chapter 69

                                    

                                          
Warning contains blood,stomach pains,mentions of therapy,miscarriage,crying,mentions of a depression pit,mentions of not eating,mentions of little space.
                          
If you can't handle or don't like any of these. 
                          
Please let me know if I missed any triggers out.thank you 
                          
No one's p.o.v
                          
Everyone was having fun in the relaxing room playing guess who enjoying the game.
                          
Remus soon had to leave for his therapy session so the teams were uneven so they but guess who away and started to play jenga.
                          
Roman felt odd, he fet a pain in his stomach but he kept quite.
                          
As the day progressed the pain stayed at the level its was, it was not too bad.
                          
In the middle of the night roman felt something wet inbetween his legs and the pain in this stomach got worse.
                          
The pain got so bad the roman took the covers off himself to go to the bathroom as he felt sick.
                          
But as tomans took the covers off himself and he screamed as the pain got really bad.
                          
Remus immediately woke up and turned the light on, he then saw the amount of blood that was on romans bed.
                          
"Shit"
                          
Remus immediately pushed a help button and then he rushed over to help his brother.
                          
"Were dose it hurt?" 
                          
"MY STOMACH" Roman cried not realising how loud he was being.
                          
Soon some med staff arrived and took roman away to the med bay.
                          
Remus saw the blood on romans bed.
                          
Remus was worried, he dident know what happend but he hoped both roman and the baby were ok.
                          
Suddenly remus eyes were being wiped and he was being hugged.
                          
"Remus, remus whats wrong, why are you crying?" Remus haven't relatives he was crying
                          
"Where is roman and why is there blood?" Logan asked
                          
"R..........r..........roman s.......s........scream b.....b.......blood p......p.....pain b.......b........blood" remus stutterd out as he was gently sat on the floor by janus
                          
Logans then knelt in front of remus
                          
"Hey remus, do your exercises" remus nodded and did his breathing exercises, once he finally calmed down he looked at logan.
                          
"What happend?" Logan asked
                          
"I.....I dont know, I woke up to romans screaming, so I turned the light on ans saw that he was coverd in blood from the waist down, I pushed a help button and they took him t.....to the med bay"
                          
Everyone exchanged worried glances 
They were all now worried for both roman and the baby.
                          
"How about we head back to bed, remus you can stay with patton if you want"
                          
"Y....yeah b....but I wanna see roro" 
                          
"I know remus, how about as soon as you wake up, you come get me and we will go and see roman ok?"
                          
"O......ok" remus then got up and followed patton to his room
                          
"Hey virg I know your anxious but im sure they will be fine" janus says virgil nods janus,virgil and logan then went to theirnrooms where they tried to fall asleep but they were to worried about roman and the baby to sleep.
                          
The next day remus sprang up and went over to logans bed and shook him awake
                          
"Lolo we gotta check on roro" logan woke up and put his glasses on
                          
"Ok,ok lets go" logans said as he got out of bed, the two then went to the med bay.
                          
When they got there they immediately went to romans bed, when theu got there they saw roman sat uo knees up to his chest arms wrapped around his knees,red puffy eyes,tear tracks down his face, he was awfully pale, roman just looked like a mess.
                          
"Hey roro how are you?" Remus asked
                          
Roman said nothing.
                          
"How is your stomach pains?" Remus asked 
                          
Roman said nothing again and hugged his knees tighter.
                          
Soon janus,patton and virgil came in and saw the state roman was in.
                          
"Roman whats wrong?" Virgil asks as he sat next to his upset lover.
                          
"I.....im sorry" roman said as he fet a lump in his throat,tears burn his eyes and his heart break more.
                          
"Roman what happend?" Logan asked
                          
"I.....im sorry I......I couldent keep the baby alive" roman cried everyone's heart broke they were all so exited to have a baby and yet they are gone now.
                          
"Roman its ok"
                          
"N....n......no its not y....y......you all were exited to meet thr baby and yet I had a miscarriage b....b......beacause I wasn't strong enough to keep it safe and alive" romans sobbed as he his his face in his knees
                          
Virgil wrapped his arms around roman and held him close 
                          
"Roman its not your fault, sure we were exited but no one can predict the future" virgil said as roman sobbed into virbils shirt.
                          
"Yeah roro what the weirdo said, we cans see into the future so we couldent have known" remus spoke
                          
"I.....I.......I still feel bad, i......I.....I tried my best to keep them alive b.....b......but I guess I dide t try hard enough" roman said as he left virgils arms and went to his twins 
                          
"Roman, you did everything you could to keep the baby alive" remus said as he began to play with romans hair
                          
Roman then yawned, his eyes became half lidded and leaned more onto remus "m'tired" 
                          
"You sleep, you have had a rough night" roman soon closed his eyes and leand all his body weight on remus.
                          
Remus kissed the top of his brother head and then lay him down in the bed,he then put the blanket on roman and tucked him in.
                          
Remus the turned to the others.
                          
"What do we do now?"
                          
"I'm not sure,but we have to do something, having this baby made roman so much happier and he dident fall into his depression pit"
                          
"We shall talk about it later as roman need to get some sleep and we all should ask to hold a little ceremony for the one we have lost" logan said, everyone nodded.
                          
Patton,janus and logan wen to infrom remy of what had happemd while remus and virgil stayed with roman.
                          
A thought ran through virbils head but he dident want to suggest anything especially with romans past.
                          
Weeks later
                          
After the last couple of weeks roman has been quieter,he has eaten less,he becomes little regularly and he seems to have fallen into his depression pit.
                          
Roman was jn therapy today so the other had a small meeting in logan and pattons room.
                          
They were all discussing what to do.
                          
Ideas kept going back and forth and virgil had enough.
                          
"Hey guys?" Everyone looked a virgil 
                          
"Yes?" Janus said
                          
"What if......nevermind" virgil said looking down, he was too nervous and scared of their awncers
                          
"Virgil you can tell us"
                          
"Yeah"
                          
"No its stupid"
                          
"Virgil any idea is a good idea"
                          
Everyone kept encouraging virgil to tell them.
                          
"Ok,ok" virgil then took a breath
                          
"W....what if....."