Chapter Thirty Eight: Insecurities and bitter gaurd

                                    

                                          
The ride home was really silent as the bluehead rested his head on the younger's shoulder who tried hard to focus on the road as he was driving. He wanted to initiate a conversation but  was still too disturbed, thinking about the incident that just happened
As soon as they reached home, the ravenette was hugged by his husband who dropped the carry bags on the floor but both of them paid no attention to it
"I am sorry" was the first thing the older spoke confusing the other
"why are you saying sorry Tae?" asked the confused male
"For everything that happened at the shop" Tae looked down, as if ashamed
"Again, why are you saying sorry for something that wasn't your fault" he asked 
"for putting you in a situation like that. For standing there like a stupid without saying anything, letting my insecurities take over and you had to defend a coward like m-" he wasn't able to complete when he felt the Idol's lips on his
The glorious tattooed arm held him in place and kissed him like he was proving something while Tae wrapped his arms around the Younger's neck. There was no aggressiveness or rush in the kiss, just an intimate conveying of an unsaid message.
Their lips moving perfectly on sync as if it is just made for each other, just like everything else about them 
It was after a couple of minutes that the idol let go reluctantly, considering the lack of oxygen. Both panting lightly with swollen lips when Jungkook spoke
"I'll say his once and hear it very clear Tae, I don't like anyone degrading you. Whether it is a random person or that bastard's parents or even you. I wont allow it" The usual playfulness from his tone was long gone and replaced with pure seriousness. 
"So think again if you're planning to call yourself those names. And what were you talking about being a coward? Having an insecurity doesn't make you a coward nor it makes you stupid. I defended you not just because I love you but also because no one deserves to be treated like that. Its okay if you didn't say anything, you don't have to be strong always baby. You have me" He kissed the older's forehead seeing the tears filled eyes
"Are you angry at me?" Tae asked
"No but I did felt a bit angry when you thought I would believe whatever nonsense they were saying. You looked vulnerable and I hated that" 
"I am sorry" 
"Only say sorry if its for throwing banana at my head earlier" He playfully glared making the older laugh
"You are unbelievable, Kook" Tae said lightly punching his arm
"I know right?! You are so lucky to have me as your husband" the ravenette said proudly
"That I am" the bluehead was fully smiling by now, the bad mood and sadness long gone
"And Tae, its okay to be insecure sometimes. My biggest insecurity and fear is that there's a possibility of you being in danger because of being in a relationship with me. I know how dangerous it is for you, being a male Idol's husband. Especially in a country where homosexuality is still not exactly accepted. Also that we cant have a normal relationship like everyone else" he spoke, voice laced with worry
"I am fine with that Koo-"
"I know, I know you are mostly okay with it. But I have seen some not so friendly messages you get from random people claiming to be my fans. You're never said it to me or even Jiminie Hyung, keeping it all to yourself. I know its not going to stop anytime soon, but I wont let it harm what we have and I'll fight for us. I love you Tae, so much. So promise me if you ever have these thoughts or receive these messages again" Jungkook said cupping his face