Chapter 27 - Hogwarts express

                                    

                                          

"I'll miss you dears, look after yourselved and each other." My mum gave us all a kiss on the head as she said goodbye. Christmas had drawn to a close and now we were back at platform 9 ¾ ready for the new year. 
"We will. Love you." I hugged my mum and my dad before getting on the train with the boys. We got into our usual carriage and I couldn't help but look for Reg, I anxiously wanted to see him. I had so many questions, serious ones and I just wanted to see my boyfriend again. 
Peter met us in the carriage "Hi everyone!" He smiled cheerily and handed us all sweets for the journey. 
"Hey Pete." I smiled and we immediately started to catch up about Christmas. No one mentioned the attack just yet. 
Sirius walked into the carriage, less walked and more hobbled. He looked paler, the circles under his eyes darker, his cheek bones looked a little more hollow like he hadn't had anything good to eat for a while. Apparently we were all looking at him strange because he arched a dark eye brow "Oh don't act like you've never seen a hot person before." He smirked and reached up to put his trunk on the shelf. Then I saw it. 
! TW injury detail such as scars and blood! 
His shirt slightly lifted up to reveal fresh cuts running up his back in neat bloody lines. Some looked about a week old, some looked no older than a day. Oh Sirius. 
TW over 
I quickly looked away, he wouldn't want anyone to know. As he sat down, I noticed him wince slightly and we exchanged understanding glances. I had no anger for him anymore. He cleared his throat, "well I'm off to the loo see you in a bit." He told the group before leaving. 
Sirius walked out the carriage and a few seconds later I told everyone I was going to see Lily. I saw him walk into the boys toilets and I followed him, it was dumb I know but I had to see him. "Sirius."
He was stood by a sink, leaning against it taking deep breaths. He looked very much in pain and my heart ached just watching. He turned his head to look at me, the bathroom was empty except us. "Y/n? You're not really allowed in here." He chuckled. 
"I don't care. This is silly." I walked up to him and gave him a hug, wrapping my arms around his neck so I didn't hurt his scars. 
Instead of getting angry, he hugged me back so tight it seemed he was afraid to let go. "I'm sorry I've been such a dick." He chuckled. "I should have listened to you not thrown a month long sulk!"
"No I have. I'm so sorry for everything I should have been there for you." I shook my head, still holding him protectively. 
"What a pair of mugs we are." He laughed a little and it was clear I had the old Sirius back. 
"Sirius can you tell me what happened?" I asked softly. I had to know the truth and Sirius was my best hope. 
"With what- oh. That. Right." He sighed "come on." He dragged me into a toilet cubicle. He sat on the closed toilet lid and I sat on box behind it, feet dangling. 
"Cosy." I chuckled "muffilato."
"All Christmas I had basically been locked in my room, people were coming in and out the house and meeting my parents in the dining room. The Malfoys etc. I overheard them talking about some 'Dark Lord' and then... They asked me. Well more commanded me, to go and attack that house. Time I acted like a true Black or what ever. And of course I refused, so yeah." He took off his shirt to show me the scars up his back and they were dreadful. "I already know what face your making." He laughed a little, trying to keep the mood light. "I've had worse cuts from bits of old parchment don't you worry."
He was shirtless in such close proximity with anyone else it would be awkward but there was none of that tension here. He was my brother. "Let me heal those for you. Before mother hen James sees." I said and he laughed a little. 
"I'm glad we're friends again Y/n." He said to me as I cast the healing spells and slowly the wounds started close up. The angry reds and pinks turned as light as his pale complexion. 
"Me too. I missed you dickhead." I smiled. 
"Missed you too loser."
"Sirius I have to ask...Was Reg... Did he... You know..." I felt guilty bringing up Reg but I had to know. 
"No he didn't, he's not old enough apparently they'll start preparing him next year." As he said that, I let out a sigh of relief. It didn't make it miles better, this time next year Reg may be a death eater. Even the thought made me feel sick to my stomach. Reg enjoyed the life style more than Sirius did, the being looked up to, treated like a VIP wherever he went but surely he would do what was right. He had to. 
"And he let them do this to you?" I wanted to kill Walburga Black for how she hurt Sirius, wicked venomous woman. 
"There was nothing he could do." Sirius shook his head. "Strange times isn't it. But it's fine we're back at Hogwarts now." I'm sure he was saying that more to comfort himself. 
"All healed. I'm sorry the scars might fade with time but I don't know any spells-"
"It's alright, you're amazing." Sirius hugged me and I hugged him back "let's go back to the carriage before moony eats all the sweets.