Chapter 22

                                    

                                          


                          
My head is killing me, my ears are ringing so badly the noise is ironically deafening. I don't have any energy in me, so I stay were I am just breathing, making sure I am alive. And again I started falling asleep again back into painless, soundless sleep. 
                          
I woke up groaning as I feel the pain on my right arm, slowly I try opening my eyes but so much light was over me, it seemed to be reflected by the walls surrounding me. I have to blink several times for my view to adjust to the amount of light in the room. I remained there blinking until the light stopped hurting my eyes. So I groaned and started to turn over my good side. I opened my eyes to find myself in a hospital room. The white curtains the white walls and when I look down at myself I see white sheets! This is terrible, I have never been interned in a hospital. Most of the time when I had ever come in to the hospital about something about me, myself, and I it would just be for blood tests or usual check up. But staying in a hospital was definitely something different and definitely scarier. 
                          
-Nice- I groan looking to the window on my right seeing nothing but building tops. I start hearing footsteps and turn to the bed that is a t the far left corner, it creeks open to reveal a familiar smile, -Kara-
                          
-Hey girl, how you feeling?- she asked walking in and sitting carefully at my side, -I brought waffles- she adds raising a doggie bag.
                          
-My hero- I chuckle extending my good arm at her.
                          
-I knew I shouldn't have left you all alone- Kara smacked her forehead with her palm and I couldn't help but smile, -But at least you didn't burn the place- 
                          
-Told you, I wouldn't- with a smile I lay again over my two comfy pillow, -Now hand me the waffles- Kara places the doggie bag to my side and smiles at me 
                          
-Hey I am going to get coffee you want one?- 
                          
-Yes, I would love one!- I laugh, -Maybe it will make the dizziness go away-
                          
-I'll be right back- the blonde stands up making me able to see her out fit a plain pink knee length dress with a denim jacket over it, she really rocked the pastel colors and so she exits the tiny room. I am sitting on my bed trying my best to eat waffles only using my left hand. I mean it was going good because there was no syrup. After two waffles I spot a head poking from behind the door instantly recognizing who it was thanks to the white streak of hair. 
                          
-Hey stranger- I say laying back on the bed
                          
Jason walks in a stitched up cut under his left eye wearing grey pants and a white t-shirt his hands were hidden inside his pants's pockets and he was haunched, his eyes didn't shine as always. He looks sleep deprived his hair is falling all over his face and Jason has to constantly blow it up. 
                          
-How are you feeling?- he asked nodding in my arm's direction 
                          
I take a quick look at my arm then just shrug with my left side, -I will live- The corner of Jason's mouth lift into a smile just for a second before nodding grimly at the floor, -How are your ears?-
                          
He met my eyes with a confused expression, -What? My ears are all good, why would you ask?-
                          
-Well that Canary Cry was- I purse my lips, -pretty damn loud- Jason walks closer to me, in a frantic movement and falls to his knees grabbing the side of my hospital bed his head looking down. 
                          
-I am sorry- Jason said
                          
I move closer to him and place my hand over his head before sliding it until I reach his cheek, -It wasn't you-
                          
-Everything I said...I...I-
                          
-I understand- I sighed kindly caressing his cheek he wouldn't face me so I just stared at his raven black hair, -but it was all Poison Ivy's fault- 
                          
Jason looked up his eyes glistening, -You don't understand, Vienna.- he looks back down 
                          
-Jason- I say softly, -I forgive you-
                          
One of Jason's hands punched the floor and I swear I heard the floor crack, -No, fuck, don't forgive me. Yell at me, fucking slap me, do something!- he growled. 
                          
I separate my hand from his cheek and sweetly slap him, -Done.- 
                          
His hands were pulled up until he covered my hand with his, -I mean it. You have to be at least a bit angry at me- and he stares at me 
                          
I stay silent and look away from him and sigh, I didn't know what I was feeling, when he spoke to me last night those words he said, they were very true. I wasn't taking our break up seriously, neither was he, but I had pulled him in when he was doing his best to stay away from my life. If anything this was definitely my fault. Being separated wasn't helping any of us. I was angry at being so confused with his matter, I was sad because of all the hurtful things he said, I was happy Jason was there, I was in the verge of tears. I felt like a teenager in that certain time of the month when nothing makes sense and you just want to scream and cry and eat chocolate. So when I look back at Jason I burst into tears and he quickly embraces me careful not to hurt my right arm.
                          
-I was so scared- I sobbed in his chest, -you seemed very angry-
                          
Jason nodded, -I was, am sorry Vienna- he said and I could feel how his chest was moving up and down rapidly, Jason was also crying,-I would have never done that-
                          
-But you did Jason- I breathe, -But it wasn't your own impulse- 
                          


                          
In Jason's embrace I must have fallen asleep, and when I started to stir I heard people arguing outside my door. 
                          
-You shouldn't be here Jason- came Kara's voice, -You could have killed her-
                          
-But I didn't Kara- Jason responded angrily 
                          
-You would have if your brothers hadn't showed up!- Kara shouted, -Oh and Canary- 
                          
I could hear Jason's breathing, -It wasn't me- he said 
                          
-Imagine where would she be right now if they hadn't showed up. She would be in a a morgue with a bullet hole in her forehead, Jason!- 
                          
That made my skin get goosebumps, then I remembered -Brothers?- Did she mean Nightwing and Red Robin were Jason's brothers? Tim and Dick.... OH MY GOD! Does that mean that...Bruce Wayne is Batman. Damn! I didn't expect that, and I thought I was the one with a difficult secret. Jason being Red Hood explains all the scars on his back and all those time he had to cancel plans because he had to go help out... Does that mean that he actually died? Like dead, dead? Oh God, I have so many questions
                          
-You think I don't know that?- Jason shouted back at Kara, -I am all aware of the monster I am.- he stopped to take a breath, -I know I am a monster, and that girl there was..is the only thing keeping me sane, but what I did wasn't my fault. It was Ivy's poison. Never in my right mind would I have come to metropolis to kill Vienna.- 
                          
-Jason- Kara sighed, -She is my best friend, okay? She loves you, it was the hardest thing for her to leave you, and I believe that she doesn't blame you, but please if you plan on being with her quit the hero gig, or you are going to get her killed-