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Sage POV 
I sat there tapping my nails waiting for Mekai to come. I looked down at my phone and remembered that I completely ditched Ash today. 
Bestfriend 💕 
Girl what happened today?? 
I'm sorry it's been a lot going on 
Mekai got locked up, I found out I'm pregnant with TWINS and I could have a miscarriage it's like nothing is going right rn 
Awwl ima be a auntieeee🥺🥰
Ash🤦🏾‍♀️
I know it's just I'm so excited 
Tuh I'm not 
Understandable but you got options 🤷🏾‍♀️
If you saying I should get an abortion then I'm gonna block you 
I'm not saying that but if all of this is causing you this much stress would u rather keep 2 unborn babies and ruin your mental health or get an abortion and worry about kids in the future??
I mean I definitely think my mental health could be better but Mekai so excited bout having them so I would feel like shit if I had to go behind his back and kill his kids 
That would honestly make me feel worse 
Well my advice is...
This can't be good... 
Yes it can...
Whenever you get him out of a cell then u need to talk to him about it 
Cause I'm pretty sure Mekai the type of person to be understanding of everything 
He seem like it
He is but idk I just think he need time to get his mind right 
Ash this is the 2nd relationship I've ever been in and this one..
I just can't mess it up 
 You won't Sage omgg 
Stop overthinking everything he's not gonna break up with you because of this
He would prefer you to be alive over kids he's never met before 
Well when you put it like that..
I know I know I give the best advice📸📸😝🥰
U so stupid 😭
Anyway lemme see if he's gonna leave now.
Alright bestie I love uuuu❤️
I love u tooo❤️❤️
I closed my phone and smiled when I saw Mekai coming through the doors. 
"Hi bubba." I said hugging him. I expected him to grab my ass like always but this time he didn't even hug me back. I looked up and he wasn't even looking at me and once again his eyes looked dead. 
"Wassup." He said pulling my phone out my purse. 
"What they been doing today?" He asked as we walked out to the car. 
"Making me nauseous." I shrugged taking the keys and starting the car. 
"Hold up." He said lifting my shirt up and kissing my stomach. I smiled and watched him. 
"I love y'all." He smiled kissing me and pulling my shirt down. 
"We love you too." I said kissing his cheek. 
"I'm sorry mama." He sighed rubbing my thigh as I pulled in another lane. 
"For?" I asked raising my eyebrow.
"Stressing you out cause of my mistake, like damn I should've listened to you." He replied leaning on the door. 
"I know bubba but it was only one day. I'm fine, I didn't even have a panic attack!" I smiled feeling kinda proud of myself. 
"That's good mama but it's some I wanna talk to you about." He said rubbing my leg. 
"Wassup?" I asked still keeping my eyes on the road.
"Pull over for a minute." He said pointing over to the side of the road. I pulled over and turned around so we was face to face. 
"Ight so I was thinking that we-"  
"Wait.. you're gonna break up with me?" I asked furrowing my eyebrows.
"No I'm not mama." He chuckled and I let out a breath I didn't know I was holding. 
"But I was thinking about moving with my uncle." He sighed running his fingers through his hair.
"Oh umm.. well when? Cause I gotta make sure I have enough money to get a decent sized apartment or something." I said rubbing my leg. 
"Probably as soon as we graduate, but the thing is he doesn't live in Miami." 
"Where he live then?" I asked looking at his body language and I could tell he was nervous. 
"In Texas." He nodded and I choked on my spit. 
"W-what? Why would you- what Mekai?" I asked feeling myself about to cry. 
"I-" 
"Mekai do you realize that I'm pregnant.. not just with one of your kids but 2? And you're just gonna pick up and leave in 2 months because of what? I can't do all of this by myself!" I rambled with tears in my eyes. 
"Mama I know youn want me to leave but I promise you ima be there for you no matta what." He said rubbing my hand and wiping my face. 
"But w-why?" I asked rubbing my eyes. 
"Compton ain't for me, and Miami ain't for me. Ion wanna get in trouble again and be in a cell even longer than a day mama." He shrugged.
"I just don't want you to leave Mekai.." I sniffled. 
"I'm sorry mama but I wanna ask something else.." He said looking down. 
"Hm?"  
"Are you sure you wanna keep them?" He asked and I choked on my spit once again. 
"WHAT MEKAI?" I yelled looking him in the eyes. 
"I mean if-" 
"No I don't wanna hear whatever the fuck you're about to tell me! I thought you were happy about this but now you're just gonna say fuck me, move to Texas and then ask me if I'm getting an abortion? What type of nigga are you?" I ranted as my voice cracked. 
He said something but I tuned him out and started driving again. Once I pulled up to the house I quickly got out the car and went inside walking past Anita with a quick smile and wave. 
I went upstairs and locked myself in the room and started looking for jobs on Indeed. If I was about to be by myself doing all this then I would need my own money to raise 2 kids. I knew it was gonna be hard with a job, school and 2 newborns but I had to make it work especially if Mekai was gonna move for real. 
"Mama can I come in?" I heard Mekai say from the hall. I rolled my eyes and went to open the door.
"Shouldn't you be packing?" I sniffed looking up at him. Why he gotta be so fine? 
"Bruh i come in here to talk to you an-"
"MEKAI I DO NOT CARE! Do you see our fucking situation?? I'm pregnant and you just randomly decide that you're gonna move and leave me by myself to deal with this shit? Where the fuck am I supposed to go Mekai? You're not thinking about anyone or anything but MEKAI! How the fuck do you expect me to juggle a job, school and 2 kids without having a fucking mental breakdown?! When you made this decision were you even thinking about me?" I ranted as tears fell down my face and my voice cracked. 
He chuckled and walked across the hall slamming the door behind him. I shut the door softly and felt myself about to have a panic attack. 
"B-breath Sage." I said to myself through tears. 
"It's n-not working!" I cried sitting on the floor hyperventilating.