Chapter 42

                                    

                                          
A/N:
                          
Sometimes it really sucks when you always say you're there for your friends but they're never  there for you themselves :( Yeah i'm not in the best of moods so let that forecast on todays chapter...
                          
xx

                          
"This place is starting to creep me out alot now Dan. Can we go back?" Phil said quietly as he held onto Dan's hand tightly.
                          
"Why?" Dan smiled, kissing Phil's cheek.
                          
"Dan...my years spent here were the worst years of my life."
                          
"Are you sure you aren't exaggerating?"
                          
"D-Dan! These were the very halls I-I would run through, desperatly t-to the toilets to try and escape from those...h-horrid thought. It w-was in these halls I was hurt by various p-people, abused, physically a-and verbally. Here was t-the place t-teachers saw yet i-ignored..." Phil choked out, a few tears rolling down his cheeks. "P-Please Dan I j-just w-w-wanna g-go h-h-home."
                          
Dan shushed Phil's sudden outrage, embracing him into his arms. Since he was quite a bit shorter than him, Dan kissed Phil's forehead too, stroking his jet black hair soothingly.
                          
"Hush kitten, no more talking until you're feeling better. We don't want that stuttering to return now do we? We just need to calm down first."
                          
"B-B-But t-these h-halls!" Phil protested, his voice cracking him from continuing.
                          
Dan took a deep breath to calm himself first. Then he remembered that he needed to distract Phil's mind completly since he seemed as if he was about to have a panic attack.
                          
"We will leave once you stop shaking my little kitten." Dan said calmly. "Besides, you're focusing on the negatives. Don't you remember the positives? These are the halls you and Annie would hang out in before I went here. Remember Annie? Yeah, we should visit her some time...And in these very halls was where I ran after you inbetween one of my classes. Because you were in the toilets crying by yourself and I saw and I helped! These halls hold the memories of so many bad things, but so many good things too. Like when we decided to start holding hands in school, we decided here. When we would walk to class together, when we would sneak out of class. Phil, kitten, theres always good in the bad your mind decieves you into believing. Without this place, imagine where you would be!" Dan said exasperatedly, still stroking Phil's hair.
                          
"D-Dead." Phil said bluntly.
                          
Dan pulled apart from the hug. "Phillip Micheal Lester don't you dare talk about yourself like that." Dan said sternly, holding back tears. "For fuck sake, you are so much stronger than you think! You think you can't do things but really...you do them better than anyone. Like...making videos. You think you're crap. You are fucking fantastic at making new videos and coming up with ideas for others to steal off of, yet you don't give a flying fucking they do. I envy that. I envy your patience so much, if it were me, i'd be mad as hell. I'd grab them and yell loudly 'hey give credit to my husband  you twat. He has a brain and comes up with original ideas unlike you'. Then i'd throw my shoe at them."
                          
Phil giggled very quietly, wiping his eyes. "I-It's because t-they r-re-us my idea...so I-I am p-p-proud of i-it! D-Dan...to me, i-it doesn't matter. I-I do those things to m-make people happy, a-and there is nothing w-wrong with somebody else d-doing the same in o-order to make even more p-peoppe happy by using t-the same idea y-you see." Phil stumbled out in a whisper.
                          
"....What d-....How am I married to someone so  secretly intellectual and a smart-ass who has the wisest wisdom ever but at the same time managaes to become the clumsiest person in the work...honestly, amount of times you've made me fall head over heels for you over and over again makes me wonder if you're even human Phil Lester." Dan said lovingly, taking Phil's hand and interlocking them as he lead the him out of the school.