Paternity

                                    

                                          
Vicrul POV-
                          
"Babe do you want anything?" I leaned down and brushed a few hairs out of Kara's face as she lay curled up on the couch. It had been three days since Ap'lek had been killed by Rey and Ushar had been put into a coma. 
                          
"No. Thank you though." She whispered into her stuffed otter that was pressed to her nose. Tears rolled down her cheeks still. The tears had been a constant for the both of us. 
                          
I tried to stay strong for her but I was breaking inside myself. I had known Ap'lek for nine years. And all nine of those he had been a brother to me. He had been a brother to us all. Ushar I had known just over six years but it felt like he had always been there with the Knights. I couldn't imagine a life without him or without Ap'lek. 
                          
I sat on the edge of the couch with my hip touching Kara's thighs over the fuzzy blanket she had pulled up and over her shoulders. I turned to look at the TV that had been on a constant repeat of Star Wars cartoons and movies since we got home. It was what Ushar and Kara always watched together. I watched the shows and movies with her and actually started to like most of it. I couldn't really get into the cartoons, that would have to be her and Ushar's thing. But the live action movies were really good. I definitely liked the show with the silver bounty hunter and his little green son. It was the show my Halloween costume was from and I wasn't ashamed to say I was a little obsessed. 
                          
"We have to leave soon for the doctor, babe." I rubbed her back and she groaned. "Come on. I put it off for a day already. You have to get checked. You were shot twice and stabbed. You should have gone immediately when we got back." 
                          
Kara's chest heaved a sighed and she grumbled. "I don't want to get up." 
                          
I smiled and slid my arms under her body, scooping her up and pulling her to me. I pressed my face to her neck and almost gagged. "When was the last time you showered babe?" 
                          
"When we got back." She spoke softly as I carried her straight to the bathroom. 
                          
I set her down on the counter and spun to turn the shower on. I faced back to her and pulled the stuffed otter from her hands and set it on the counter. I pulled my t-shirt that she was wearing off over her head and then pulled her panties down and tossed everything in the hamper. She smelled like sweat and grief. 
                          
"So I have to babysit you and make sure you shower now?" I tried to give her a repressed chuckle. 
                          
"I guess." She shrugged and looked at the floor. 
                          
"Do you want help?" 
                          
"No. I'll do it." 
                          
"Okay." I helped her off the counter and she padded across the floor towards the glass door. 
                          
Kara stepped into the shower and closed the door behind her. I watched as she stepped under the water and placed her face in the stream. I turned to leave and as I got to the door I heard her voice drift out of the shower stall. 
                          
"Vic." 
                          
I slowly moved back to the shower. "Yeah, babe?" 
                          
"Come in here." 
                          
Without a word I stripped and stepped into the shower with my little dear. I could see the fresh waves of tears staining her face. I pulled her to me and held her tight as her shoulders shook with the weight of the world. 
                          
"I'm sorry." She whispered. "It's my fault." 
                          
"It's not your fault. Why would you say that?" 
                          
"We were hidden. But I jumped out. I wanted her blood for what she did to Ren. I wanted it for what she did to all of you. And he followed me. He stayed by my side and was probably so focused on me he didn't see...I... don't know. I know it's all my fault."