Seven

                                    

                                          
I stared at the positive sign on the bathroom floor for a good 10 minutes. I knew I was pregnant obviously but, seeing it for myself for the first time hit me hard.
                          
I didn't even notice the tears already falling on the pregnancy test stick. 
                          
I put my head to the wall, crying silently, I've known for 3 weeks already and I'm just now realizing that I'm actually pregnant with a baby, Ethan's baby.
                          
He came up to me in school, offering me a lemonade he got from the vending machines. 
" Thanks," I said opening it.
                          
" we're about to hotbox the janitor's closet, do you want to come?" I shook my head, the worst thing was I couldn't even chase that high right now. I'm the one pregnant and he's standing there about to get high and not knowing I'm carrying his child. 
                          
" you never turn down a hotbox, what's wrong?"
" don't feel good." I shrugged 
" you alright?" I nodded, " I was heading for the office, I need to pick up my checklist for the senior trip." 
                          
" you're still going?" 
I nodded, " you?" 
" yea, signed up this morning."
                          
I don't know why but right now I wanted Ethan more than ever. The way he was leaning against the lockers, hands in his pockets, his smirk plastered on his face. 
                          
I bit my lip and moved in closer to him, closing the distance between us. 
" Sofia." He looked around, gulping. 
                          
I grabbed his face, I got up on my toes, kissing him, his hands held my waist, making it easier for me to reach him as he bent down. Hormones. They exactly what this is. But I'd be lying if I said I didn't want Ethan again, I was so happy that night. 
                          
He made me feel a different type of special. His hands moved up my back, he leaned forward, deepening the kiss. " I need you." 
                          
He searched my eyes then nodded, looking over my shoulder and moving us into a classroom. At least we didn't need to use a condom. 


                          
I felt a certain emptiness as we walked out of the classroom. I missed him and he was right beside me. 
                          
I turned around and hugged him. " you alright there gumdrop?" He wrapped his arms around my waist. " just a minute longer." I wiped a tear on my face away, as he rested his chin on my shoulder. 
                          
" God, you're weird." He laughed, " asshole." I smacked his arm.