my head and I was so overwhelmed with what had happened I couldn't concentrate on eating. If I explained how I felt right now to someone they would think I'm delusional
For having these strong emotions for him, but what they don't understand is that mason has flipped my world in a positive way, he brought out the good side of me that I never knew I had. I've become attached to him because he's treated me how I am meant to be treated. It's effecting me so much since I feel as though I won't find someone like him, not even close.
                          
I went to the kitchen and put my yogurt in the bin. Since Tam and Becca had gone out I was really bored since I was on my own so to kill the time I just decided that I'd go to sleep and see what was in store for the next morning.
                          
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Few hours pass...
                          
After I originally went to bed, I was twisting and turning rummaging around in the bed since my mind wouldn't shut off. So I picked up my phone and called Becca..
                          
"Andra! Are you okay? Do you want us to come home. We will come home right now." 
                          
"No stay. I'm okay I was just wondering if you could ask Tammy if he has any melatonin gummies, or anything that helps with sleep since Ive got mine at home, I really can't fall asleep, I'm struggling so much." I Iet my emotions break through on accident and I started to cry over the phone.
                          
"Andra, we're coming home right now. You're telling me you're fine but you're crying. Be there in 10." 
                          
Before I could stop her coming home she hung up. I shut off my phone and chucked it across the room from me so I wouldn't have to face it, since I was tempted to message mason but I had to let him know that if there is a future for me and him, he can't just be forgiven for something like that, if there is a future between us. Right now my heavy thoughts are leaning more to no future since I'd have to learn to trust him again but it was still unknown wether that is what happened or not which breaks my heart into pieces but Everything happens for a reason clearly.