5 ~ [Will Everything Be Fine?]

                                    

                                          
LEERA
"Leeraaa," The word didn't really reach my brain even if it enters my ear. The noices keep on boring my ears but none made any sense to me.
I feel a tap on my shoulder, "Leera-!" Aria shouts my name this time so loud that my ear drum almost tears up due to the sudden pitch in her voice. I break apart from my thoughts and stare at her perplexed, "Huh?"
"Are you even in this world? Where are you lost?"
"Ahh Leera! Were you even listening to what I was saying before!? What are you thinking so deep!?" She asked, sounded irritated
"Nothing, Aria" I said with a calm posture
"So, what was I talking about?" She asked again. But I really didn't know what she was talking about as I was deep down in my own thoughts
"Leera!! For some minutes pay attention to me. I was literally blabbering things for a while and you didn't even listen what I was saying" she said in an annoyed tone
"Sorry Aria, mind to tell me again?" I asked softly. Nowadays I'm literally lost in my own thoughts. I wanted to be all by myself. Away from everyone and everything
"So, what I was saying is as tomorrow is our college trip to Malta. You know we have a function in the evening there. And moreover what we are going to wear and what we are going to do-" she kept telling me about her plans for the trip
I had no urge to go. But I can't avoid that, I have to go and I knew Aria will somehow take me anyway. If I don't go everyone will suspect because I personally loved travelling from the beginning and everybody close to me knew it very well. So that's why I'm basically going but Levi is also not here and won't be able to go to the trip I guess. That's another reason why I don't want to go. And moreover my mental health isn't supporting me either
And the next moment what she said made me light hearted and made my hesitation go away. Some part of me now wanted to go for the trip. I can't even say how much delighted I felt when I heard her saying, "Levi said, he will attend the college trip. He will come directly from his home I guess. So maybe he won't be able to join us for the road journey but yeah he assured he will certainly come! He said he has some work, so he would be a lil late maybe. Perhaps join us in the evening function"
I can feel at ease now finally. I felt really good knowing he will be there to handle me, he will help me to get rid of those mental pressures. A small smile creeped over my face after a long time, it's been weeks I saw him last time anyway. He is literally the one who can cheer me up any moment and bring innumerable smiles in my dull face. I really needed him to comfort me.
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I was packing my bags for the trip as my mom called me and I went to her
"Leera, honey! So how many days are you staying there for the trip?" She asked
"Mom I guess 2-3 days." I said. For the last few days I have been so absent minded that I didn't even pay attention exactly how many days we are staying there but it won't be more than 3 days I guess
"Okayy daughter, have fun!" She said with excitement as she is the one going for the trip. Her small expressions like this makes me happy. "Why do you look pale??" She asked, this time in a low tone starring at me
"Yeah mum, it would be really fun" I uttered with a forced smile on my face. I don't want her to think I'm unhappy or something like that. "Ahh and you know.... me and Aria went to shopping today after college.. and then my shift at the library... it was a busy day today. I guess I'm tired" I said in a relaxed tone not wanting to make her worry