Part 15

                                    

                                          
                                                           Trigger Warning: Mentions death 
                          
Author's Note : Before we get started I just want to say that you are loved, I love you, and im 100% sure that many people love you as well. You are worth living, worth striving everyday, and just worthy in general. I can't say much because again, i'm writing through a screen but, whatever you are going through, if you are going through something, I just want to say you deserve so much more than what's happening. You are going to survive this, I just know it. Much love, from the author :D
                          
"Mommy?" You were outside your parents door, when you opened it and saw it, the pills, scattered all over the floor, her lying on the floor, the covers pulled off the bed. You were just playing hide and seek a moment ago, you were hiding for a good 30 minutes, and she never cam to find you. Is this some kind of joke? 
                          
"Mommy, you can get up now. If your tired we can stop." She didn't move. You went over to her and shook her.
                          
"Mommy, if this is a prank it's not funny." You turn her around, and realized she wasn't gonna get up. You were 5 at the time, smart enough to know if someone's dead or not.
                          
"Oh god, Daddy! Daddy help me please!!" You cried out, little did you know he was drunk, passed out at who knows where, leaving you helpless in the situation. Your ran to your sister, who was 10 at the time, she was sleeping in her room.
                          
"Wake up please sis, please wake up!" She didn't wake up, instead the walls started melting, and everything disappeared. You were stuck in a room with only a chair, mirrors, and a light bulb at the top. The mirrors were you, with black eyes, saying how you were so young, it's your fault you should have came out before then, why couldn't you understand, you deserved it.
                          
"No, no your wrong! Your wrong!! It wasn't me, I didn't kill my mom!!It wasn't my fault!"
                          
"No...no....no." You started to mumble in your sleep, and crying. This woke Levi up. It was early in the morning, too early to be exact. He looked at you, and tried to wake you up.
                          
"Baby, Wake up!" You woke up, and started crying.
                          
"Levi- It wasn't my fault..."
                          
"No, no it wasn't your fault. You didn't deserve what your dad put you through, you didn't deserve any of that."
                          
"It was my fault-" Before you could say anything, you felt soft lips press against yours. You stayed kissing these lips for 5 minutes, stopping to take a breath.
                          
"Believe me now?" He smirks. You smile back and nod.
                          
"Okay then- yeah, I guess, it still hurts tho...it really hurts.."
                          
"I get that. I know how it feels for someone to leave you...especially the one you depended on the most..."
                          
"I'm really sorry, Levi."
                          
"It's fine. Eventually I got older, and it didn't bother me that much anymore. Still think about it from time to time but, im over it."
                          
Silence
                          
"Mmm- I'm tired..."
                          
"Yeah it's really early, we should sleep."
                          
And you end up sleeping, with your face turned down on Levi's chest, his arms around you.
                          
The next day.
                          
You were getting ready to train, and went out, when you passed by Blair.
                          
"Hey Blair."
                          
"Hey, y/n. Look im gonna be straightforward with you. Stay away from the Captain."
                          
"Wha-"
                          
"I like him, okay y/n? What part don't you understand, I used you to get closer to him, but that obviously didn't work. So just stay away from him. Oh, and I lied, I have plenty of friends."
                          
"Wow, Blair. The truth is, I had suspicions that you liked him, but.. I- I didn't think you would actually- nevermind. I actually liked you Blair, I thought you were my friend..." You say, looking down.
                          
"Well it was all fake. Now leave him alone."
                          
"Im afraid I can't do that, Blair." And you walked away, you had tears forming in your eyes. Why? You actually liked Blair, as a friend. They were such a good person, or at least you thought. This wasn't the Blair you been hanging out with for one year, this isn't them. You sat in a corner and cried. 
                          
You were late but you didn't care.
                          
"Y/N your late!" Erwin says. You responded with your head down, in the line. He realized you were having a little bit of a struggle today, and didn't make you run laps.
                          
Y/N POV: This whole day felt gloomy. Blair was still trying to get Levi's attention, in which it worked one time, when she kept bombarding him. I kept catching Levi looking at me, and his face gave a genuine expression of concern, and I just gave him a little smile. I kept looking at them, talking, in which Blair kept giggling and he gave a little smile once when she told him a joke. I kept my distance, though I overhead their conversations.
                          
They giggled at him, he looked at her.
                          
"What's funny?" He said.
                          
"Okay I have a story to tell, ready for it?"
                          
"Tch, whatever."
                          
"I remember one time we were testing Eren's titan powers, and out of nowhere he threw up on Hange while in titan mode. Turns out he wasn't over his hangover." They laughed. He looked at her with that "Got the whole squad laughing bro 😐" face. He then looked over at you, and saw you laughing with Mikasa. He stared at you for a while, Blair was still ranting.   
                          
"I'm sorry what were you saying?" He stops staring and draws his attention to them.
                          
"Oh- uhm...nevermind. I'll tell you later." They laughed nervously, disappointed.
                          
"Tch, I'll be back soon." He walked over towards where you and Mikasa were laughing.
                          
Timeskip: You were going back to your dorm, and heard chattering. Blair was talking with another cadet.
                          
"Hey...You know the corporal, right?"
                          
"Levi?"
                          
"Mhm" Blair nodded.
                          
"Yeah? What about him?"
                          
"Tell me, why is he soo...dry? I mean he's really cute, I just need to get on his good side."
                          
The other cadet laughs. "Welcome to the crew, he's always been like this. Good luck with getting him to change. His nickname for us is...."annoying brats". Although there is one cadet I've barely seen him insult."
                          
"Who is it?"
                          
"I think it's y/n."
                          
"Well, thats not his type, he might be with them just because-" Blair started.
                          
"Oh trust me when I say this, Levi is in love. I've seen the way he looks at y/n, they lighten his mood, he can't help but smile, even his cheeks flush. To be honest, it's the happiest the team has ever seen him in the past years. Ever since y/n has been on the team , he's started talking more to people, even it's suprised us."
                          
"But- I-"
                          
"Well, it was nice talking to you Blair, but, I gotta go. Bye!" And they walked away.
                          
Shit, Blair thought.