"For god sake Y/N. Where are you?!" I yelled once more, going through the hall and going into her room to look for her again, she wasn't there but I noticed something this time, a note. 
I picked it up and unfolded the white paper note. 
"Dear members, Enhypen and anyone else reading, 
Hello, I am really sorry but you probably can't find me right now, correct? Well you won't be able to ask me about this again because I have already left to the Han river and the bridge next to it" 
"Y/N!" I yelled, running out of her room and down the hall to the front door, past my members as they all ran behind me, I was much faster than them all. 
"Unnie! Wait!" Rina called for me but I ignored her and kept running as fast as I could in hopes of catching Y/N before she did something stupid. 
I came up to the river and bridge, noticing a familiar figure, it was her. 
I ran faster. 
"Y/N! Don't!" I yelled in hopes that she would hear me and she would not jump. 
It was too late and she fell on the railing, down into the river. 
"No!" I cried out, I barely missed her, I dropped to my knees. 
I sobbed loudly and screamed as I had just lost my member, my best friend... 
"Unnie... Y/Nie... The police is on their way along with the ambulance" Yeji dropped down next to me and placed her arm over my shoulder, I was the closest to Y/N, other than her boyfriend, and I just lost her. 
End of Flashback
"Y/N... She's well..." I couldn't even get the words out because I was still crying my eyes out. 
"Dear members, Enhypen and anyone else reading, 
Hello, I am really sorry but you probably can't find me right now, correct? Well you won't be able to ask me about this again because I have already left to the Han river and the bridge next to it. 
Riki baby... I love you so damn much and I am sorry to leave you but I don't belong here anymore, everyone was right about me and I only had you to turn to, even then I didn't want to burden you, nor Lila unnie. I love you both so much and please keep on going with your career, I will cheer from above. 
Lila, Rina, Yeji, Hyunjin, Sooyun, Minyeon, Shuna and Hyuna... I am really sorry to leave you all but the group will be better off without me. I will support you all from above and I will make sure you are all very successful with your careers. I love you all.
Thank you all for everything you have all done for me. I love you all. Please move on and keep your heads up high" 
Rina finished reading her note that she left for us and folded it back up. 
"She... She's gone..." Ni-ki couldn't believe his ears and I stood up immediately and held him in my arms as he sobbed into my shoulder. 









NI-KI's POV:
My heart shattered into a million tiny peices as I heard those words leave Rina's mouth, she really was gone. 
"She... She's gone" I managed to blurt out, Lila noona rushed over to me and took me in her arms as I began to sob loudly and uncontrolably. 
"What happened? H-how did it h-happen?" I managed to mutter out after calming down slightly. 
"She went to the bridge like she said, I just missed her, I could've saved her but I was a fraction too late... She jumped off the bridge, paramedics came and got her out of the water, trying to save her but it was too late. She hit her head on impact with the water and she passed out... She drowned" Lila unnied explained what happened and I couldn't help but cry out more and more. 
"Why? Why would she do this?" I whispered, broken hearted and devestated that the love of my life had just left me all alone. 
"Nobody knows, she must have been ill" Lila noona muttered, stroking my hair as she did so. 
"Let's go back to the dorms" Heeseung hyung said as a tear rolled down his cheek, I was unable to move because I was so upset. 
Heeseung hyung took me from Lila noona's arms, slinging one arm over his left shoulder and my other arm over his right arm, lifting me off of the floor to give me a piggyback and carry me. 
I cried the whole way home, the walk to the car, the car ride home, the walk into the dorm and in the shower, getting changed for bed and brushing my teeth, I skipped dinner and went straight to bed. 
"You'll never be forgotten baby..." I fell asleep from crying so much.






















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