chapter 30

                                    

                                          
Jennie's POV.


                          
I swallowed nervously not having the guts to look at Lisa.
                          
"I asked you something Jennie!" Lisa's voice boomed making me jump.
                          
"I.....I um...I don't want to talk about this right now." I said scramble off the bed ignoring my pain.
                          
"Get your ass back here." She warned frighteningly calm.
                          
"Li-"
                          
"NOW!"
                          
I walked over to her and she pulled me onto her lap.
                          
"Let me tell you something, we're in a relationship. Which means we talk shit true. What happened last time isn't happening again. So I'll ask you one more time Jennie Kim, and you better fucking answer. Do you or do you not want to have my children."
                          
I opened my mouth to answer but was cut off by Rosie bursting into the room with tears running down her face.
                          
"What happened?" Lisa asked her as she placed me off hee.
                          
"D-Dad..." Rosie didn't finish as she broke into sobs.
                          
I limped over to her and hugged her
                          
"what happened to Dad Rosie?" Lisa asked worriedly.
                          
"He....he's i-in the hospi-" before she could finish Lisa ran to get her keys.
                          
We went into her car and drove to the hospital.































                          
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"I'm fine honey." Mr.Manoban said to his wife for the 100th time she asked.
                          
We were all in his hospital room waiting for the doctor, they said that he got into a vehicular accident on his way home. A car smashed into the side of his car causing it to smash into a pole. The car sped off immediately leaving Mr.Manoban unconscious in his car.
                          
"How bad is it?" Lisa asked the doctor whom just entered.
                          
"Because of the impact he received a couple broken and bruised rubs, a fractured leg and a broken arm. It will take some time for him to be fully healed so he will be staying here for a while. He also hit his head on the window pretty hard which made a gash but it was closed up other than that he's fine."
                          
Everyone let out a sigh of relief, Rosie ran to her father being cautious of his condition and embraced him.
                          
An hour later everyone left after Mr.Manoban practically chased us out to spend time with his wife.
                          
During the ride home Lisa was silent, she looked deep in thought as she often tightened her hold on the steering  wheel or clench her jaw.
                          
I just hope she forgets our talk from before.
                          
As soon as we get home I made my way to our room and took a shower. Changing into my shorts and T-shirt I took up a book before going to the garden.
                          
I didn't want to talk to Lisa about giving her a baby. Truthfully I was scared shitless, I didn't want a repeat of my past. I love her with everything, but it was too much.
                          
I sat there reading, lost in the world of fantasies trying to escape my reality.
It was always my escape when things got to hard.
                          
"Jennie." a voice said making me let out a small scream.
                          
"Hanbin?" I said looking at him.
                          
"Hey." He said sitting next to me.
                          
Okay......
                          
"You need anything?" I asked wondering what he was doing here.
                          
"How are you?" He asked randomly.
                          
"OK?" I said raising a brow.
                          
"Okay." He said nodding.
                          
"Do you want to go get a drink?" He asked after a minute.
                          
Totally forgot he was here.
                          
"I don't think-"
                          
He rolled his eyes,"Yeah because Lisa didn't say to right." He snapped.
                          
Someone's on their meriod (man period??)
                          
"This has nothing to do with Lisa, Hanbin. I just don't want to go anywhere." I said glaring at him.
                          
"Sure, like if you don't obey her every command like a slave." He said scoffing.
                          
"I do not!" I yelled at him.
                          
What the fuck is his problem?!
                          
"Yeah whatever." He said shaking his head standing.
                          
"Don't forget that we friends before you started fucking my brother Jennie." He spat walking away.
                          
I felt like he kicked me in the stomach with his harsh words. I wasn't in the mood to read again so I went to my room.
                          
Walking in I saw Lisa sitting working on her laptop.
                          
I ignored her presence and laid on my side of the bed and closed my eyes.
                          
"So your just going to ignore me instead of talking about this?" Lisa said, clearly irritated with me.
                          
"I'm tired Lisa." I whispered not in the mood for this argument.
                          
"Don't you dare Jennie! I want to know why you don't want to have my children!" She snapped.
                          
I sat up to face her,"because I'm not ready Lisa!"
                          
"What do you mean your not ready?"
                          
I ran my hand through my hair tugging it roughly."I'm too young to have kids Lisa, I'm only 20 years old I have my whole life ahead of me. I don't want to be tied down with a damn baby!" I said pacing the room.
                          
"Are you serious? god Jennie it's not like you have to work I already told you I have enough money for that. I get that your young and want to enjoy life, fine do that, all I'm asking for is a damn child. It could be in a couple of months, years fine I'll wait I just want to be a father." She said pulling me to her.
                          
"Who are you kidding Lisa, your clearing not going to wait years for a child. I know you want to be a father now...it's... Its just that I...I can't right now."
                          
"You sound so fucking selfish! I've never asked you for anything Jennie, and the one thing I desperately want your denying me of it!" She yelled walking over to her nightstand taking out a bottle of whiskey.
                          
Great now she's extra stressed.
                          
"I can't do this right now Lisa." I sighed.
                          
"Of course you can't." She said taking another shot.
                          
I shook my head before waking to the door. I'm not dealing with this shit tonight.
                          
I opened the door only for it to be shut back by her hand.
                          
"why?" Is voice crooked.
                          
Turning I saw tears welled up in her eyes, she looked so broken it made my eyes water and my heart break.
                          
"Why don't you want to have my kids Jennie? I love you baby please, I want to have a baby. I want to be a father Jennie. Show me you love me and grant my wish please." She begged.
                          
Tears flowed down my face
                          
"I can't, I can't go through the pain again Lisa. I'm sorry." I said making space between us before running out of the room.




































                          
I love her, but I can't.......I can't lose another.