Chapter 32: Rico's Memorial.

                                    

                                          
We made it back.. I was looking down trying hard not to cry. All the families watching us carry everyone's unconscious body. We saw Jean and the rest waiting for us, I took Armin and gave him to Reiner. I walked away from them all, not making contact whatsoever.
                          
"Y/n!" Levi said, I didn't even look back I just continued to walk I just wanted to be alone. I need to be alone. I couldn't feel anything, I made it to my room I closed the door behind me and stood there.. Processing everything that happened. I covered my mouth and fell on the ground sobbing. I couldn't stop myself from crying, I had to cry it all out.

                          
I lost yet another childhood friend, it was my fault.. If I hadn't listened to Hanji, and Levi I would've been able to save her. It was all my fault. I heard a knock on my door, I turned around and opened the door. It was a Levi.. I didn't want to talk to him.
                          
"y/n." He said, I slowly closed the door but he put his foot in between.
                          
"I'm sorry.." He said, I looked up at him with a straight face.
                          
"I-I can't right now.." I tried to close the door again.

                          
"Please." Levi said, he pushed the door lightly and came in closing it behind him. He was standing in front of me. I didn't want to deal with anyone or anything, I just wanted to cry everything out, but... Levi standing in front of me, made me feel something. 
                          
I didn't feel sad for some reason, I wanted to cry but didn't want to at the same time. I don't know.. I just wanted him. All of him. I wanted to forget about everything that is happening. Levi was quiet and was waiting for me to say something. I slowly walked up to him not breaking eye contact.
                          
"Y/n" He said, I looked at him and he looked at me. 
                          
"Tell me what you want, and I'll do whatever you want me to do. As long as your happy" He said. He looked genuine, and I wanted him more than anything. Looking at him makes every pain go away and I want to embrace that. I grabbed his collar and kissed him unexpectedly.
                          
"y/n.." he mumbled between the kiss.
                          
"just shut up." I replied, Levi took off his shirt and put me against the wall. He started kissing my neck, as he took off my shirt, but all of a sudden he stopped.
                          
"Are you sure you want to do this, right after.." He asked me worriedly, I sighed and nodded. Levi took my hand and put me on the bed getting on top of me, I was impatient so I kissed him. He kissed me back like he was hungry for it, and it really turned me on. So I let it happen..