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"𝘴𝘰𝘮𝘦𝘵𝘪𝘮𝘦𝘴 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘴𝘦 𝘸𝘢𝘭𝘭𝘴 𝘴𝘦𝘦𝘮 𝘵𝘰 𝘤𝘢𝘷𝘦 𝘪𝘯 𝘰𝘯 𝘮𝘦."
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Graduation is a time I was looking forward to before and now I sit in the nook of my apartment wishing I could go back to it. 
Since we packed up our lives and began calling Marley our home, it wasn't Eren or Sasha or historia or the others who were struggling with their future; it was me. talent can only get you so far and to tell the complete and honest truth it seemed I simply didn't exactly have much of it compared to everyone else who was occupying the space I desperately wanted to be a part of.  As envious as it sounded, it hurt seeing everyone else feel like they had found their place and yet I was still searching.
The apartment was deserted most of the time and it was almost as if I was living with eren's spirit as much time as he spent away drowning in work and networking with the big hats in the entertainment business; of course, I was proud of him but I wanted to be as important as he was and It wouldn't hurt to be able to be important to him again. 
"Babe I have to head out soon." eren's voice cut off my internal depressing dialogue as his lips rested for a short second on my forehead.  My self-wallowing had eaten up the mere ten minutes I was allotted each morning. 
"It'd be nice if I could get time with you instead of watching you tear up the room to rush out the door three minutes later." I sighed as he pulled away slipping on a pressed ivory dress shirt. He paused to look at me with those pitiful eyes,  if his eyes could speak they'd say "No need to make me feel worse than I already."
"I know it's just that today is important but I swear after I get home we can go out okay? I'll take you to dinner, the movies, or we can go catch up with everyone," he spoke in a cheery tone yet it did nothing but boil my blood.
"You said that yesterday and the day before that and so forth, it has yet to happen. it's fine I have to go to my internship anyway," I grumbled tugging the hair elastic out and letting my hair pool at my shoulders. I sounded like a child begging their parents to spend time with them, it was embarrassing and made my chest feel heavy.
"Can you not throw a temper tantrum today? I'm trying y/n." his tone lowered and suddenly I felt like the smallest thing in the room. As he took a step closer to me and let out a breathy apology, I backed away. Things had been like this for months, Eren believed my feelings were attacks and I felt unheard, belittled, and confused. 
"Just go  I wouldn't want my temper tantrum to make you late," I whispered swatting his hand away and slipping into the bathroom without another word being exchanged between us.